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jade • she/they • 24 ISTP • sapphic • nd i just post things i like, i mostly talk in the tags. you can find me on socials @lusttrack [asks/inbox temporarily closed, please reach out through messages ♡]

[qae0]

[sepezzz]

Night shift worker and her weird goth vampire Roommate

[19silvermirrors]

The Knight and the Prince of Khaenri'ah wip for DainKae zine 🌕

[lightkeeprs]

DAINSLEIF HAS OCD ☝️

[lightkeeprs]

i feel like i have to say some more on it but the problem is its so hard to talk about dain's possible ocd related issues and fears because for him like they are all too real and grounded in reality for him. like "oh im worried im a bad person because blah blah blah" like yeah. reasonable fear you did alot of fucked up stuff before aand you know for a fact you are strong and important enough of a person for your actions to have far reaching consequences because that is what has happened in the past. not even the paranoia about something bad happening to him because with the state of his life right now like its not unreasonable. something something It's Not Paranoia If They're Really Out To Get You

[lightkeeprs]

also once again with the state of his life he just kind of has to power through it which sucks but is just like. another miserable thing on the list and its either something he doesnt let himself think about (like everything else) or its just like. "yes just another bad thing that i deserve i guess"

[lightkeeprs]

2 AM POSTING THIS TIME. more copy pasted thoughts. sorry if i repeat myself.

i think he has alot of moral ocd i feel like one of his most persistent ones is the idea somebody is gonna get hurt because of him either that he'll hurt them or fail to stop them from getting hurt... i think even pre cataclysm in the royal guard this was bad for him. probably started in childhood and i think becoming a knight Did Not Help

something bad happens that he literally could not prevent and he's like "this is somehow my fault and just another reason i'm a horrible person"

probably worries that the universe is punishing him sometimes and is like yes i deserve this

[lightkeeprs]

a related headcanon that im tacking onto this post because its relevant: the idea that dain knew something was Wrong with vedrfolnir when he started. yknow. abyssal doom spiraling.

came about during the nod krai archon quest, during the scene in rerir's memories where ved dain and rerir are all sitting together. during that there's a distinct line where dain notices that ved's acting weird. given the fact that they were close + dain is generally an observant person + he was able to notice just a slight change in the way his brother was acting.

the idea that dain wouldve had to have noticed something was wrong with ved but didnt do anything... probably kept apart by having to focus on his job in the royal guard (given that khaenriah was in a time of yknow political unrest and they both had government jobs) and by the time he realized it was Too Late

i think this is definitely a source of guilt for him. the idea that he could have done something but didnt.

[lightkeeprs]

on that note. im dain im ved THE OCD BROTHERS

[lightkeeprs]

ved to me, definitely handled this weirdly because. he Also Has OCD.

on what i think that's like for him/his obsessions: ved definitely has the type of ocd where he like. i think largely they went both undiagnosed and this sort of impacted their like personal life and relationship but also i think ved Knew he had ocd. to me he feels like he wouldve fixated on researching and hyper analyzing himself trying to figure out What Is Wrong With Him and trying to compartmentalize and put a label on everything... im not sure if he wouldve had doubts about "but what if i'm Wrong." but i think he might've occassionally... which would lead to periods where he would repeat this. again.

also! if you're getting corrupted by the abyss i mean you're definitely in a bad mental state beforehand and i think realizing you're Cosmically Doomed and that the Sky Is Fucking Fake and SEEING THE FUTURE is basically a death sentence for an ocd-haver. like it definitely made his mental state worse

[lightkeeprs]

MY FINAL THOUGHT FOR THE NIGHT. back on dainseif:

dainsleif and relationship ocd bevause someone brought it up.... i think fs that he has like. i feel like one of his ocd doubts is like him worrying about his relationship with the traveler in an "oh god do i not see them outside of their sibling" even though he (in my mind) doesnt but stressing out over the idea that he may anyway...

[doggarlocked]

"draw your favorite character with your problems" ok 👍 dainsleif after midnight ocd spiral

[doggarlocked]

"draw your favorite character with your problems" ok 👍 dainsleif after midnight ocd spiral

[qae0]

my dainzhu art that started it all from back when I was on twitter

[lerulpes]

do you have something human left in you, Dain?

fav boi because I finally got to Nod Krai woohoooooo

[mtsodie]

wallace you cant say that

[mrn0093]

[sestrai-art]

2/15 Taste

Genshin KINKtober

[tlirsgender]

Sometimes a creative outlet is a fun little hobby and sometimes it's a lifelong affliction. Like I crochet because making little woven animals sparks joy and I'm a writer whether I like it or not because I'm tormented by visions

[tlirsgender]

Me crocheting: I made a duck ! ^_^

Me writing: pacing around talking to myself compelled by forces beyond my comprehension

[straylaughs]

der ring des nibelungen 💫

req: @ohnomatopoeia

[sacred-portal]

[virtualtoybox]

I’m DONE ! I’m leaving now FOREVER and you CANT STOP ME no matter what I’m GOING !!!

[virtualtoybox]

…………. I’m back .

[wistfulwatcher]

me when i was five years old and tried to run away until my mom reminded me i couldn’t cross the street without an adult

[cure-icy-writes]

the human mind is prone to catastrophizing when left unoccupied. And that’s why it’s important to always have a little Blorbo to rotate in your head. It acts as a protective charm of sorts to redirect your imagination away from harmful spirals

thoughts without Blorbo: oh my god I was so cringe in seventh grade why did I do that

thoughts with Blorbo: I haven’t considered the interactions with bleebus; I must rectify this immediately

[ryebreadgf]

so it’s a wednesday night in july and you’re at home and you’ve showered and you’ve masturbated and you’ve gnawed at the inside of your mouth and you’ve eaten and washed the dishes and fixed a corner of the fitted sheet on your bed and texted your grandmother and thought positive thoughts and still the feeling comes. what then