It’s been a very long time tumblr. Yesterday I went back and read my diaries I left on here and it was so amazing. So today I’m going to pick it back up, therapy edition.
I had a really great therapy session. It was nice to see colin. I shared some moments from my past where I felt excluded by people I wanted to be close to. It was hard to vocalize, but I’m glad I did. Sharing my story helps me take power over it. And as I shared, I remembered more and started to realize at that time that I had help. Certain forums helped me to find acceptance and community in during that time. I was able to share and bring others into my experience. I miss those resources, but I’m glad I had them.
I also shared that recently I found out that many guys I know can’t think of a single friend they can message out of the blue without an occasion. While that’s really sad, I feel like this really speaks to the work I’m doing with a group I started, Thinkers Social Club. I want to help people with these issues around belonging and companionship. I want to help others find shared experience and have witnesses to their lives.
I also expressed that when I share my story, I hope to find playfulness. I don’t want to make things serious and burden others, because it’s just not fun. The point of getting to know me is to enjoy life together. Seriousness kind of defeats the purpose. I’m really lucky for the people in my life who I can be playful with.
I’ve been sharing with Colin about ChatGPT. You can give it a scenerio and have it ask you theraputic questions. It’s an amazing between session tool.
Colin’s going to take a break to go back to the states like many of my friends atm. I feel like I’ll be fine, but I think I don’t realize the need right away to replace the nourishing social moments I’ll be losing. So even if I can’t feel it now, I should try and set up a schedule that supports my needs.
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