ITāSĀ ALLĀ ABOUTĀ THEĀ YEARNINGĀ
āĀ you need someone.Ā let me be that person.Ā let me be what you need.Ā ā
āĀ look,Ā i dunno if iām the kind of person you need or even want right now.Ā but iām looking around and iām the only one whoās here.Ā ā
āĀ i never realized how much i needed you until you were the one person who wasnāt there.Ā ā
āĀ you asked me once,Ā if i would ever take a chance on usā¦maybe that ship sailed.Ā but.Ā ask me again?Ā sometimeā doesnāt have to be today.Ā maybe tomorrow just.Ā ask me again.Ā ā
āĀ i know i canāt protect you from everything,Ā but i wish youād let me protect you from the things i can control.Ā ā
āĀ i used to have so much faith.Ā maybe not in deities or something but,Ā in the world.Ā the universe.Ā i believed their was a purpose to it all.Ā iām not sure when i lost that.Ā ā
āĀ have you ever had somethingā¦missing?Ā like something just doesnāt feel right inside you but you donāt know what it is.Ā ā
āĀ sometimes,Ā i just need the world to be beautiful.Ā i know how dark and ugly it can be but i just want to see something good and focus only on it for a few minutes.Ā ā
āĀ i was sortāve hoping you needed me.Ā is that selfish?Ā ā
āĀ people need someone to see them for what they are and not just see it but accept it.Ā i want to be that person for anyone i canā¦but it can be so suffocating to be that person and also remain unseen.Ā ā
āĀ sometimes i feel iām being crushed under the weight of everything iāll never be.Ā ā
āĀ youāre looking at me but youāre not seeing me.Ā do you know how that feels?Ā just see me.Ā please.Ā ā
āĀ i want to deserve you.Ā iām trying to deserve you.Ā ā
āĀ i know i fucked up.Ā i know i did but donāt shut me out anymore.Ā let me in.Ā please let in.Ā ā
āĀ every time you smile at me,Ā i memorize it.Ā i remember each moment that i get to be the one to bring out that light inside you.Ā no matter what happens between us,Ā thatās what iāll remember.Ā Ā ā
āĀ i canāt help but think thereās got to be something out there for me,Ā somewhere.Ā just some place where i actually feel like i belong.Ā āĀ
āĀ the world is so big.Ā why do i never feel like i fit into it?Ā ā
āĀ when iām with you i feel like myself.Ā i feel like every side of me is present and accepted.Ā and i feel good about itāĀ i feel good about who i am when iām with you.Ā ā
āĀ do you like me?Ā i know you love me.Ā i know you care about me but.Ā do you like who i am?Ā ā
āĀ i want to look in the mirror one day and not feel uncomfortable with my own reflection.Ā ā
āĀ just take my hand and close your eyes.Ā pretend weāre anywhere else but here.Ā ā
āĀ so,Ā what would you be?Ā if you had to power to change all the things making you unhappy,Ā what would your life look like?Ā ā
āĀ do you even know what it does to me?Ā every time i see you cry,Ā any time youāre hurt even the smallest bit it justā do you realize how deeply youāve imbedded yourself into my heart?Ā ā
āĀ i donāt feel like a whole person without you anymore.Ā i donāt fucking care if anyone else would say about that.Ā youāre part of who i am now.Ā the most important piece of me.Ā ā
āĀ every time you walk away you take another piece of me with you.Ā ā
āĀ iām only really living in the moments when weāre together.Ā the rest is just existing until you look at me again.Ā ā
āĀ it feels like thereās a string around my heart and itās connected to you.Ā everywhere you go youāre just tugging me behind,Ā pulling me towards you.Ā ā
āĀ youāve got me in the palm of your hands.Ā you could crush me and i would still thank you for touching me at all.Ā ā
āĀ i no longer know where i end and you begin.Ā youāve wound yourself around my soul so tightly,Ā youāre all i feel anymore.Ā ā
āĀ youāve stolen my heart,Ā the least you could do is tell me what you intend to do with it.Ā ā
āĀ i donāt have perfect words.Ā iām not the kind of person who knows how to sound poetic and shit.Ā so all i know what to tell you is that i belong to you.Ā i donāt know if you want me.Ā but iām yours.Ā and at this point however it is you need me,Ā iām here.Ā ā
āĀ youāre the only thing that matters anymore.Ā i canāt eat,Ā i canāt sleepāĀ all the goddamn cliches from every stupid movie and song.Ā youāre all i think about.Ā iām useless except when iām yours.Ā ā
āĀ i havenāt stopped thinking about the way you laugh.Ā iām hoping iāll get to hear it again.Ā ā
āĀ when your eyes are on me,Ā i feel like something worth seeing.Ā ā
āĀ just let me look at you for a little bit.Ā ā
āĀ i would do anything for you.Ā all my lines and rules.Ā they mean nothing when it comes to you.Ā itād cross and break them all just to make you happy.Ā ā