Obsessions are so Obsessive

A Random Collection of my Obsessions, Thoughts, Feelings, and Boredom. Bit of a journal/diary blog at times. Here's Hoping It's Fun. Adult. Genderfluid. I don't care what you call me but if that makes you uncomfortable use they/them. My issues as I understand them: Misophonia, PCOS, depression, anxiety, ADHD,  low confidence, low self esteem, self hate issues, paranoia,  Borderline personality disorder(BPD), and Claustrophobia. I am aware I have these problems and don't care whether you accept that I have them or not.

[oneoddobsession]

My friend is an asshole and I'm really giving up on him now .. it makes me sad.... I really liked them... Why they gotta make shit complicated and be mean for no reason ...

[jonahmagnus]

"I cant draw" then do it bad who gives a fuck.....

[jonahmagnus]

Partake in the joy of creation just for the fun of it. Just for a laff.

[nintendosformerlover]

Me @everyone in the notes

[solreefs]

you ever get surprised by your own recurring issues. like come on man. I thought we were past this.

[oneoddobsession]

I think he would stop if I said it hurt or asked him to stop. No hesitation.

[oneoddobsession]

He's noticed shit about me I didn't even really realize myself. He pays attention to me. He has taken it upon himself to figure out the meaning to the weird little nonverbal sounds I make sometimes. He's consistent. He's so sweet to me. I just wish he could be my boyfriend 😭😭😭 I don't wanna date the other guy. How can I when my sweet baby is so perfect and sweet to me. When he put in the time and effort to get to know me and even picked up on my silly non verbal things.

How can anyone compete with him?!

How could I love anyone else? 😭 💔

[oneoddobsession]

I hate this... Why can't you just be my boyfriend. I like you. You got to know me. You talked to me every day. He's not even really trying... But cause you won't claim me he wants to make some half assed attempt and now you're being colder and it's giving me so much anxiety and I feel like I'm losing you and it makes me want to just disappear

[oneoddobsession]

It's cute how some people use 'poly' as an excuse to have several partners not because they're actually poly but because they didn't want to commit to someone and grow. They'd rather have several on hand and replace them as needed rather than actually work through shit and be better. They can just ignore or throw away the one that displeases them and replace.

Bravo, bro thinks he's cheating the system now.

Not bashing on actual poly people... Just this fake poly person I know.

I doubt he's actually matured at all since he and his gaggle of toxicity traumatized me even worse than I already was.

[avpdgirlfriend]

i feel like people always lose interest in me after a while

[wilwheaton]

[oneoddobsession]

It's hot and I'm agitated cause I can't open the window cause the kid is asleep and was too dumb to open the window before going to bed. e_e

[oneoddobsession]

Falling apart, my screams and cries for help are met with deaf ears and blind eyes

So I fall

And fall

And fall

...and shatter

Broken and alone

Crying and begging for help that's never there...

[natalieironside]

This is a safe space for whiners, complainers, bellyachers, and the generally unsatisfied

[thelatestkate]

Shop , Patreon , Books and Cards , Mailing List

[vilea777]

date idea: u tell me exactly how u feel about me in specific detail until my brain calms down and stops thinking u hate me

[borderline-culture-is]

BPD (+ dating your fp's) culture is never really relating to those "splitting on my fp and thinking they're the worst person ever" posts. sure, i definitely split on my fp's, there's really no way around that with this disorder, but i can never think that they're terrible or that i hate them, i couldn't bring myself to ever do that, i love them too much. instead, my splitting on them is more thinking that they hate me, want to leave me, that i don't deserve them, and so on. essentially splitting on myself for them?

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[oneoddobsession]

[desnos]