Something like make believe

“i have swallowed so much pain and inhaled all your A N G E R. there is a seething darkness clawing at my insides and it is unbearably hard to absorb the rage of the universe without forsaking grace. i wish i was violent, brutal like you, but i open my mouth to scream and only F L O W E R S fall out.”

[okophelia]

[rorydear-blog]

If there was something Rory could say in favor of Marlborough t was that its residents were helpful. Or perhaps that was a hidden obligation when it came to dealings with a blind girl. Either way, she wasn’t about to question it and drive away someone perfectly willing to help. “Three dollars?” she echoes, smiling as she felt the movement of the coins in her hand. “No, no. Three is perfectly fine. They were quite good and I’m sure it would make them very happy.” Optimism comes almost too naturally to the girl. “They were just around the corner! You’re very welcome to join me. Might keep me from embarrassing myself from putting the money into a trash bin on accident or something.”

[okophelia]

Rory’s condition wasn’t something that was a make or break for Ophelia. She was going to try to be helpful to anyone that needed any type of help because it made her feel good and she always loved to see people happy. “If they’re as good as you say they are, then I should definitely come check them out with you.” Like Rory, optimism came too naturally. Ophelia always tried to have a positive mindset about everything growing up that it felt like it was something so normal now. “Yikes, yeah, that doesn’t sound too good. I’d love to come join if you don’t mind.”

[great-connorscott]

Nicolai sat at the edge of one of the steps as he had been since he’d gotten off work that day. There was something about going back to his room that felt to routine to him. At least at the bar there was the hustle and buzz of customers coming and going and the noise was enough to keep him out of his head. Back in his apartment, things got to quiet, which was what lead him to sitting on the stairs, watching people pass by outside and walk past him up and down the stairs. He hadn’t even realized he’d been staring at the last person who’d walked in until someone else moved past him. “Shit I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to be in the way. I must have just spaced out.” 

[okophelia]

Ophelia carried back a bag filled with chips and other shit she decided she needed for comfort. College stress has gotten the best of her, especially now that she’s taken up more classes to be able to get this all over with. She pushed the door open with her hip, walking in the lobby before noticing someone staring at her direction. She furrowed her eyebrows, feeling slightly uncomfortable. She never enjoyed being looked at to begin with. Nodding, she replied, “it’s fine. It happens to the best of us at the worst of times, it’s understandable. But that is a really inconvenient place to be zoning out.”

[petzel]

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Pluto | Sleeping At Last

i’ve been worried all my life,

a nervous wreck most of the time.

i’ve always been afraid of heights,

of falling backwards, falling backwards.

i’ve been worried all my life.

[okophelia]

@Ophelia_: i dont remember the last time ive actually left my house for anything other than college

[emilyoberg]

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Gentle On My Mind|Ophelia and Remi

@okophelia

“Come here puppy. Come on puppy baby, it’s okay. It’s okay.”

Remiel’s voice is soft and high as he holds out a piece of beef jerky to the trembling mass hiding beneath the bench just outside Marlborough. He’s been at it for almost 20 minutes  but he’s determined now. He knows what it’s like to be homeless and he’ll be hard pressed to let such a sad creature whither and freeze when he has a slightly warmer apartment upstairs. 

He hold out his free hand when he hears a set of footsteps, trying to still them. “Shhhh, I almost got the little brah out. Just give me a minute to get the dog out, I don’t want to scare him away. Then you can walk on right around me. I just need one minute…” his voice strains when he tries to stick the beef jerky a micrometer closer to the dog. 

[okophelia]

"Andy,” Ophelia yelled. For the past hour or two she’s been trying to find Andy, her youngest, and smallest puppy. She ran up to the top floor and worked her way down. She wasn’t sure how or when she left, but Ophelia was guessing around the time she came back home from work because she decided she needed groceries since she didn’t actually have anything in her fridge. “Andy, where did you go?” she whispered to herself.

She sighed when she got to the lobby, hoping Andy was near by because Ophelia wouldn’t know what to do if she wasn’t. Opening the doors that lead outside, Ophelia immediately regrets not wearing something heavier than a sweater when she was greeted by the cold air. Rubbing her arms to try to keep them warm, Ophelia turned to see a guy bent down with beef jerky in his hand. She walked towards him trying to figure out what he was doing and to see if he needed any help. “Do you-- Oh my god, Andy,” she shrieked. 

[okophelia]

@Ophelia_: death by college

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[littlemusingthings]

kindness and love floods her spirit.         she is sweet, gentle, and sensitive.    she cares for those who cannot care for themselves,                             and loves those who cannot find love elsewhere.      she is warm hearted in every respect. 

[olicoates-deactivated20181023]

Oli often found himself refraining from thinking about his future. He had a habit of living in the now and not thinking about the past. Except he never succeeding with the later, so essentially, he was going through life living in denial about his past. Thinking ahead terrified him- he liked his routine. He liked knowing that he would wake up every morning, go grab his coffee, nap, go to work and repeat. It was easy- tolerable; and extremely boring. If he were to face the facts, he hated it, but in his eyes he had no other options. There was nothing else he could do. The future scared him for so many reasons, but one that he feared the most was becoming his parents- becoming his father. It was his biggest fear- his biggest insecurity and he had no idea of how to conquer it. He thought he had, but every now and then he’d get these short episodes of anger and he didn’t understand where they came from or how to process them. They were never anything big, it came mostly from frustration, but even the hint of anger made him nervous. It was why whenever Ophelia felt like he was shouting in text messages, no matter how silly it sounded, it made him feel awful. Because he knew exactly what she felt, because he’d been yelled at plenty too. He tried to stop his mind from overworking itself, feeling her shake a little more viciously in his arms. “Shhh, you’re okay.” He rocked her from side to side a little, as silly as it was it had always relaxed him.

