While the milk still spills

I am this great, unstable mass of blood and foam. My heart's an autoclave. maraisms.com

[okmaraok]

“I will never have a photograph of her to carry around in my pocket. I will never have a letter in her handwriting, or a scrap-book of everything we’ve done. I will never share an apartment with her in the city. I will never know if we are listening to the same song at the same time. We will not grow old together. I will not be the person she calls when she’s in trouble. She will not be the person I call when I have stories to tell. I will never be able to keep anything she’s given to me.”

David Levithan. “Every Day.”

[okmaraok]

“If you stare at the center of the universe, there is a coldness there. A blankness. Ultimately, the universe doesn’t care about us. Time doesn’t care about us. That’s why we have to care about each other.”

David Levithan. “Every Day.”

[okmaraok]

“She is my first and only love. Most people know that their first love will not be their only love. But for me, she is both. This will be the only chance I give myself. This will never happen again.”

David Levithan. “Every Day.”

[okmaraok]

“I wanted love to conquer all. But love can’t conquer anything. It can’t do anything on its own. It relies on us to do the conquering on its behalf.”

David Levithan. “Every Day.”

[okmaraok]

“there are much better foundations to build a life upon than how attractive you are.”

David Levithan. “Every Day.”

[okmaraok]

“You like him because he’s a lost boy. Believe me, I’ve seen it happen before. But do you know what happens to girls who love lost boys? They become lost themselves. Without fail.”

David Levithan. “Every Day.”

[okmaraok]

“but they are people to spend time with, not people to share time with.”

David Levithan. “Every Day.”

[okmaraok]

“Self-preservation isn’t worth it if you can’t live with the self you’re preserving.”

David Levithan. “Every Day.”

[okmaraok]

“The moment you fall in love feels like it has centuries behind it, generations—all of them rearranging themselves so that this precise, remarkable intersection could happen. In your heart, in your bones, no matter how silly you know it is, you feel that everything has been leading to this, all the secret arrows were pointing here, the universe and time itself crafted this long ago, and you are just now realizing it, you are just now arriving at the place you were always meant to be.”

David Levithan. “Every Day.”

[okmaraok]

“We do nothing more than kiss. We do nothing less than kiss.”

David Levithan. “Every Day.”

[okmaraok]

If there’s one thing I’ve learned, it’s this: We all want everything to be okay. We don’t even wish so much for fantastic or marvelous or outstanding. We will happily settle for okay, because most of the time, okay is enough.

David Levithan. “Every Day.”

[okmaraok]

I know from experience that beneath every peripheral girl is a central truth.

David Levithan. “Every Day.”

[okmaraok]

Happy New Year from the Ruizes (and some of our dogs)! Using last year's family photo because Kit hasn't uploaded the 2013 version yet. (at Bahayang Pag-asa Subd.)

[okmaraok]

Katsu-polypse. #foodstagram (at Yabu: The House of Katsu)

[okmaraok]

The boys of my hood. They got my back.

[okmaraok]

The best clam chowder like ever ever! Sorry, already ate most of it. #foodstagram #instagramthatshit (at Racks)

[okmaraok]

Bright lights, big city. #cityscape