Life can be very arbitrary and it’s frustrating, soul crushing and basically just devastating. You meet people, you fall in love, you don’t meet anyone, you get sick, people die, it all sounds very random, and to be honest. It is! It is completely and totally random, and you can just keep going round and round in your head trying to figure out the answer of “why me” , why was I that person who had to walk down that road to end up with this result, and others just didn’t! It shatters your heart, makes you wanna scream from the bottom of your lungs but you still feel that your voice ain’t heard! You just don’t want your life, death, journey or even misery to be arbitrary!
To be just another random cosmic accident that has no meaning. You want it to mean something!
I want it to mean something!
I want all the tears I have cried, and all the times I stayed up at night planning and trying to figure out how to cut my way throughout rocky impossible situations, to mean something
I want this life I am living, this pain I have experienced, all the pieces of my heart that have been lost somewhere along the road to actually round up for something meaningful
I just don’t want it to be arbitrary!
It can’t be..
And i know , I know it’s a decision that I make, it’s a matter of prespective, and I am trying
Oh God, I am
So when it hits you to the ground thinking that you are alone in all of this, that you are the joke and we are the ones laughing, slap yourself twice because we are all in it, down to each & everyone of us,
We are all questioning the randomness in all of it and doing our very best to beat it down
To become the extraordinary
The reliable rationale scenario
It’s our decision
We are the masters of our own souls
We are in control
&
It won’t be arbitrary
#wordsofapassionatewoman
