░░BASED ON⟬ fear ⟭,

if you're reading this: you're still here.

[onfear]

A PRIVATE INTERPRETATION OF ALICIA CLARK FROM AMC'S FEAR THE WALKING DEAD. EXPLORED IN CONJUNCTION WITH [AND SHIP-EXCLUSIVE* TO] DOOMPREP. WRITTEN BY ZAWN, 21+, NEUTRAL+FEMININE PRONOUNS.

*ALICIA'S RELATIONSHIP WITH JAKE WILL BE MENTIONED ACROSS THREADS WITH OTHERS AND TAKES PLACE THROUGHOUT HER MAIN TIMELINE. I AM NOT SINGLE SHIP BUT THEY WILL REQUIRE EXTENSIVE PLOTTING.

PSD CREDIT: ARIAPSDS

[christofurrwood]

Well, you never wanted to be rancher.

[onfear]

if the outbreak happened like one month later alicia would be back at berkeley and alone <3

[spiderliliez]

Grace Van Patten (as Ana) Mia Goth (as Marsha) Soko (as Gert) Havana Rose Liu (as Bea) Written and directed by Karen Cinorre. From the fantasy-drama of a never-ending war, MAYDAY (2021)

[onfear]

giving alicia…

[zachrp]

𝚃𝙷𝙴 𝚆𝙰𝙻𝙺𝙸𝙽𝙶 𝙳𝙴𝙰𝙳 𝚂𝙴𝙰𝚂𝙾𝙽 𝟼 𝙿𝚁𝙾𝙼𝙿𝚃𝚂.

content warning applies. change any pronouns / wording if necessary.

my people have guns. yours don't.

we're still here.

i can’t watch more names go up on that wall.

hell, they're all gonna be doing that.

i do not appreciate you killing my men.

they made a lot of demands, even more threats.

i know that is a mighty, big, nasty pill to swallow, but swallow it you most certainly will!

this is the next world.

that’s a stupid name.

confrontation's never been something we've had trouble with.

it happened and now it's done.

you want to live, you take chances.

i'm not pissing off a pregnant lady.

the world is trying to die.

the people around you dying, that's the hard part.

the only thing that keeps you from being a monster is killing.

i want to show you the new world.

if you have to eat shit, best not to nibble.

your dad was an asshole.

things can get better. we can make them better.

this is what life looks like now.

doing this will start us down a road where nothing matters.

we're gonna give it to them.

we don't leave anyone behind.

you got one of our guns.

we all have a job to do.

we can't turn back because we're afraid.

look, i get it, my dad killed your dad.

do you have any idea who you are talking to?

someday this pain will be useful to you.

this is your way of life now.

shit’s continually been hitting the fan.

you work for me now.

i like you people.

you keep choosing this life, you will die.

you don't really think that you were gonna get through this without being punished, now did you?

things aren’t as simple as four words.

you are so gonna regret crossing me in a few minutes.

you’re a survivor. you always were.

you can cry.

it’s dangerous, you should change it.

but are you gonna live through it?

and what do you get in return?

i don't take chances anymore.

somebody like that they're gonna die no matter what.

most of the people here don't even know how to fight, even if we had ammo.

we got here together, and we’re still here.

you see? i have leverage.

you still got family and you still got a home.

these dicks just got a good story.

i find this whole conversation pretty funny.

your world’s about to get a whole lot bigger.

trust us.

i wanted to kill him.

there is no right; there's just the wrong that doesn't pull you down.

i will not allow you to kill me. i will not allow that.

we need food. you have it. we're willing to work for it.

sucks, don't it? moment you realize you don't know shit.

we have to come for them before they come for us.

i fully respect the hair game.

then i'll get supplies for your people.

i'm going like i should have.

we keep going for them.

i like the way you call bullshit.

ya'll don't think you're being stupid right now?

you're some kind of stupid, getting knocked up at a time like this.

shit kid. lighten up.

i'm gonna beat the holy hell outta one of you.

i don't wanna kill you people.

we're going to have to fight.

be kind to each other.

y'all are worse than a bunch of evangelical second graders.

i am not like you.

i still think i got some of his brains in my ear.

we don't need to leave breadcrumbs.

dibs is dibs.

when they come for us, we’ll end it. the whole thing.

this was supposed to be a dress rehearsal.

i trust you.

you're one of the most important people in the world to me.

good luck, dumbass.

you wanna make today your last day on earth?

you point a gun at me, and i’m the asshole?

people you love, they made you who you are.

we pissin' our pants yet?

i'm not planning to die today.

you're the one who's afraid to die. and you're going to. you will die.

you go or you stay. those are your choices.

i know this sounds insane, but this is an insane world.

you need to know things aren't as simple as they might seem.

i have come to believe, all life is precious.

they're all your people.

you're smarter than that.

walkers, people, anything that gets anywhere near me, i kill them.

jesus! you look fucking shitty!

listen, i'm a little nervous here.

are you going to kill me?

which one of you pricks is the leader?

things moved slow here, and then things just started moving fast, too fast.

don't come after me, please.

you thought you were safe. i get it.

you live with it or it eats you up.

you can breathe.

did you take one of my protein bars?

