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Fall down seven times, stand up eight

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Pano labanan yung sobrang lungkot?

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what a sad soul

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Night sky and city lights ✨

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Today my professor made me cry.

And for that, I just realized how pathetic it was.

I gave him my medical certificate that says I was diagnosed with SLE and that Im not allowed to have outdoor physical activities and do strenuous activities.

He laughed at me, and said "Nakakahiya naman kasi sa mga kaklase mo na sila mag papracticum tas ikaw hindi."

I tried to explain to him that my health situation is kinda serious. But he really just can't understand.

And it just hit me so hard. I realized Im not meant to be in a university where normal people go for education. I don't fit in. Some people won't just understand my situation.

And I don't give a damn anymore. I don't want to explain what I'm going through to everyone anymore. They don't have to know. I don't need their sympathy.

If only I had the confidence to talk back at him I would say

"Okay. Ibagsak mo nalang ako. Tutal hindi mo naman alam kung gaano ko pinipilit na mag aral dito para lang matupad ko yung mga pangarap ko. Hindi mo naman alam kung ano yung nararamdaman ko araw araw. Na sa bawat hakbang ko sa mga hagdan ng bawat building dito nanghihina ako. Na sa bawat pagpasok ko sa klase pinipilit kong wag indahin ang anuman. Hindi mo naman alam na nahihirapan ako kaya okay lang. Hindi mo na rin kailangan malaman. Thank you for your very kind consideration"

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You did nothing

That's what happened

The end.

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Paano ko sasabihing ayaw ko na, na wala na kong maramdaman at sawa nako. Kasalanan ko ba?

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Fuck. Its 3am and I'm being paranoid again. I want this to stop but how??? 😭😭😭

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Franceska Ocampo

kaartehan lvl 101

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Bakit pagdating sakanya, yung confidence ko nawawala. Pakiramdam ko napaka wala kong kwenta.

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Please tell this girl that she's more than enough. That whatever insecurities she have, she's still worthy of love.

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Ang tamis sa 'yong mga salita

Ay sing pait ng katotohanang

Di tayo ang para sa isa't isa

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I just wanna shut people off, please.

Give me space.

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I hate myself for being weak

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Suddenly lost interest

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I wish I could see myself how other people see me as a person

[kiko-doyouloveme-deactivated201]

Hindi ko din alam kung bakit walang nakakatagal saakin. 😅

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When that day comes, I hope someone would let my parents know that I want a pink casket and that I want my hair curled.