Welcome kiddo, watch your step over the empty bottles, ashes, and laundry...
I'm Blake, in my late 20s. I'm disabled and mentally unwell, I regress anywhere from 2-18. This blog is focusing on the 13-18 (follow @blakeyblanket for younger agere content, I follow from here as well)
Warning for some swearing, and themes for audiences over 13 (but not over 18)
I'm a wannabe older brother, single child (now, it's a story), emo and scene loser, gamer, mediocre cook, and a caregiver.
Note: I am proship. I have been since I was a child, I will continue to be. Shipping fictional characters of any kind is fine, I've been doing so since I was a child and it did not harm me nor lead me to harming anyone else.
This blog, as well as dms, is strictly sfw, so don't expect anything weird on here. I have a drawer with a lock so kiddos don't see the big kid stuff okay? (AKA SFW interactions only please)
More About Me Below
Generic: colour - green, holiday - halloween, game genre - indie horror & casual simulation, aesthetic - older brother & small town
Likes: bugs, spicy food, video games, horror (especially indie), plant and animal biology, organizing and collecting aesthetics, older brother core, dad core, grunge and emo stuff, stuffed animals, cooking
Dislikes: rude people, loud/ busy places, math, underseasoned food, bright overhead lights, summer (too hot), people hurting/destroying stuffed animals and toys on purpose (to hurt someone's feelings, hitting your stuffie when your sad and overstimulated is okay kiddo)
Games: super mario sunshine, animal crossing, mario kart, mario party, super mario galaxy, tomodatchi life, sims, kirby air riders, stardew valley, wilmot's warehouse, pikmin, minecraft, binding of isaac, world of horror, slime rancher, OFF, ib, pokemon pearl, halo series, franbow, secret little haven, word searches, hidden object games
Music: MCR, Fall Out Boy, Twenty One Pilots, Hobo Johnson, Takayan, AJR, Cavetown, Nickelback, Crush 40, Radiohead, Gorillaz, Linkin Park, Ricky Montgomery, No Love In The House Of Gold, Infinity Frequencies, Power PCME, The Front Bottoms, Vocaloid, Car Seat Headrest,
Watchables: markiplier, vinny vinesauce, dan and phil, game grumps, wambu, chef michael at home, studio ghibli films, food & cooking videos, black butler, fruits basket
I was so confused!! I didn't know what DNI was supposed to mean so i thought you were all those things that you said "do not interact" with. I am so glad im wrong!! also what exactly is age regression? because sometimes i feel younger and act younger and my voice changes and its not on purpose but it is only around certain people and if i need to i can sorta "get out" of it (mostly for when my dad says to stop) so im not sure if it is age regression or not or what it is. holy run on sentence!
Hiya! Yeah a DNI can be sometimes hard to read, but I am definitely none of those things and I do not want those people around me lol!
Also age regression is usually a mental state where you kinda just feel younger to whatever capacity that means for you. For me, I get sad, anxious, scared, almost like a kid who would hide behind their parents leg. I just don't feel as ready to do any adult tasks suddenly, like cooking or work or whatever it may be.
Feeling younger/acting younger could be regression, could also be a comfort state you're in (I baby-talk and stim more around my partners, for example). Comes with learning what triggers these actions and behaviours, regression for me can be caused by happy things like toys, sweets, or a tv show I used to love. But it can also be triggered by bad things, like kids crying, a parent yelling, or a door slamming.
hi Blake! we wanted to ask you a question if thats okay! how do you deal with being in online agere spaces here on Tumblr while being non-anti-endo? we find it really hard and discouraging, as there are so many anti-endo folks in the tags- especially popular members. do you have any advice for dealing with that kind of negativity? if this ask makes you uncomfortable or anything like that, don't feel like you have to answer it! thank you either way, and we hope you're having an alright day! <3
I block anyone who has anti-endo in their banners, bios, or pins. It's discouraging, yeah, but there's nothing to be done. Being pro-endo isn't the worst once you're a big kid like I am, I just am very against mental health invalidation when people are trying to figure stuff out. To me, if being endogenic or willogenic or neurogenic or whatever people believe they are, doesn't hurt anyone. It's an opening for discussion about mental health, and hopefully can lead people to figuring out who they are and what's going on in their head.
Dealing with the negativity is hard, I block it so I don't have to deal with it. And I block tags of course too, anything with pro-endo DNI and whatnot. Still hurts that people are being medicalists and pushing psych on people, but I can't control how everyone is gonna feel about mental health.
Just remember kids, a diagnosis is a privilege. Even if it's not fun, a lot of people cannot seek diagnosis and cannot get it even when they do due to reasons like age, race, gender, etc. So try to be kind to the mentally ill strangers you find, not everyone is playing pretend and that's a weird assumption.
Hiii you're really cool, you remind us of one of our headmates, he has the same older brother vibe ><
Aww that's really sweet of you to say! Still don't understand people finding me cool lol, but I'm glad that me and one of your headmates have some things in common!
Hopefully one day when my bf lives with me again (as my husband this time) I'm probably gonna ask him to be my caregiver... He wants to take care of me, constantly. He always worries about me and babies me/treats me like a kid/teen. He's younger than me, so I do feel bad being the kid forever, but he's also so nice...
Idk don't mind me I know I'm also a caregiver but my inner child needs to be the little brother at least once in my life.
