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#MELIORISM : the belief that the world gets better ; the belief that humans can improve the world . private writing blog for mutuals . blog penned by . . . fawn .
the wind may as well have been swept from the room for all that lacey struggles to breathe in the wake of his confession. longing comes trembling through her fingertips, something that she has to fold her hands around and stifle before it shoots out of her with any sort of vengeance. it trembles in her irises, shakes the foundation of her composure, and she has to drop her eyes to her lap, close them entirely, before she makes a fool of herself. she isn't one to be taken by emotion; it's been years since anything was worth the makeup wipes she'd employ to clear her tear tracks, but taejun has been an outlier from the day she first sank her teeth into his neck. and she's bitten many, but he's the only one who's ever worn her matrimony. her gaze falls to the band she still keeps, now granted refuge on another finger, and she has to swallow it all back. she pushes it out with a sigh, so quiet that it might not have made a sound at all, and finds his gaze again. her smile lacks the pretentiousness its reputation dictates, but it is all the more genuine for it. “sometimes i wonder how you have the time. your fledgling keeps you quite busy.” she knows what it's like; there was a time, some century or two ago, when he was giving her the same headaches. it's soothing to consider: the cyclical nature of it. how he is the monster that she created and his fledgling will be the monster that frankenstein should have cradled before he abandoned. “and as often as i see you, i stop by and feel as if i've never missed you more than when i'm sitting right in front of you. isn't that silly?”
dark eyes narrow at her , feigning accusation . “ i've been dead for centuries and he's still finding ways to inconvenience me . a punishment , i suspect , for every time i've been a pain in your ass , mh ? ” the silence that follows is uncharacteristically gentle , stripped of the sharp edges he wears as naturally as one might breathe . his voice , when it comes again , barely rises above a murmur . almost without realizing it , his gaze drifts toward the closed door . “ i bet if you listened hard enough , you'd hear him being a nuisance outside ” taejun could - loud and unmistakable . haesoo was likely making sure of it . exclusion had always settled poorly on him and taejun had done little to soften that particular wound . his attention returns to lacey . “ i think proximity has a cruel habit of reminding us exactly what distance has stolen ” the confession sours before it ever leaves his lips , burning its way up his throat like something too long buried . his mouth parts but silence catches there instead , hesitation curling around his ribs with quiet , merciless hands . rather than force the words , he reaches beneath the table . a bottle of lacey's favorite wine soon rests between them - the only thing that dares occupy the space separating them . beside it , two glasses . pours each with deliberate care , movements slow and measured , because everything that concerns her has always demanded the gentlest hands . taejun's oldest house rule . “ i've stood beside you and mourned you while you were still with me ” there , finally spoken . and yet the admission offers no relief . it settles between them like winter air . . . bitter , unforgiving , a reminder of where he belongs , of the fate stitched so gruesome into both their names . “ so , no . i don't think it's silly " offers her the glass , waiting until she takes it . “ you look absolutely breathtaking , by the way ” a pause . “ and you smell just the same ” his head tilts ever so slightly , a smile unfolding across his lips . soft enough to be mistaken for tenderness .
𝙷𝙰𝙿𝙿𝙸𝙴𝚁, 𝙿𝚁𝙴𝚃𝚃𝙸𝙴𝚁 (𝙹𝙴𝙰𝙻𝙾𝚄𝚂𝚈, 𝙹𝙴𝙰𝙻𝙾𝚄𝚂𝚈) co-written by @oftrinkets
𝑐ℎ𝑎𝑝𝑡𝑒𝑟 𝑜𝑛𝑒. “the hell was that? what, were you two in here renewing your fuckin' vows?” he all but throws the envelope on taejun's desk, unaware and uncaring of what's in it. he did his job. “you send me on dumbass errands and i can't even get in the damn door.”
the envelope lands with a dull slap against polished wood . taejun doesn't compensate the outburst that came with it . lets haesoo's words linger between them , suspended in the silence until they curdle beneath their own weight . only then does he move . fingers settle over the envelope with practiced , almost absent minded precision . for the briefest moment , it seems as though he intends to open it . instead . . . with nothing more than a careless flick of his wrist , the envelope skims across the office , cutting through the stillness before striking the opposite wall with a sharp crack . it crumples somewhere beyond his interest , discarded without so much as a glance . “ go ” the command is delivered softly , its edges smoothed into something almost gentle - eerily so . “ fetch it again ” still , there is no irritation in his voice , which somehow made it infinitely worse . the errand had already been completed , they both know that . this was never about the envelope . it was about reminding the young vampire that he had forgotten where the boundaries of his place ended .
