it still hurts
i was so excited for my birthday
i was hoping that maybe for one day you would treat me well like you used to
i was hoping to be happy for one day
i was hoping
but instead i sat in the hospital and cried and stared out the window for hours waiting until the visiting hour
so i could see my family for just 50 minutes
and then they left
i dont know why
but i feel like everyone collectively just kinda decided to skip my birthday this year and it didn't happen
and you still hated me
even when i was in the hospital
even on my birthday
