[onfear]

alicia clark glass child smth smth

[zachrp]

𝚃𝙷𝙴 𝚆𝙰𝙻𝙺𝙸𝙽𝙶 𝙳𝙴𝙰𝙳 𝚂𝙴𝙰𝚂𝙾𝙽 𝟺 𝙿𝚁𝙾𝙼𝙿𝚃𝚂.

content warning applies. change any pronouns / wording if necessary.

i don't make decisions anymore.

come down here. we need to talk.

if you understand what it's like to have a daughter, then how can you threaten to kill someone else's?

look, we can settle this.

there's enough room for all of us.

honey, you’re weak.

you take one sip before those meds get in our people, i will beat your ass into the ground. you hear me?

i hereby declare we have spaghetti tuesdays every wednesday.

when you care about people, getting hurt is kind of a part of the package.

it's not a farming hat.

liar.

i still believe there’s a reason.

i know you look at me and you just see another dead girl.

why hurt yourself when you can hurt other people?

seems to me like things are finally starting to fall together.

we all have our jobs to do.

just so you know, i liked you first.

you never let me win anyway.

you don't think it'll hold?

when can i have my gun back?

the only thing you can choose is what you’re risking it for.

i don't want to be afraid of being alive.

i think you made the right call.

sooner or later, you gotta make a move.

at the camp, it just got worse and worse.

i know we all can change.

how many people have you killed? why?

first we have to find some spaghetti.

it was a nice watch.

we'll make it.

come on, let's play.

what do you want me to say?

i was just another monster.

any requests? books? comics? some stale m&ms?

i think we should make some new rules before they get back.

it was all of us.

look at us, digging through drawers.

we don't need to take any chances.

you should have seen him back in the day.

he told me all i had to do was believe, and that's what i'm gonna do.

you either live with them, or you don’t.

we can all live together.

time for you to leave, asshole.

anger makes you stupid. stupid gets you killed.

i mean, what the hell is going on in this cabin?

i'm a pirate.

you didn't wake me up.

best not waste any more time.

so you want to spend the rest of our lives staring into a fire and eating mud snakes? screw that.

how many walkers have you killed?

was there ever a time you weren't the boss of me?

you're the one that likes stale m&ms.

some council meeting, huh?

is this what you want?

he's too loyal to bounce.

you walk outside, you risk your life. you take a drink of water, you risk your life. nowadays you breathe and you risk your life.

i killed two people and you haven't said a word about it.

you're gonna have to learn to live with the love.

we’ve all lost someone.

we've all done the worst kinds of things just to stay alive.

you're a tough son of a bitch.

i don't know how to talk about it.

what we want is what you got. period.

i can make these people feel better and hang on a little bit longer.

was your dad mean?

so you tell me how in the holy hell did you possibly kill this truck?

she'll need a safe place when it comes.

now you put down your weapons, walk through those gates you're one of us.

everybody makes it until they don't.

you can be a farmer, but you can't be just a farmer.

there are some things you don’t come back from.

we're not too far gone.

they're gonna feel pretty stupid when they find out.

if you wanna live, you have to become strong.

you're gonna miss me so bad when i'm gone.

where should we go?

you're a tough son of a bitch.

i'm gonna be honest, i forgot about you.

it's not about what you say.

hey. i know it's been a while.

i'm never going to let anything happen to you, okay?

i don't want it!

why would you want my help?

we care about you.

don't look back.

probably best not think too much about it.

did you have kids?

everything we've been working so hard to keep out, it found its way in.

he made it through the night.

we don’t get to be upset.

i think it was the humane thing to do.

i can save lives, that's reason enough to risk mine.

a sad soul can killer quicker than a germ.

we just went through something terrible.

that's the guy you want to capture.

what i’m picking up is, murder is ok in this place now.

you do a lot for us. for the kids. you sacrifice a lot.

what the hell are you gonna do now, sport?

