souchang

he/him and they/them, an adult | leftist, occasionally an artist | hater of AI NFT Crypto bullshit

[olegkawaii]

Hello! welcome to my blog where I post anything about whatever the hell I want all the time (hope no one here actually came from multiple game's profiles on which I left my blog name, or they'll be shocked ong)

most of my personal info is written in the blog's header, but just in case you've missed it: I'm an adult who makes art and sometimes YouTube stuff and mayybe writes, and I go by he/him and they/them and I'm still thinking on what neopronouns I wanna try out

also I post and reblog a lot of political content, all leftist/socialist leaning, so I will be blocking all of the bigots and right-wingers

I do a lot of fandom stuff and barely have anything original going on ever, and I often have a very strong interest in multiple things at once, and I do tend to scream about them incoherently and reblog violently, so do keep that in mind

I keep this blog clean of any things nsfw, because I have a sideblog specifically for that: @zhimolostafterdark (Warning: extremely pathetic a lot of time. Also I obviosly block minors there, so. Either have your age/indicator of you being an adult, or don't go there)

feel free to block me for whatever reasons, It's the Internet, make the experience comfortable for yourself and others!

My Tags:

MOST IMPORTANT ONE - Fundraisers from Palestinians that have reached out to me in asks: #important

Art - #breakcore on paper

Text posts - #selectively intellectual

Reblogs - #not mine but gold

Commissions - #bread winner (check the linked post for info on how to order, browse the tag for finished works for commissioners)

souchang

THIS IS A POST ABOUT MY COMMISSIONS I'm finally permanently opening my commissions! Took me a while to find how to set them up at all (my c

[ruderubicante]

A Love for Ignorance

[swagophile]

important reminder that most people you follow online are significantly lamer than you think they are including me. and if you feel insecure comparing yourself to someone online: DON'T. theyre probably also lame and weird. most people on the internet are

[most-sane-classicist]

reblog if you're also lame and weird.

[linktoo-doodles]

I always look back

[bundeadly]

i think theyre very cutes

[skronklpus]

Thank you for the lovely memories !

[skronklpus]

Bojack reference

[olegkawaii]

I wanted to finish this for the Longest time but it's been Months so I kind of clued myself in that I'm not gonna... but I still think it's kinda good so there ya go. I love Cyrene!

[smallpwbbles]

I just thought about the old group playing card games and Jax being the sorest of losers about it

[olegkawaii]

I couldn't stop thinking about giving her a more cutesy wutesy design bc I'd like to think she'd use it to Her Advantages (aka being a menace on purpose)

I love the canon design also, of course, so I may draw that more in the future! (and just more tadc fanart in general, I really loved the show)

[olegkawaii]

also HELP I've been so enamored w phm and Ryan Gosling in general I can FEEL the reactivation of my nsfw acc calling to me like a green goblin mask fr.

[olegkawaii]

yooo I'm back with art???!?! whaaa

I posted all of this on Twitter already (I wanna try and engage with some fandoms there...), but I can never ever!! forget about my beautiful wife Tumblr 😘

and Yes I am tagging it here!!! I'm not that scared of interactions with people over here hehe 😁

They're also just as in love with Grace as I am, and I cooked some bs like he's missing a brain or something so he's as clumsy and forgetful as I am irl, and they use all pronouns bc I NEEDED to make one rock weirdly Humanly queer for no reason (ok I lied the reason is their profound sense of alienation from others in their species lol)

Grace called them Cat initially bc of the alike shaped protrusions on their carapace bjt Kat said hell no!!!! (she wanna be different and difficult and doesn't wanna be compared to some human pet wtf??? secretly is a huge pervert about that.)

Bonk the Eridian on image 5 made by pib!!! @.gracerockyy on Twitter! pls support them their art is wonderful and I really want more Bonk appreciators in the world

[mismess]

idk why I'm back here

[thehappysmiler]

im your lame ass mutual and you love me

[linktoo-doodles]

Winter clothes

[foone]

I see a lot of people joking about the adhd thing of "I have a appointment/phone call at 3pm, guess I won't do anything all day!"

But no one seems to make the connection that it's a time blindness thing. One of the symptoms of ADHD is not having a good and accurate sense of time. And not doing stuff prior to an event with a hard deadline is an obvious coping mechanism for that.

Can I go to the store? It's 10am and the appointment is at 3pm. How long does going to the store take? An hour? Three hours? Five hours? I DON'T KNOW!

I get anxious trying to do things before appointments because I'm aware that I don't know how long those things take, and that if I think I do, I may be very wrong. Too often I've been like "hey I can walk to the corner store and grab a drink, that'll take like 15 minutes!" and then an hour later I get back and whoops my rice has burnt.

Plus there's also the fact that ADHD people know that motivation and focus is a two-edged sword.

Like, let's say you decide to play a video game. You've got time, you can pause/save whenever, so this should be a perfect fit to make good use of your waiting-time. So you start playing and WHOOPS you get really focused for some reason today (because people with ADHD do not get to pick when their brain decides to focus) and the next time you look at the clock it's 2:49 and you haven't showered or dressed and the appointment is 30 minutes away. Fuck. (you could have set an alarm, but now you're asking people with the forgetting-things-and-time-ignoring condition to remember it set alarms)

And with motivation, it can be almost worse. Instead of playing a game, you so something useful or creative. You clean your room or fix your plumbing or write a story or draw a picture. And suddenly it's great. Your brain is firing on all cylinders. You've got all the motivation you can ask for, and you are FLYING. the ideas are brilliant, your hands are nimble, you're getting stuff done you've been putting off for weeks or months. And then the alarm goes off. Time to go to your appointment. Fuck.

You drive there, your brain still full of ideas and plans. But by the time you get back, the motivation is gone. You may still have the ideas but you don't have the drive to write them down. You can't force yourself to do it. Your sink is still in pieces. Your room is half-cleaned, and you have to shove all the sorted clothes into one big bin just so you have somewhere to sleep. You've left things half finished again, in a cycle that has been repeating your whole fucking life. It seems sometimes that nothing ever gets finished.

So next time you don't even start. There's not time. You've been burnt too many times. Why add another half-completed project to your pile of shame?

My point is that people seem to be going "lol I can't do anything all day if I have an appointment at 3pm" like this is a quirky "oh I'm so scatterbrained!" weirdness they alone have, and not a major complication of a disabling mental illness.

(and that's not even getting into the secondary effects. If you know that having an appointment ruins your whole damn day, you're going to avoid them. Even when it's things like "going to that party" or "meeting your friends for a drink/game" or "going to a movie with that cute girl from your math class". Things you should enjoy. Things that'd help you be social. Things that make you feel human.)

[valtsv]

apology video where i express remorse for my behaviour while i was possessed by evil mold followed by an update video where i explain that the mold was the one apologising

[valtsv]

further update where i address the comments criticising me for refusing to take responsibility for the things the mold did using my body and saying that i should go back to being possessed because the mold is a better person than i am