I'm that fat friend, who has an eating disorder

she/he | entp | 5'5/1,65m | hw: 80,5kg/177,5 Ibs | cw: 77,8 kg/171,5 Ibs | gw: 73 kg/160,9 Ibs | ugw: 55 kg/121,2 Ibs |

[ske1etongir1]

[ske1etongir1]

[oh--an4]

I don't even eat much, but I'm an alcoholic. So I won't lose weight, because of the calories that alcohol contains. I want to replace the dopamine the alcohol gives me with the dopamine I would get when I look down at the scale, realising I actually lost weight. Instead of drunk listening to sad music at night, I want to listen to oh Ana by mother mother while slowley dissapearing into the body I want so bad.

[favpill]

i need my ana era back

[maggiesnaggie08]

Me when the super cute outfit ive been thinking of, looks shit bc of my body

[oh--an4]

I choose discipline.

[lanadelreyrexii]

if you start now you will have your dream body till summer

[multifandoomsday]

why keep eating if you know the thing you want so desperately is to look skinny?

ₓ˚. ୭ ˚○◦˚.˚◦○˚ ୧ .˚ₓ

[brodie555]

2024 is my year

- I will be skinny

- I will have control

- I will be beautiful

- I will reach my ugw

- I will have everything I want

🩷🩷🩷

[silverglohhhs]

WHY IS IT SO REAL?!

[ol1v14isst4rv1ng-deactivated202]

slow progress is better than no progress at all.

[oh--an4]

(Not mine)

[ang3l-food-deactivated20230317]

[wasted-dre-deactivated20240201]

Currently reminding myself that I deserve to be skinny.

I deserve to have the body I've always wanted.

I deserve to fight for that body.

This isn't a bad thing. I am fighting for my own happiness.

[hotkniferuwu]

[pain-isnt--needed]

[oh--an4]

Told someone my hw yesterday and they were shocked about it and said stuff like "even how???". Not 'cause I lost much weight or something, my hw is only 4 kg (8,81 Ibs) heavier than my cw.

They said it because they couldn't imagine how I was able to weigh so much.

Now I want to starve myself until I'm thinner then anybody my age I know.