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[ofthefallenstars]

Am I a better person when controlled?

Or a villain when I’m free?

Or am I weaker under a spell?

Or unstoppable when I am free?

I’m not here for a pity party

Im not here for you to stop me

Wake up, it’s time to start again

Strings pulled when I’m here with you

When I wanna be free I feel like a fool

It’s time to take a stand

I am vulnerable when I’m with you

But when I’m alone I feel brand new

It’s time I decide what I want to do

Be with me or someone like you

Be new or with someone like you

Rest your head I’m not going anywhere

I just want someone to call a friend

Don’t waste your breath explaining yourself

I already know you got what’s coming

You wonder why you’re stuck in a loop?

Let me tell you!

Id rather be with me than with someone like you

Bring me down and shrink me into a size 2

I want me to be happy with something new

Someone anyone no nobody like you

If you reach out and touch my hand

I slap it, don’t understand

I don’t want it, not your girlfriend

Make me understand

Someone, but not you

[ofthefallenstars]

I guess in truth, I was foolish wasn’t I? I guess, I really can’t find anyone who would love me or see me. I trapped myself once again. With irrational narrow minded lovers. Being chosen for being “useful” I … don’t even understand them anymore. Anything I say I just get ignored. It must be some new kind of mysogony. Once again followed a hypocrite…. Who needs therapy…I guess.

I guess I did learn. I could work it out, or I could leave.

[ofthefallenstars]

It was the end of that relationship and for the first time I felt wanted, but it was really shallow lust. He didn’t care about me. It was always about him. His troubles. Asking me about “him”

I was just a lost puppy. I was broken. For the first time I was needed but I wasn’t listened to. He doesn’t know what my hobbies are, my interests, for months, he didn’t care to even ask me. People usually ask each other what they likes. It was always about “ME” OOOH MY EX WAS A BITCH AND SHE WAS A FREAK.

I wonder if she really wanted those group sessions huh???

Just constantly, who cares about your ex?! You don’t see me complain about my ex bestie i just have terrible dreams with them.

People even tell them he can get any girl he wants. But NOT. ME.

He never saw me.

He used me.

He used people. He’s disgusting. And I was weak.

[ofthefallenstars]

For once I felt wanted.

For once I wanted to feel needed.

The world neglects me and I want nothing.

The world throws a bone and I want it all.

The world can go fuck itself.

Limerence, holds the light in my heart , I hold tight but it dies when you leave my side.

There’s a hole inside my chest now

Nothing but wasted time

But the hell in my chest still bleeds for wretched filth like you.

For once you made me whole

For once you made me forget

Forever I’ll never feel whole again.

[ofthefallenstars]

Well. This was kind of a terrible year. Had a bad vacation in February. But just felt left out. I got my boobs removed because of breast cancer. I had to keep distracted through games that I did like. In my state of weakness and depression, I got into trouble. Giving myself to someone who isn’t genuine at all. I’ve fallen out of love with this person. I was blind. A friend tried to comfort me but all I felt was awkwardness. Couldn’t feel anything, I didn’t know them. Didn’t want to give myself to them. I’m not desperate.

I’d better stop getting into these situations.

[ofthefallenstars]

For once I felt wanted. For once you made me feel special. But in reality it was just vapid lust. We were selfish. We used each other. But in the end I couldn’t feel fulfillment being with you. You shine so bright. It’s like you have the world wrapped around your finger. But I can’t relate. I don’t understand you. What you gain from the shiny lies. You’ve got baggage. I just can’t deal with you. I can’t deal with the drama that comes in and out of your life. I realize now, I will probably never be shiny in your eyes. I don’t see the point in continuing on. Being with you is painful.

[konoko]

[hcnnibal]

Never forget who gave you the best of them

[milksockets]

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[not-seppukku-deactivated2023120]

[devilicious-v-deactivated202502]

In the sultry haze of evening's shade,

She's the fire that doesn't fade,

With a smolder that entices, lips like wine,

To her allure, I'm forever confined.

Her touch, a temptation, when night falls near,

Whispering secrets I long to hear.

A siren's call, drawing me near,

In her arms, all fears disappear.

Her passion, a flame, fierce and wild,

With each breath, I'm beguiled,

Of the love she teases, so elusive and true,

With every tease, I'm pulled anew.

She's the fire that warms my nights,

Guiding me with sultry lights,

Stars that shimmer with wicked delight,

In her world, every fantasy takes flight.

When shadows play, she's at my side,

Drawing me in with a passion untried.

Between us, sparks that can't be denied,

Setting the night passionately alight.

In her eyes, desires unwind,

A game of love, enticingly designed.

For with each touch, and whispered plea,

Is a promise of nights filled with glee.

My sheets might be empty, but thoughts amiss,

For in dreams, it's her seductive kiss.

For she's the beat that quickens my pulse,

With her, every sensation is multiplied, never dulled.

A desire so raw, and utterly unbridled,

With her, every fantasy is rekindled.

She's the rhythm, the intoxicating boon,

My sultry evening, and the promise of the moon.

In her embrace, passion knows no decree,

Thankful for the ecstasy she offers me.

Entwined, our bodies find their chance,

In the heated, magnetic dance..!

[a-cloak-deactivated20241120]

I'm in awe of your ability to express such deep emotions and each word seems to paint a vivid image in my mind. Your poetry resonates with me on a profound level ♥️😌 it’s so tantalizing

[devilicious-v-deactivated202502]

I love you so much ♥️

[ofthefallenstars]

I’ve fallen for crazy. And I need help.

[ofthefallenstars]

Blood cage

Steel metal bars wrapped around my body

I want to touch the sky but there are past still surrounds me

I rip my wings but I’m still one in the shell

To destroy this corpse, I want to fly away

Cold blood cage

Displays my shame

These old bones don’t work the same

[ofthefallenstars]

I’m one of the broken ones

I’ll shatter in a touch

I exist with no value

Existence is too much

Destruction in my bones

Tainting my clothes

Leaving these holes

[ofthefallenstars]

This sound liberates my agony

My quiet mind fades into reverie

I am a prisoner to the pain

Take me somewhere I am safe

I’m no longer afraid

I don’t want to feel

I just want to fade

[ofthefallenstars]

I can’t breathe something invading me

Foreign feelings I don’t understand

Showing everything in the dark

Crushing my spirit and understanding

My trust under your control

My vision distorts with yours

Showing my shame to everyone

I can’t trust anyone anymore

Treating me like a toy

Wishing I was never born

[ofthefallenstars]

Am I a toy to you?

What is this a game?

If I let you, will you love me

I will show you my Shame

My flesh is being devoured

I’m no longer in control

You exploit my inner sanctom

I bare my pain I silence

Nobody loves used goods

Just new toys to play

Ridiculed by your entertainment

A scar deep inside me

Pain that never goes away