zuri's compliment is a cold sip of water ⎯ refreshing. there and gone. replaced, just as easily, with the sound of her command. bambie turns to comply without argument, meandering through the crowd to find a spot at the bar. ming's eyes find her fairly quickly, wordlessly shifting towards zuri with such pointed ease that she can't even question if he already knows. the look he tips in bambie's direction is unimpressed by far, but he gets started on their drinks and she only offers up a semi-apologetic smile in return. she's always found it easier to obey than to think. her fingers drum the counter while he prepares the drinks, her gaze flitting around the crowd. there are ⎯ she knows there are vampires here who won't care that she isn't registered. most of them don't give a damn about the decoration as long as the blood is warm. her nails scrape the bar top when her fingers curl in, the need thrumming in her veins turning rapid, desperate. the world swims around her, all hazy colors and ⎯ miss petcharat. ming's voice snaps everything back into place. she blinks twice. she accepts the drinks with thanks and her widest smile, bobs her head when he waves off her payment. the trek back to zuri's side is a long one. she survives that, too. “courtesy of your friendly neighborhood bartender,” she says, setting the tray down in front of zuri. “you said... did you want me to sit with you...?”
zuri accepts the drink ( though not without flashing ming a barely concealed middle finger ) as if she's accepting an award . her fingertips graze the stem before she lifts the jewel toned cocktail into the light , letting it reflect the strobes exactly the way she'd known it would . pretty enough for a story , expensive enough to look effortless . toe of her heel hooks around the empty chair , dragging it out an inch . " sit , sugar “ less an invitation than the sort of command people forgot they were allowed to refuse . ” i hate looking approachable by myself " sighs with theatrical misery . " people start introducing themselves , telling me they follow me , askin' if i'll put them on my story " a dismissive flick of perfectly manicured fingers . “ they always want a selfie . or tell me one of their career ideas and , trust , it's the most lame ass story literally anyone had to listen to “ pauses just long enough to make it sound unbearably exhausting . “ it's honestly a disease ” another sip , somehow her lipstick remains immaculate . ” and i am not even gonna get started on those blood sucking cretins . the one with the googly eyes over there had them on me for , what , and entire hour now . sends shivers down my spine , honestly . and he's not even hot , like . . . how is that fair , ugh . ”
𝚃𝚆𝙸𝙽 𝚂𝙷𝙸𝚃 co-written by @oftrinkets
𝑐ℎ𝑎𝑝𝑡𝑒𝑟 𝑜𝑛𝑒. “hey, popstar, it's me,” disinterested voice calls out as he sweeps into the home, head ducked down towards his phone as his fingers tap out a sickly sweet message to the con of the week. boots tugged off at the door, bag set on the counter. he only looks up when he ventures towards sasi's room, head poking through her door. the first thing he does is, naturally, blow the other a kiss from glossed lips and manicured nails before leaning his front against her doorway. “can i borrow some clothes? i have a ' date ' tomorrow and nothing that'd appeal to him.”
" there he is " coos back , all syrup and sunshine , reaching up to dramatically catch his blown kiss against her palm before pressing it to her heart . “ i was starting to think you'd run away with a nameless millionaire “ a pout , effortless and practiced all the same . sasi watches him from where she's sprawled across the bed , head tilting as her eyes trail over his outfit with exaggerated scrutiny . ” yeah , no . you look heartbreakingly pretty but not ' i'd willingly hand over my credit card details to you because i am dumb and stupid and did i say dumb ' , you know ” thoughtful hum escapes her as she taps a finger against her chin . " so . . . closet raid ? " she doesn't wait for an answer , already hopping off the bed and wandering toward her wardrobe , swinging the doors open with all the ceremony of unveiling a treasure chest . " one day you're going to con someone with a sister my size and i'm never getting my clothes back " fingers skim across hangers before tugging out a couple of pieces , holding them against him with a critical squint . " you know " muses , rifling through the next batch . “ you keep telling me every con is the con and yet somehow you're back in my room every other week sounding like a victorian widow with nothing to wear ” gasps dramatically . “ oh my god ” a glance over her shoulder , eyes wide with fake surprise . " am i your sugar mommy ? "
𝙲𝙾𝙰𝚇 𝚃𝙷𝙴 𝙲𝙾𝙻𝙳 𝚁𝙸𝙶𝙷𝚃 𝙾𝚄𝚃 𝙾𝙵 𝙼𝙴 co-written by @oftrinkets
𝑐ℎ𝑎𝑝𝑡𝑒𝑟 𝑜𝑛𝑒. “oh ⎯ hi, zuri! sorry, i wasn't aware you were coming today.” vacates her seat without thought or question, always so quick to capitulate to hierarchy. inasmuch as it exists between people like them, all equally irrelevant when skin is pierced. she pulls her hands together in front of her, fashioning a smile despite the thin coat of sweat on her neck. if there is a beady state to her eyes, then it's hard to tell under the flicker of club lights. “i was going to go grab a drink. do you want one?”