they're fucking with the wrong people.

we can live here for the rest of our lives.

it was a real treat, sir.

you can’t keep me from it.

he seems stable enough for me to get some air.

i still think there’s a plan.

is there anything you wouldn’t do for the people here?

they wanted to go out together same as they lived.

but i made it and you don't get to treat me like crap just because you're afraid.

i'm sorry. i'm not very good at making boys your age laugh.

your place or my place?

do you think we can make it?

it was stupid. i was so stupid.

i'm just tired of losing people.

that's what my daddy used to say.

did you think it was right?

you have to have numbers. people are the best defense against walkers or people.

i'd be honored to shake your hand.

you fight it. you don't give up. and one day you just change.

you gonna help us figure this out?

i screwed up too many times.

i'm gonna take a group out.

still, it is survival of the fittest.

he's a lying sack of shit.

the whole world is haunted now.

i've been afraid to get my hopes up thinking we can actually stay here.

i have to talk you all in to doing something i know we need to do.

end of the world don't mean shit when you got a tank.

he’s already given me fleas.

i tied the door shut.

they could have gotten hurt.

we get to come back.

see, going it alone, that ain't an option nowadays.

i think it’s my job to try.

smells good.

everybody loves a hero.

look, i fought him before.

i've survived and you don't get it 'cause i'm not like you or them.

you don't have to like what i did, just accept it.

if you don't have hope, what's the point of living?

you can't think forever.

you guys got separated?

you don’t have a choice.

you can lose a lot of soldiers but still win the game.

all this time you've taking off, you earned it.

it could work, you know it could.

whatever else this place needs, i'm here for it.

when i fell on my ass, they should have just left me out there.

she didn't have a mean bone in her body.

the walkers didn't see me anymore.

i knew you were up all night reading comics with a flashlight.

we wouldn't be here without you.

that's what it always comes down to.

man, what happened here?

those douchebags in the vines took themselves out, holding hands, kumbaya-style.

we go in, kill them all!

i could use a vacation.

today, we're talking about knives. how to use them, how to be safe with them, how they could save your life.

wasn't much use without my gun.

i just want to say thank you for bringing that deer back yesterday.

[onfear]

more activity here after the new year 🧡

[onfear]

i thinkkkkk i would really enjoy exploring if alicia stayed away from her family post s3

[onfear]

will be making alicia verses to fit in each season of twdg btw xxx

[ohlexa]

ALYCIA DEBNAM-CAREY as ALICIA CLARK in the Fear the Walking Dead series finale or Alycia doing what she does best✨

+ BONUS (if you squint hard enough, you can see Lexa)

[onfear]

too often,  in the small glow of the stove light, you find yourself praying to a rotting altar:   you never were religious,   even in youth it seemed stupid to believe in such a thing as a man in the sky,   preoccupied with the mundane reality of learning to ride a bike,   patching up skinned knees from when it wasn’t so easy to find your balance in the complexities of the unknown.   at the end of the world,   it was hope that was missing.   hope that whatever/whoever comes after you is better than you have been;   that the cool jade of your attitude could be dissolved into a brighter future.    there is no turning back from the monster you have become;   you step over cracked memories beneath flickering fluorescents hand-in-hand with your younger self [truth and fiction a blurred line.  you were never her,  she would never become you]    and still you pretend that you can make amends.     you could have killed her,   she begged you to pull the trigger in the eye of a storm.     was she already your mirror,    or could you still fix your mistakes?

〘    ▫     ✉️      ─   @tellt4le:   she'd do what you taught her, she'd meet the same cruel fate.  〙

“that’s not true.”      you bite,    and it wasn’t fair.    your actions often lacked intention,   you act before you could think only to be left wading in a swimming pool of regret.   eyes ache with the weight of unshed tears;    you were not that girl anymore,   hardened where you once were soft in nature,   too forgiving and too naive to ever make it in the changed world.    let yourself be painted as the villain,    burdened with actions that no one else should have to take.     [accustomed now to the bloodshed,    how easy it was to take a mans life did not weigh on your chest like it should;   guilt nonexistent.    do or die,   it is no way to live]       knuckles turn white,   had nails not already been bitten down to the quick, you were sure they would have drawn blood.    eyes cast over his shoulder to land on charlie,    so young but so bruised;   drawn into the community like it’s natural for her,   like she did not have to constantly look over her shoulder awaiting the proverbial stab in the back.  

        “you don’t know me,   or her.      she’s different.     she doesn’t have to make the same mistakes i did.”      you wouldn’t let her.