[okophelia]

Liking routine wasn’t something Ophelia liked. She liked different, and not knowing what will happen the next day. The whole idea of having everything the same every day of her life terrified her because that meant that everything she’d hoped would happen would never happen. For the most part, her daily schedule is the same because she’s balancing college, work and studying, but on her days off she tries to change things up. The future excited her because it’s something she’s had planned completely since she was a child. She wasn’t too scared of ending up like her father because she can barely raise her voice to someone, let alone yell and be angry all the time. A part of her was scared she’d end up like her mom, though, even if she’s only smoked once or twice. She was afraid she’d end up tiring herself out to the point where she would have to find a way to relieve herself like smoking, or end up with someone who was half as bad as their dad. Gasping repeatedly, Ophelia tried to catch a breath to calm herself down. “I really should leave,” she managed to get out. She felt and most likely looked like a mess. “Wait, my mascara isn’t running, is it?” Everything that has happened in the past thirty to fifty minutes was overwhelming. She couldn’t recall the last time Oli even seen her cry this hard and she didn’t want to either, which was why she was trying to change the subject. She wasn’t very comfortable with anything that’s been admitted which was why it just felt right. 

[okophelia]

@oliolioli: @Ophelia_ yes we are your last name is coates so is mine ur name begins with an O so does mine WE'RE OBVIOUSLY RELATED

@oliolioli: @Ophelia_ yes i do C: it's bc the boys at your school know they ain't good enough at least they're smart

@oliolioli: @Ophelia_ LISTEN THAT WAS SUCH A LOW BLOW I CANT EVEN BELIEVE YOU WENT THERE I HATE YOU???!!:!?!?!?!?!

@Ophelia_: @oliolioli just because we have the same surname it doesnt mean we have to be related. loTS OF PEOPLES NAME START W O

@Ophelia_: @oliolioli we can go w that or we can go with the truth which is i make a fool out of myself

@Ophelia_: @oliolioli sucks because u actually love me hahahaahahah thats what u get son

[okophelia]

@oliolioli: @Ophelia_ 1. yes 2. DO YOU THINK I CARE YOLO SWAGGY 3. wtf is smh

@oliolioli: @Ophelia_ no ur the one that said that i was taking the piss bc you dont /make/ boyfriends you numpty

@oliolioli: @Ophelia_ LISTEN HERE SMALL ONE DONT EVEN

@Ophelia_: @oliolioli okay no we're not related, im done with you

@Ophelia_: @oliolioli get, make, create in the end i still won't land one do u know who i am

@Ophelia_: @oliolioli JUST BECAUSE I AM 5'3 DOES NOT MEAN I AM SMALL UR NOT EVEN 6'

[rorydear-blog]

Rory knows there was probably someone in the lobby of Marlborough – either a resident milling about or, at the very least the person who worked the front desk. She steps inside and clears her throat, her hand diving into her pocket to produce a bit of the change she’d heard jingling there.  “Excuse me,” her voice still comes out as soft, “could you tell me if there’s at least a dollar here? There’s a street performer outside and I’d really like to give them something.” She’s not got a lot to give – her allowance from her brother is fairly meager considering he’s juggling a campus job on top of his schooling – but being Rory, she’s wanting to appreciate the artist outside all the same.

[okophelia]

Ophelia had been waiting at the front dest for the past half an hour or so but she’s been told to wait most of the time. There was a leakage from the room above her and she was getting frustrated by dripping water. Slightly startled, Ophelia turned around. “Of course,” she smiled, walking towards her. While counting the quarters, she moved each coin to the side to make sure she didn’t count the same one twice. “Yeah, you have just under three dollars, actually. Uh, do you want to give it all, or would you rather I hand two dollars first so you could put it back? But street performer? I would love to give them something too if you’d like to go together.” 

[okophelia]

@oliolioli: @Ophelia_ 1. shut up 2. i dont care YOLO 3. idk

@oliolioli: @Ophelia_ everything about that sentence was unpleasant and you know if you did they'd all, every single one of them that aren't, would have to pass my test

@oliolioli: @Ophelia_ nice well down congrats good job

@Ophelia_: @oliolioli 1. no 2. youRE SO EMBARRASSING OMG I HAVE FRIENDS ON HERE 3. smh

@Ophelia_: @oliolioli okay ur the one that said make boyfriends. u will nEVER know who i am with soz brother

@Ophelia_: @oliolioli well down. weLL DOWN. omg u make fun of me look at u

[okophelia]

@oliolioli: @Ophelia_ 1. i just prefer to deny it 2. so what i'm 21 i can say turnt if i want to 3. Delightful

@oliolioli: @Ophelia_ M H M . if ur friends you should be able to tell him he's a dumb shit that's what friends are for. make boyfriends. jesus.

@Ophelia_: @oliolioli 1. We all know the truth 2. You just cant ur 21 3. What r we doing

@Ophelia_: @oliolioli WHATEVS. Ya I'll pass. Oh honey I would get boyfriends if I could

@Ophelia_: @oliolioli But last time I spoke to someone I thought was cute I fell down a flight of stairs

[okophelia]

@oliolioli: @Ophelia_ 1. FINE IM NOT CHILL 2. #turnt 3. Splendid.

@oliolioli: @Ophelia_ autocorrect yeah sure sURE. alright well tell him next time you seem him that he's a dumb shit :D

@Ophelia_: @oliolioli 1. u finally admit it bravo 2. Ok no, you're 21 3. Wonderful

@Ophelia_: @oliolioli IT IS I SWEA R. I don't think so fam, I need some friends since I can't make boyfriends