club lights skate over the gloss on her lips , catching the silver chain at her throat before she finally smiles - small , practiced , impossible to tell if it's genuine . " oh babe , don't apologize " waves a hand , dismissing it like smoke . “ you looked way too cute to be sittin' here all by yourself , though . thought i'd try my luck and occupy you for a couple of minutes , if y'don't mind ” slides into the seat as if it had been hers the whole night , crossing one leg over the other . her eyes wander to the room instead of staying on her companion - cataloguing faces , flashes of cameras , the little pockets of attention she knows how to step into without trying . “ a drink sounds perfect ” head tilts . “ get me something that'll look good in a blurry photo . i don't actually care what it tastes like ” phone already in hand , thumb lazily scrolling through a feed of stories she'd probably posted herself an hour ago . " actually , that's a lie . make it hurt a lil' . "
it all happens in flickers of time.
her professional mask never slips ⎯ callgirls are a dime a dozen, but prim sits high in demand for a reason. she doesn't so much as blink the wrong way when the room pinches in around a third presence, even as something in her chest dislodges from its anxious perch. his reaction is immediate. predictable. vulgar in how his eyes slide down to the press of chani's skirt, how his tongue forms suggestion towards a woman who would never degrade herself with his presence. then ⎯ agitation bred by rejection. the crescent of his nails digging into prim's hip, a crescendo in volume. predictable, even then. prim tries to adjust, the slightest shift of her rump, and gets yanked back into place, even closer. the subject of the next drunken tirade.
then it's ⎯ in her face, his fingers bruising her jaw, did i fucking tell you to move? and her smile remains pretty, her words apologetic, as she slides her hand to his hip, to the glass spilling over onto the cushion. i'm sorry, she coos, wetting her eyes, puckering her lips. don't be mad, please don't be mad. his grip eases and the glass shatters against his head oh so cleanly. it's a loud sound, almost as loud as his shout, and she shoots off of the couch in the same moment. his nails hold ⎯ press ⎯ rip the skin of her hip, her jaw, as she tears herself away, stumbling out of the way, behind the only remnant of security she has in the room.
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there is a peculiar sort of silence that follows the glass breaking , shattering exactly in the cascade of events she had expected . it hangs in the air like a held breath , glittering in the amber light before surrendering to gravity . she does not startle , does not rush . fear is a luxury reserved for people uncertain of who commands a room . this one belongs to her - the velvet drapes , the polished marble beneath expensive heels , the liquor staining imported leather , the trembling men who mistake money for power . every corner bears her fingerprints , every locked door answers to her name . he is only a guest . . . and a poorly behaved one at that . heels announce themselves in slow , measured clicks , each step more patient than the last . she crosses the room as though she has all the time in the world , gaze settling not upon the blood blooming beneath his hairline but upon the angry crescents marring prim's skin . how unfortunate . “ look at what you've done ” voice barely rises above conversation , soft enough to be mistaken for sympathy . it never was - disappointment . . . the sort that wilts flowers . only then does she spare him a glance . his chest heaves with drunken indignation , fingers flexing as though they still deserve the privilege of reaching for another woman beneath her roof . the audacity of it almost earns a smile . her head tilts , curious in the way royalty might regard a fly that landed upon her dinner table . “ are you unaware of our rules ? ” he spits another anger fueled insult into the room . because men like him always mistake volume for authority . “ or did you simply believe they wouldn't apply to you ? ” the distance between them collapses . suddenly he is looking up instead of across . a subtle yet devastating thing . eyebrows arch in expectancy - nothing . so , she shrugs , calm before the storm . silence before her knee shoots up , strikes the man straight into the sternum . has him falter backwards , into himself afterwards . “ you've been so loud before . what happened , big guy ? ” another sharp jab into his ribs . he coughs , wet . . . red . tries to grab for her ankle , fingers alike claws as they tremble in rage . reach , hook and drag her down to him with a treacherous groan . she finds herself beneath him as he struggles for power . slick crimson pools from one face to the other . “ motherfucker " out behind gritted teeth . one hand clutched to his throat , the other extended sideways - toward the scattered shards of glass .
eyes dripping with disgust track the meeting of the two girls, yuna's fingers skating the incurve of yuqi's palm, beckoning a response ⎯ all but anticipating how yuqi's fingers slide in between hers. a derisive noise sounds at the back of his throat as he shakes his head, looking back to iden. “great. now they're starting on this mess.” he double-takes, a useless retrace of the air leading back to iden's gaze. his eyes bore into the other's, wondering if that's really a question. “...i care because you care.” isn't that obvious? has he ever had any other reason? “you said twenty-five, so we're do ⎯ ow!”
