Your Vice, My Versa

Whatever vessel we pour ourselves into, mine is now overflowing, brimming with life. It is transcending into something new. -Lang Leav

[nevvleaf]

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[ohthesorrow]

I forgot I wrote this when I was in the height of my disordered eating. I’m glad to say I’ve survived.

I think I've been enlightened. I previously thought that my weight gain and binging was a separate problem than when I was excessively losing weight and restricting, practically on the path of anorexia. But now I realize all of these things live in the same vein. It comes down to a one factor: numbing pain. I used to think I went through periods of depression and remission, usually both lasting about 4-8 months. But really, the only time I don't remember being in emotional and physical pain from depression was when I was in the height of starving myself. Prior to restriction, I used food for comfort. It wasn't purposeful or even completely conscience. It was the only way I knew how to cope before I was able to vocalize my struggle. And then one day I snapped and I knew I needed to lose weight. The methods I used were really unhealthy, but at the time I did not care one bit.  I remember feeling so proud of myself for losing so much weight because I was receiving so many comments and finally achieving a goal I had for myself. And really, it was absolutely empowering, almost euphoric, being thinner than the person who mercilessly harassed me about my weight for years and single-handedly caused my PTSD. I felt like I had a handle on my problems because I physically wasn't the same person I was prior. But I was trading the depression pain for self-induced pain without noticing. After there were no more goals to reach, after people got accustomed to my thin body and the comments stopped, after I could not restrict my food anymore, that same pain that has ached me for years has returned. And that's when the binging began. I could not physically eat less, so I gorged myself for that high that comes with processed, sugary, fatty foods. It got to the point that I almost asphyxiated on my own vomit one night because I ate so much that the stomach acid was being pushed up. For a long time, I thought these two extremes were caused by different stimuli; one being a need for control and one for lack of. But now I see all of this is connected. I now see that both uses of food, binging and starving, was to singularly numb the emotional pain and trauma I experience. I think this break through is really,really important for me. Granted, there is a small amount of control with any binge or restriction, but getting to the root of the problems makes treatment and recovery a lot easier.

[fanonical]

newt, jacob, queenie and tina are all playing mario bros and can’t beat the castle in level six, so they look up how to hack the game online

fantastic cheats and where to find them

[queertasm]

Personal Indie Blog

[thexfiles]

girls who think they’re bisexual and later find out they’re lesbians are so cool and worthy of acceptance and respect

girls who think they’re lesbians and later find out they’re bisexual are so cool and worthy of acceptance and respect

[ashmantaylor]

I can not express how important this is. Let people find themselves just as you did

[ponprincess-deactivated20170614]

[chychyotokipus]

since someone asked for a compilation here

[vampirezigzagoon]

THE LAST ONE

[0bwoy]

When your car breaks down and a kind stranger helps out. In more ways than one.

[oneoakdutch]

wuuuut LMFAOOO!

[tom-nippleston]

The people in the apartment below me are playing “Never Have I Ever” and I’m smoking on my porch creeping on their game

[tom-nippleston]

Guy 1: Never have I ever INTIONALLY walked in on my parents having sex Gal 1: fuck you brandon! It wasn’t intentional! I didn’t know what they were doing!!! Brandon (Guy 1): Shut up Katy no one is THAT oblivious take your drink

[tom-nippleston]

Katy: Never have I ever LOST a wet tshirt contest

(Good job Katy. You do you. Proud of you boo)

[tom-nippleston]

Gal 2: Never have I ever pierced my genitals Brandon: IT WAS IN FOR LIKE A MONTH! Katy: Whatever bitch, take a drink you Prince Albert having douche Brandon: I’m being singled out I hate you all

[tom-nippleston]

Guy 2: Never have I ever had a threescore [Pause] Guy 2: WHAT THE FUCK KATY?!?!?!?! Katy: Shut up Andrew it’s before we even knew each other this was years ago!!! [Pause] Andrew: And you won’t even watch porn with me…

(the family is disintegrating)

[tom-nippleston]

Brandon: Never have I ever been in such a confrontational game of Never Have I Ever….

[People saying ‘cheers’]

(stop fighting guys you’re tearing this family apart…..)

[tom-nippleston]

Andrew: Never have I ever had sex WITH a piece of food. [Pause] Andrew: Dude Brandon: Dude Katy: Dude omg Gal 2: what? Omg EVERY girl has practiced giving head with a banana! Katy: Um no Ester. SOME of us just practice on dicks. Ester: what the fuck though. Whatever.

(Don’t let them kink shame you Ester I still love you)

[tom-nippleston]

#TeamEster #BananaSplits

[tom-nippleston]

Andrew is testing a banana. Go for it andrew. Explore your wild side #TeamEster #TeamKink

[tom-nippleston]

Brandon: Never have I ever been called a fuckboy Katy and Andrew: TO YOUR FACE Brandon: Go fuck a banana Andrew

#TeamBananaFucking

[tom-nippleston]

Ester: Never have I ever had a crush on a family member Brandon: [random fumbling noises] Katy: brandon omg ew Andrew: yeah man come the fuck on wtf man its 2016 Brandon: SHE WAS MY COUSIN AND I WAS 13 IT’S NOT LIKE SHE WAS MY SISTER AND IT WAS JUST A CRUSH NOTHING HAPPENED Ester: methinks thou dost protest too fucking much Brandon: NEVER TELLING YOU SHIT AGAIN Andrew: Chug your drink, Sir IncestsALot Brandon: Chug a fucking banana Andrew

#TeamBananaFucking #TeamWhatTheFuckBrandon

[tom-nippleston]

Katy and Andrew have gone home in an Uber to apparently sex it up. Alway use a designated driver, kids. And always put protection on your Banana.

#BananaCreamPie #GamesOverKids #TeamEster

[hotmenandotherdistractions]

This is spectacular.

[haunted-by-waters]

relationship status: (drives through the night while 80s synthpop plays in the background)

[burgrs1994-deactivated20151224]

*eats 1,000 oranges* its fruit i won’t gain weight

[milkthethirstynerd]

This is the new always, forget the old creppy always. This is the gay always. Glad we clear that.

[advancedlawnmowingtechniques-de]

I would literally die if a girl did this to me:

was my gf and supported me and loved me and accepted me for who I am

[mashrou3-ummi]

I love when food is spicy enough that ur nose starts running. It’s such a purifying feel like yes… clear my sinuses for me

[dantiloquent]

reVOLUTIONARY

[muuutant]

the only girls that look cute with short hair:

all of them

every single one of them

literally everyone

[sad-butsassy]

the only girls that look cute with long hair:

all of them

every single one of them

literally everyone

[queersailorscout]

The only girls that look cute:

all of them

every single one of them

literally everyone

[lalalalane]

Glad we settled this

[no1straightally]

👏 everytime 👏 we 👏 touch 👏 I 👏 feel 👏 the 👏 static 👏 and 👏 everytime 👏 we 👏 kiss 👏 I 👏 reach 👏 for 👏 the 👏 sky 👏