[doomprep]

@waysteland: 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘮𝘶𝘮𝘣𝘭𝘦 𝘪𝘯 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘴𝘭𝘦𝘦𝘱.

the things once cradled by conventions had all but been abandoned in the end of the world as they knew each it. days of courting felt trivial, time slots dedicated to putting on your best self and sharing over expensive dinners small fragments of who you were in small, bite-sized pieces, just enough but not too much. the performance in itself was tiresome, reigning yourself into a palatable display of normality. jake didn't much take part in the ritual, previous affairs a concise list of comings and goings that wouldn't span half a page. it never felt like the right time, until it did. some find forced proximity a facilitation, a way of settling for whoever's there by capitalising upon a time of sheer desolation. jake would call it fate. there was no urgency about the time he spent with alicia, only the ebbs of gentle mitigation. it didn't feel like the world was ending when they were together, it just felt comfortable, a natural succession from respecting her as a political party into something more, at her pace and her desire. they simply slotted together, complementing each other's personalities in a way that none around them could have ever predicted. it felt preordained in that way, as though mapped out by the heavens that they would one day unite by sheer coincidence and be together. fate. there was no clamour to fill the void in meeting, only the placid feeling of pieces falling into place.

“yeah?” he'd never known, never been around anyone long enough to know. he wondered if it was a new habit, established in harder times where head was too much occupied with the future of their homes, the strife of the living and the dead just a stone's throw away. jake never felt rested after waking, felt his mind a-mock when his body lay unconscious. of course he mumbled in his sleep, shedding the build up of a thousand things he felt he had left to do. dawn creeps in through rays, the blinds could only hold so much of a haven before reality bleeds through and he had to return to the menial task of leadership. if only he could stay for a few moments longer, sheltered from what was requested from outside and just be jake. but he pulls his jacket on and it feels more and more like a lead weight. “you get anything good out of me? don't tell me i told you where the ancient otto treasure was buried.”

[onfear]

it’s comical,  you think,   the way that things just fall into place,  as if the world turned just for this chance encounter.      you’re not a believer in fate,   maybe,   sometime before all of this,   you would have considered it;   found it romantic that some people were just destined to find each other,   love each other.    but this wasn’t love,    you’ve felt that before [you think.   do you ever really know?   or will it always be 𝚝𝚘𝚘 𝚕𝚊𝚝𝚎 before you realise the truth laid out before you?]      instead,   a set of circumstances,   variables that could have left you creating a life in the hotel,    afloat at sea,    or even living the life you once hoped you would–    boxes had been packed,   berkeley in the fall.    𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚠𝚎𝚜𝚝 𝚌𝚘𝚊𝚜𝚝 𝚠𝚊𝚜 𝚊 𝚠𝚘𝚛𝚕𝚍𝚜 𝚊𝚠𝚊𝚢 𝚏𝚛𝚘𝚖 𝚓𝚊𝚔𝚎’𝚜 𝚎𝚊𝚜𝚝,    there was never any other logical way for you to meet.   so you call it what it is,    fun in a world devoid of it.     you could die tomorrow,    or next week,    or live long enough to see the end of this.    you didn’t want to leave with any regrets,   things unsaid.     known jake for a handful of weeks,    really,    you had lost count;   found no point in counting the days of the after,    stopped somewhere around docking in mexico to see the new reality setting in.   but that did not matter,   it felt as if you had known him intimately for years,    how easy it was for him now to draw out a smile,    a terse laugh at the end of the world—

“you think i’d still be here if you spilled that? i and my dreams of an aristocratic lifestyle would be long gone.”     if gravity was made out of anything human,  it was guilt.   he speaks,   pulls on his coat and suddenly you are back on earth,   grounded in reality;    could not hide up here forever crafting the perfect existence.    you had claws,  the clark name sharpened itself as it dug itself into the otto's,   not a desire for intimacy but a need; mindless meddling that you wanted no part of.    jake was different,   like you:  each shrugged off name as if given to you by mistake.    you clear your throat,   knees brought up to chest as arms wrap themselves around shins.    secret treasure,   sure.   own secrets still locked up tight.        “no,   no–    𝚓𝚞𝚜𝚝 𝚒𝚗𝚌𝚘𝚑𝚎𝚛𝚎𝚗𝚝 𝚖𝚞𝚖𝚋𝚕𝚒𝚗𝚐𝚜.   still, better than nick’s snoring.”