yuqi sticks her middle finger up at him, unapologetic for the pen that nailed him just behind the ear. “let me know when that glass closet gets too uncomfortable.” she joyfully ignores his murmurs and complaints ( though she does kick out at him when he leans over to whine to yuna ) as she rounds the table to drape herself over iden's back, arms looped loosely around his neck. “iiiiii-dennnnnn. you don't really want to do this. you've been studying all day. a small break won't hurt you.” the words come from something other than herself; muscle memory from this body, words that the real yuqi must have said a hundred times, an ingrained response to the threat of concentrating. they mean nothing to the being snug inside this body now.
it she places more importance on the way its core hums at the contact with its counterpart. there's no concept of a soul to be found in something as sickly and primordial as they are, but the essence that stretches out beneath their skin comes close, and it preens to finally touch again. the hum of it, nearly a purr, is so pleasant, she finds herself holding on even tighter. thank goodness yuqi was tactile in life, too. “let's play a game.”
spine stiffens almost imperceptibly as yuqi drapes herself over him . ritual outruns instinct for a split second and iden lets out a breathless groan , brows knitting into the perfect mask of frustration . a reaction this body would've offered on its own - drawn not from thought but from prodecural memory . “ what kind of game ? ” quiet certainty coils somewhere beneath the surface , whispering that this could very well spell the death of both their social lives - mostly because yuqi had a habit of suggesting games that nudged people far beyond their comfort zones , especially someone like iden , who preferred the quiet refuge of his own company . yet the certainty isn't his . it belongs to something buried deeper , a remnant that grew up beside yuqi , crammed through frantic , last minute study sessions that stretched until dawn , wiped away tears shed in silence over a heart quietly breaking . “ none of those weird ones , though . i don't want to be the one calling one of your distant relatives again to tell them that . . . “ core hums the moment it locks with the one currently clutched to this backside , the vibration running through him hard enough to snag a shaky breath from his lungs . moments like these proved to be rather unbearable . how is he supposed to navigate the aching pull toward more - toward warmth , toward contact , when the human body he wears had spent a lifetime shrinking from every outstretched hand ? and when his gaze catches yuna’s , merely in passing , and for one suspended beat they lock eyes , something in her expression shifts - just enough for him to see suspicion begin to bloom , a faint crease of uncertainty settling in . both hands grip for yuqi's wrists , careful as he peeled himself away from the grasp she had on him . “ gaeul's freak of a cousin still texts me from time to time , so i'm out if that's on the table . ”
doe eyes fly wide and the ambush lands , hands darting toward gaeul on instinct . all in good fun , of course . nothing out of the ordinary . they have always bickered . perhaps because they're too alike , perhaps because they're nothing alike at all . either way , yuna has found herself caught between them more times than she can count . just as she always does , she slips from her seat , following the trail yuqi leaves behind , only to stop at gaeul's side . thumb settles with practiced care against the faint mark behind his ear , where skin has been lightly nicked . a pout tugs at her glossed lips , softened by the ghost of a smile . “ you really should've seen that one coming “ nose scrunches with a quiet giggle as gentle strokes soothe the tender patch of skin . not because he's truly hurt - not physically , anyway . but because caring for him has long since become second nature , a habit that crept over the years like moss over old stone . “ aw , gaeul . you're such a good friend ” words come as a fond coo while she leans into his seated frame , her free arm draping easily across his shoulders . though , within the notion , she cannot help herself but to shift keen eyes over the remaining two . swiftly darting downwards when iden catches her . they've always been close , all four of them . they've never really known how to be anything else . that's the thought that puts yuna to rest at night and wakes her at sunrise , every single day . and that's the thought that tries , oh so desperately , to wrangle down any anxious bubble squirming in the pit of her stomach . ” oh yeah , what was their name again ? gaeul , your cousin . what was their name ? ” truly to egg him on further .
it's easy to catch junho's wrist ⎯ mindless for someone who's made a career of dodging punches and a habit of taking them. appreciation falls over jihoon's bones, an emotion he hides beneath his heel when he steps closer, fingers trailing the fine hair of junho's forearm, his elbow, stopping at his bicep. “that was good. don't tighten up here when you punch,” he instructs, patting the junction of the other man's shoulder, where the arm remains outstretched. it was almost artful: the unwind, the immediate tightening. “you're going to pull a muscle. you don't have to surprise me, you just need to hit me. you can take your time. and stop looking at me like that.” that comes kinder, a note that comes with less intention and more affection that he can properly fit into this space. he steps back again, beckons another punch. “try again.”
