so just drop dead

21 y.o., toxic rus sub maso bi female happily takennn

[devils-queen]

✞ 666 ✞

[mmakerr]

[ohmydearbat]

i want a big boy with a big dick whom i can pull by being freaky and kinky and we can fuck and choke each other til death do us apart

[ohmydearbat]

🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻god does exist

[ohmydearbat]

whatever

[ohmydearbat]

no god actually does exist and everything goes according to his plan☝🏻☝🏻

[ohmydearbat]

i don’t really miss him. i miss feeling loved, needed and secure

[ohmydearbat]

i want a big boy with a big dick whom i can pull by being freaky and kinky and we can fuck and choke each other til death do us apart

[ohmydearbat]

🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻god does exist

[ohmydearbat]

whatever

[pernambucano-deactivated2026052]

[silence-slithers-inside-again]

[takilmazbana-deactivated2024061]

[lustyageofficial19]

Share with him/her🖤

[fahadaccount]

feeling unwanted changes u a lot, tbh

[ohmydearbat]

and feeling wanted heals you

[ohmydearbat]

i get so irrationally pissed off when he says stuff like.. he likes red hair colour. or long almond nails. because im a blonde and i never do my nails too long.

and when he said it feels different with long sharp nails (he likes his back scratched)… ?? ok go daydream about your ex or whoever you had scratching your back with those long nails? go remember and enjoy those feelings? or even better you can go find some redhead with those nails, wouldn’t it be great? because i’m not dying my hair red nor do i those nails i fucking hate

the answer is, my narcissistic part wants to be THE best and THE one for him and hmm he likes smth that can not be applied to me so that means he doesn’t like me the best and the most and yes ofc it hurts me even if i understand this logic is bullshit. plus such words from him feel like he’d like to change me to his preferences (even if he doesn’t intend to mean that, pretty sure he does not) so i get extremely defensive like hell no you accept me the way i am or you get the fuxk out.

the problem is, you can’t solve “feelings” problem with “thinking” solution

and i just needed to let those thoughts out. i couldn’t tell it all to him because i perfectly understand that i’m difficult when it comes to such stuff. and if i were him i’d be like ohhh god i’m out it’s too exhausting. so i just told him “i am not gonna do such nails. i don’t like them :)”

[ohmydearbat]

ok why did i feel the need to check his ex’s page to see her nails. now i’m not just angry i’m fucking crying

[ohmydearbat]

and i’m not gonna wish him good morning even if i wake up earlier than him.😤

[ohmydearbat]

i get so irrationally pissed off when he says stuff like.. he likes red hair colour. or long almond nails. because im a blonde and i never do my nails too long.

and when he said it feels different with long sharp nails (he likes his back scratched)… ?? ok go daydream about your ex or whoever you had scratching your back with those long nails? go remember and enjoy those feelings? or even better you can go find some redhead with those nails, wouldn’t it be great? because i’m not dying my hair red nor do i those nails i fucking hate

the answer is, my narcissistic part wants to be THE best and THE one for him and hmm he likes smth that can not be applied to me so that means he doesn’t like me the best and the most and yes ofc it hurts me even if i understand this logic is bullshit. plus such words from him feel like he’d like to change me to his preferences (even if he doesn’t intend to mean that, pretty sure he does not) so i get extremely defensive like hell no you accept me the way i am or you get the fuxk out.

the problem is, you can’t solve “feelings” problem with “thinking” solution

and i just needed to let those thoughts out. i couldn’t tell it all to him because i perfectly understand that i’m difficult when it comes to such stuff. and if i were him i’d be like ohhh god i’m out it’s too exhausting. so i just told him “i am not gonna do such nails. i don’t like them :)”

[k-i-l-l-e-r-b-e-e-6-9]

[your-fav-bratt]

Thinking about rough, possessive "I fucking own you" sex

[crashbutmean]

call me "disgusting" and a "sick fuck" one more time, I'm almost there

[littl3kitt3]

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