[onfear]

like 2 plot hehe

[doomprep]

doomprep.tumblr.com ﹐ “i promise. i know i can still make peace. i know it.” [an independent writing blog for ᴶᴬᴷᴱ ᴼᵀᵀᴼ of amc's F̲E̲A̲R̲ᵀᴴᴱ ᵂᴬᴸᴷᴵᴺᴳ ᴰᴱᴬᴰ.] first established in 2017, remade in 2023. promo idea credit.

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[zachrp]

𝙸𝚃'𝚂 𝚃𝙷𝙴 𝙴𝙽𝙳 𝙾𝙵 𝚃𝙷𝙴 𝚆𝙾𝚁𝙻𝙳 (𝙰𝙿𝙾𝙲𝙰𝙻𝚈𝙿𝚃𝙸𝙲 - 𝚃𝙷𝙴𝙼𝙴𝙳 𝙻𝚈𝚁𝙸𝙲𝚂).

content warning applies. change any pronouns / wording if necessary.

so i'll use my voice, i'll be so fucking rude.

i've been searching for a trail to follow again.

i'll tell you my sins and you can sharpen your knife.

this is hungry work.

i was born sick, but i love it.

that's a fine looking high horse.

my skin is rough, but it can be cleansed.

i'm still alive but my heart is beating slow.

'cause everybody makes it 'till they don't.

there is no sweeter innocence than our gentle sin.

and there you are to tear apart.

saying you can't depend on anything, or anyone.

she'd do what you taught her, she'd meet the same cruel fate.

did i drive you away?

apologies from my tongue.

i can't breathe anymore.

you're sacred and they're starved.

take me back to the night we met.

my heart is yours.

saw the madness unfold like some primal burial.

i saw the end of the world.

could i make you happy?

don't you wanna know me again?

the capillaries in my eyes are bursting.

i used to know the person i took after.

if the end of the world was near, where would you choose to be?

i made a life i don't remember making.

the calloused skin on my hands is cracking.

and here it is, our final night alive.

yeah, that's what i'll do.

i've been low, but dammit i bet it don't show.

as the atom bomb locks in, it's you i watch tv with.

we're gonna nuke each other up boys.

the only heaven i'll be sent to is when i'm alone with you.

this was an escape plan

i wanna know all you know so i can take what you can let go.

i wanna take you somewhere so you know i care, but it's so cold and i don't know where.

words, they always win, but i know i'll lose.

then i can tell myself what the hell i'm supposed to do.

you've put your final suit on.

i'll worship like a dog at the shrine of your lies.

go home, don't tell anyone what you are.

the silence haunts our bed chamber

we look much different in pictures, at least that's what most people say.

i looked back upon armageddon.

if somebody hurts you, i wanna fight, but my hand's been broken one too many times.

yeah, i saw sparks.

'm getting fucking tired.

would you panic and hide?

don't go, you're half of me now.

we're going out in style.

let me give you my life.

so it finally came to pass.

the papers say it's doomsday.

i have wounds only you can mend.

i must've let them slip away.

for somebody i thought was my saviour you sure make me do a whole lot of labour.

and i know i was wrong, but i won't let you down.

i don't know what i'm supposed to do.

if our love ended, would that be a bad thing?

i wanna hold you like you needed then.

i know what you'll say.

breathe the air again, it's a beautiful day.

i'm just so tired to share my nights.

they're gonna tell you what you wanna hear, then they're gonna disappear.

living day after day like some primal animals.

the best of me was you.

when the world is silent and the days are long, just you and i, we'll be alive.

i wanna kiss you.

you better keep your head down.

i guess that's love.

why are you hanging on so tight to the rope that i'm hanging from?

so now i've gotta run so i can undo this mistake.

and we would live again in the simplest of ways.

but there you go again, saying everything ends.

i wanna fight, but i can't contend.

i am not the only traveler who has not repaid his debt.

we creep up on extinction.

if our love died, would that be the worst thing?

we made it on our own.

offer me that deathless death.

we would love again under glorious suns.

i know you're a smart man.

it's you that i hold on to.

it's not an act of love if you make her.

and here it is, our final night alive.

i can't seem to let myself leave you.

my church offers no absolutes.

but i promise you this, i'll always look out for you.

i wish this moment would stay with the earth.

as the earth burns to the ground, it's you that i lie with.

at least i've gotta try.

i used to feel it when i'd wake up.

i had it, almost.

i can't seem to not need to need you.

but you spent them with me.

with the freedom that comes with the truth.

it was heaven a moment ago.

brother i'll bet it all gold.

you make me do too much labour.

my feet are aching, and your back is pretty tired.