prim holds her bottom lip between her teeth as she watches them. junho's look didn't go unnoticed ⎯ no more than his smile did. the message rings in her ears, a problem she's still trying to solve her way out of. she's clawed her way out of situations before; she can see the need for proper lessons, but nothing entices her to step into this. something eases in her, though, watching jihoon go through the motions with junho. catching every hit, murmuring praise, offering correction. he never hits back; he never flinches; he never dodges. he never poses a threat himself, never positions himself as anything other than a particularly knowledgeable punching bag. the safety he offers them sits directly opposed to the danger he takes onto himself, and she wears at the skin of her bottom lip as she waits for the impending collision.
jihoon catches him , figures . he doesn't bother wrenching his wrist free . instead , he lets the man guide his arm where he wants it , his gaze tracking the path of those fingers over tendon and muscle with the detached patience of someone being fitted for a cast . “ yeah , alright ” years of throwing punches that had to end something before it came back had taught his body to coil itself like drawn wire every time he struck . loose punches got you caught , tight punches got you home . every textbook on proper form would probably condemn him for it . eyes lift at the last comment , one corner of his mouth twitches before he leans a fraction closer , comfortably invading the other's space . “ like what ? ” rather than accepting the invitation outright , he circles once . his shoes whisper over the mat . left shoulder rolls , a lazy twitch - the beginning of another jab . and halfway through , it dies down . the feint draws the eye high . albeit , his left hand drops , intercepting jihoon's wrist just long enough to nudge it off its line - not a grip , just enough to spoil the guard . in the same heartbeat , his weight shifts forward . his right shoulder turns , his hips following and his fist drives toward jihoon's ribs , threading through the brief opening before the arm can recover . perhaps , if he was lucky , sufficient to land the hit . moreover , he was silently wondering if either , prim or jihoon , were able to tell he was less tense - sorta , kinda shaping to the advice given prior .
there's a choreography lacey is skilled in, this art of convincing people that she is following their leads down a path she laid with her own hands. it's in this, too: her jacket eased from her shoulders, her seat pulled out, a light deference that those in their circles wouldn't dare to attribute to taejun park. the seat she occupies is not a throne, but the adoration in her gaze is a check signed by pride. he is the mutt that she made him, even if she's relinquished the leash. “i would hardly accuse you of being a dictator. i've heard you two bicker ⎯ you're more akin to a harried ceo. it's a good look on you.” her hand waves with comment; soundless, her attendant steps out of the room, though lacey doesn't care to know what she gets up to outside of it. she'll come when beckoned, and that's all that matters in a pup before it's properly trained. left alone with him, lacey folds her hands over her lap. “i missed you,” she confesses, voice a soft lilt. three words that feel like scandal when spoken aloud, as if the public might hear them, grasp them, weaponize them. a weakness neither of them can afford in their position. moment ekes past; she waits to feel brave enough before speaking again. “it's our anniversary.”
a slow lift of his brow . “ that so ? guess i've been kinder than usual ” words arrive without so much as the ghost of a smile , dry as weathered bone , though jest lingers beneath them all the same . there is truth to them , too - undeniable in its quiet brutality . speaking out of turn , arguing without reason . lesser offenses had earned throats split open , lives extinguished until nothing remained but dust settling at the toes of his boots . curious , that . a shrug dismisses the thought before it can fester . hardly cares enough to unravel the why of it . instead , his gaze follows the woman as she slips away , leaving the pair to themselves . clever girl . submissive enough not to linger beneath their attention , wise enough not to invite it . the notion earns the faintest curl of his mouth before it disappears as quickly as it came , swept away by the next imitation of a breath . because every thread of thought abandons him the moment lacey speaks . confession falls from her lips with unbearable sweetness and he finds himself yielding to it despite every instinct that has ever taught him otherwise . it is subtle , almost imperceptible - the faint knit of his brows , the breathless tremor escaping parted lips . then , a nod . detached only in appearance . “ acutely aware of that , actually ” because he notices the passage of everything that matters . something inside him pulls taut and if this body still remembered what it meant to be human . . . taejun would have known exactly what was trying so desperately to hollow him out from the inside . gaze finds hers - he drowns in it willingly , swallowed whole by an abyss that burns instead of freezes , molten heat pooling within the hollow of his chest . " i've missed you , my love . "
jihoon is guilty of ⎯⎯ the list is long. squeezed onto the crowded bottom of that list is the act of memorizing the groves of junho's knuckles. his thumbs pass each wrinkle, learning each one like words of a new language before the wrap covers them from view. he committed the identical sin of learning prim's, too, had nearly sank into the dives between her knuckles for how soft her skin is in comparison to his. it drug up the feeling of ⎯ a lot. bad, mostly, for sullying her with the touch of his fingers. junho isn't as soft; he's fought before, and it's a tangible history. his palms are rougher, too callused for a man who spends his days signing life insurance papers and conning old women over the phone. when jihoon inhales, he catches nicotine: junho's collar, his nail beds, clinging to the curled ends of his hair.
how beautiful the two of them are. how incongruent and holy. he wonders if caleb will be able to absolve him of this one.
“i'm not going to have her hit you,” he mutters, ignoring that fantasy comment. ( as if. if this was a fantasy, they would know. ) he finishes wrapping junho's hands and lets go, shuffling a step back. “you're both going to try to hit me. and you can go home when you swing at me like you mean it without hesitation.”
“i don't get pain kink from him,” prim is saying, just seconds before. “masochism, for sure, but watching us hurt each other? that's not ⎯ what?” she blinks at jihoon's instruction. it's perfectly in line with what she already thought he'd do, but it doesn't make her feel better to hear it. not when something has flickered out of existence in his eyes, a light that she hadn't recognized until it was neatly snuffed out. “jihoon, i'm not hitting you. what did you do to him?” she hisses to junho. she delivers a weak punch to his shoulder before stepping towards jihoon. “i can hit him. please?”
with an amused scoff, jihoon shakes his head. “it doesn't do you any good to hit each other. i don't want to risk one of you actually getting hurt. it defeats the point of me keeping you safe.” jihoon grins at her, then beckons junho forward. “c'mon, you're up first. hit me.”
cited source: @oftrinkets
junho rolls one wrist , then the other , feeling the pull of fabric cinched taut around his hands . tight . . . good . quiet hum settles in his throat in agreement , only for both his and prim's attention to turn , almost in perfect unison , toward the man standing opposite them . “ what ? “ the word leaves him carrying nearly the same inflection as hers , a single brow already arched before it ever reaches the air . he staggers half a step when her fist thumps into his shoulder with all the devastating force of an indignant kitten - reaction mostly theatre . a crooked smile tugs at one corner of his mouth as he rubs the spot . it's a habit now , a familiar little performance between them . then the smile fades , confusion dulls the otherwise placid line of his features . realistically , this makes sense - to junho , at least . especially when determination settles into every fibre of jihoon's being , so absolute it borders on immovable . he's painfully serious about this . doesn't make him any less irritating . still , junho understands . if you're too scared to hit me , you'll freeze when it matters . he's heard those words before . . . different faces , different alleyways , different rooms thick with sweat and the smell of old leather . older boys . men with split lips and cigarettes dangling from the corners of their mouths . ” right ” the word falls quietly as he steps forward without ceremony , stopping close enough that only half a stride would erase the space between them . for a single heartbeat , he studies the other man . if only to confirm the lack of hesitation . prim lingers at the edge of his vision before he finally turns his eyes toward her . spares her a look that means to say it all - ‘ you see it too , you know talking won’t change his mind ‘ . his shoulders unwind , jaw loosens with his weight shifting to his back foot . the first punch thrown isn’t meant to hurt , merely a straight jab snaps toward jihoon's face - fast enough that anyone green would flinch , clean enough that anyone experienced would know junho is watching out for something besides his guard or his balance .
𝙵𝙻𝚈 𝙰𝚆𝙰𝚈, 𝙲𝙾𝚄𝙽𝚃𝙸𝙽𝙶 𝙳𝙰𝚈𝚂 co-written by @oftrinkets
𝑐ℎ𝑎𝑝𝑡𝑒𝑟 𝑜𝑛𝑒. as with all things xiaoshuai does, the door to sasi's home opens with flourish to announce arrival. “everyone, my pronouns are they / them today,” he says, lying. “call me anything else and i will fabricate a domestic violence charge against you, i don't care that you're bitchless.” he comes to a stop ⎯ blinks at the company nearest to him. almost deems it funny how just the sight of mussed locks and knockoff eye bags dredge up memory and emotion. citrus fizzing out on the slope of his tongue, nicotine seeping into the soft of his cheeks, a body pressed close as smoke traveled from one mouth to the other. he catches the unimpressed stare of junho mercer and remembers how he hated ginger ale until someone, several years and personalities ago, begrudgingly shared a can. “no shot you're alone here,” he says instead of any of that. “sasi can't possibly like you that much.”
he'd heard xiaoshuai long before he'd seen him and that , perhaps , was exactly why he'd spent so long avoiding this moment . for nearly two years he'd perfected the art of disappearing - took the back stairs instead of the main hall , slipped out of rooms the instant shuai's voice drifted through the doorway , arrived late enough that there were always bodies between them and left early enough that fate never had the chance to corner him . he replied to everyone else's messages while the other's remained unopened , left to sink quietly beneath newer notifications until they vanished on their own . even begun timing his smoke breaks around the hours he thought shuai wouldn't be outside - a ridiculous habit , really , considering how much effort it took to convince himself he wasn't thinking about him at all . and yet , here he was . eventually , heavy gaze lifted , finding but not locking for no more than the briefest heartbeat . and said nothing . instead , he inched farther into his seat , shoulders folding inward as though he could make himself smaller and dragged his pen across words that needed no correcting . fresh strokes bled over drying ink , line upon line , until the page grew dark with revisions that were never meant to fix the writing at all .
the bleed of their grin from polished to genuine, snickers included, is one that'll never see another four walls. there's a safety that'll only ever exist here, where his walls are saturated with lavender humidity and the specter of yohan lingers in the form of a scarf that never leaves the hook. there's no room that houses suri quite like this one; none that coaxes a smile out of rigid lines quite the same. “you assume the worst of me,” they throw out, accusation coated in their own fondness. they hook an ankle around a chair leg and sink down into the cushion, mindlessly undoing the knot of the plastic bag. “i don't hide anything from you. you snoop too much.” a partial truth ⎯⎯ full truth bears the reality that they tell him everything, mayoral position aside. minho and yohan were overbearing in a multitude of ways, but suri's privacy was a snow globe they cradled to their chest in the tumult of their youth ⎯ one that their fathers didn't try to peer into until their grip on it loosened enough for smeared glass to catch the sunlight. building trust had taken them a long way ⎯ it's brought them here, food set out across the desk, cutlery divided between them. “gyeongjun sends his love, by the way. i told him i'd make you start cooking for yourself and he looked devastated.” a quiet scoff follows the words; as if minho or yohan have found the time to touch a spatula in the past decade. “so,” they say, so very casually, “have you reconsidered your stance on having sasi exiled from the city?”
minho's brows lift exactly half an inch . “ is that what we're calling it now ? ” reaches for the container , peeling back the lid with unhurried ease . “ snooping , how dare you accuse me of such terrible crimes . i am being framed here , it seems “ the complaint is so dry it barely qualifies as one . ” oh , so gyeongjun's an enabler , then ” a singular glance shifts above his glasses towards them . “ i've spent years cultivating an image of competence and that young man insists on telling people i'd starve to death if left unsupervised for forty eight hours ” considers it . “ he's probably just being generous , though ” a bite and a barely contained hum afterwards . somewhere in the back of his mind he makes the mental note to thank gyeongjun later . “ it's not like i live here . i do take the time to cook for myself ” a pause . “ i mean , sometimes i do , yeah ” it is delivered with the unwavering confidence of someone lying to themselves just as much as everyone else . then . . . the surprise hits with enough force that the bite catches in his esophagus . leaves him coughing sharply , eyes narrowing through the fit as he blinks at them in disbelief . “ jesus christ . . . ” his hand comes up to his throat while he struggles through the lingering recoil , clearing it once , then again before finally leaning back into his chair . “ tell me what i'm missing here ” his gaze sharpens , something unreadable flickering behind it . “ did you guys fight ? ” consideration , recalculation , a frown . “ did she use your personal information to trick her , um . . . ” gestures vaguely with the hand not currently busy pouring a glass of water for the both of them . “ willing participants again ? ” it had happened once before - at least , as far as he's aware . and he had every reason to believe it would likely happen again . minho knew of their indifference towards each other , just not of the weight it might carry alongside .
𝙿𝙾𝙼𝙾𝙳𝙾𝚁𝙾 co-written by @oftrinkets
𝑐ℎ𝑎𝑝𝑡𝑒𝑟 𝑜𝑛𝑒. it took little to no time for yuqi to tune out of time, attention halfheartedly granted to the stationery this body once owned. the pencil makes a clattering sound every time a new side touches the tabletop, a disruption that sets something ajar in the back of her mind in a way she finds oddly comforting. as long as she isn't here, she supposes. a mad scribble against paper fills the room from its other occupants, but her bones lag towards the need to join them. she glances up, first to yuna, then to the other jagged half of their locket. “i don't want to study anymore,” she declares. “let's do something else.”
𝑝𝑎𝑔𝑒 𝑡𝑤𝑜. gaeul gapes at her. then at iden. then back at her. then to iden again, this time with a pen jutted in her direction. “if i interrupted the pomodoro like that, you would've locked me under the floorboards for an hour.” yuqi sticks her tongue at him, receiving a playful sneer in return. “there's fifteen minutes of pom time left. lock the fuck in.” then he looks at iden and yuna. “right? back me up here.”
yuna's eyes drifted from the page at the woman's declaration , warmth blooming across her features before she could stop it . mostly because of how immediate the answer yes rose to her lips , how naturally it wanted out towards yuqi . “ we can do something else . . . " voice soft enough to melt into the quiet between them . then her gaze found the timer , the little smile on her face faltered - not disappearing , only turning sheepish around the edges . “ it's only a little longer , then we can take a proper break ” the thought brightened her like sunlight slipping through clouds . " we could get snacks " already beginning to count possibilities on her fingers . “ or play a game together . or go for a little walk . i'll let you choose , yeah ? “ palm finds yuqi's , the touch not daring to be anything but featherlight . ” i'm super bored , too ” hushed in the private space only meant for the two of them , a scrunch of her nose tied to a breathless giggle .
across from them , iden never looked up . graphite whispered over paper in clean strokes , each line placed with the certainty of something that had already been decided before his hand ever moved . conversation drifted around him at best - acknowledged , perhaps , but never enough to interrupt the work before him . “ the rule doesn't change because you're bored . fifteen minutes ” only then did he lift the pen , tapping the timer once . a quiet , measured sound that settled over the room like the period at the end of a sentence . " you'll survive " and yet instinct was difficult to outrun . attention , against its own better judgment , slipped toward gaeul . a crease found its way between his brows , faint enough to disappear if one wasn't looking for it . " since when are you so adamant about this , though ? " maybe it slipped his collection of memories . . . or , perchance , there were pieces of himself that had already been filed away somewhere he no longer knew how to reach .
𝙾𝙷 𝙼𝙴, 𝙾𝙷 𝙼𝚈! co-written by @oftrinkets
𝑐ℎ𝑎𝑝𝑡𝑒𝑟 𝑜𝑛𝑒. “darling, your favorite person is here! you may begin to ooh and ahh.” sing-song voice permeates the room with the ease of something that knows it belongs. her attendant dutifully trails after her, head dipping respectfully towards taejun. no comment is spared towards the swing of lacey's arms or the drift of her gaze from one end of the room to the next. “no hound dog today? don't tell me you two are fighting already. he just got here, love, don't scare him off.” warning tacked shut with a press of glossed lips to taejun's cheek.
the kiss lands and taejun doesn't so much as flinch . merely turns his head enough to regard her with the sort of patient look reserved for children , royalty and natural disasters . “ what do i owe the pleasure to ? ” his hands are already at her shoulders , easing her coat from them with practiced care before hanging it - temporarily , of course . taejun knows better than to expect lacey to stay any longer than she absolutely has to . “ you mean , the boy ? ” gestures vaguely over his shoulder , as though the subject might conveniently materialize there . " he's , uh . . . " the answer arrives as nothing more than a shrug . “ i don't actually fucking know . because , despite whatever you may think of me , i don't run a dictatorship here ” pulls out a chair for her , just enough to invite her to sit if she pleases . “ neither am i responsible for negotiating another one of my impulse acquisitions ” the smirk that follows is daunting by nature - sharp enough to unsettle most people . not lacey . for her , it carries something else entirely . recognition . beneath the mockery and mischief lies something quieter , something she herself had once taught him long ago . a familiar softness , carefully disguised beneath teeth and sarcasm .
ㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤ ㅤㅤㅤㅤ 𝙷𝙾𝙼𝙴 𝚅𝙸𝚂𝙸𝚃 ㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤ ㅤㅤ ㅤ co-written by @oftrinkets
𝑐ℎ𝑎𝑝𝑡𝑒𝑟 𝑜𝑛𝑒. fingers move deft, natural, as they tap in the key code to the office. their stomach twinges with the momentary nausea that rucks up whenever they're reminded of minho's lack of security. “we have got to talk about your security. it's driving me insane,” they call, voice bouncing off of smooth walls as they step inside. the corners of minho's office are as familiar as those in the museum, if not more; there was a time when they were small enough, childish enough, to tuck knees to chest and curl up beneath his desk. they're too old for it now, but the carpeting hasn't changed. it matters to them, even though it shouldn't. they set the food on minho's desk, the heat of gyeongjun's labor making a mark on the desk almost instantaneously. then they smile, wide and pretty. “appa. you remember loving me, don't you?”
silence lingers , though barely to make a point - this has never been about winning an argument . moreso because old habits are stitched into him as neatly as the seams of his tailored coat . “ oh , i am certain they'll write ' stubborn old man ignores security advice until his bitter end ’ on my headstone one day ” evenly , paired with a glance reserved for nobody besides suri . the smile he is met with a tad too bright . he has watched that smile grow through many scraped knees , impossible questions , sleepless nights , triumphs too quickly dismissed and grief too quietly carried . “ yes , and it seems i never stopped , mh ? ” affection as comfortable as breathing . finally , a gesture towards the chair opposite his desk . “ sit ” singular word , carrying the familiar weight of countless afternoons turning into evenings turning into nights spent in this very same office . “ you brought enough for the both of us . and while we eat , you can tell me what's hiding behind that smile , mh . "