genre:angst all the way bro
warning:none really, a bit of swearing? not a lot though.
summary:you were out shopping with friends, smiling, laughing and happy, not until you saw your boyfriend having his lips all over another woman who was clearly not you.
a/n: i'm new to this writing stuff so if it's a bit cringy please bear with it. i'll take criticisms tho, i wanna get better
it was a year and a few months since you started to date banri. a few months ever since that confession underneath the cherry blossom tree. as clichรฉ as it is, you decided to confess to him underneath that pink tree behind the school building. you believed in that stupid school rumor that if you confessed in that place and your love decides to accept your feelings, you will love each other for the rest of your life. but if that was true, why were you seeing ๐ฉ๐๐๐จ? he accepted your feelings underneath that damned tree so why is your vision blurring out as you watch your lover, ๐๐ผ๐๐ฟ banri showering another girl with his kisses and affection. a girl who wasn't you. you stood there, frozen, not knowing what to do. he hasn't seen you yet so it would be nice to just turn around, run, forget about it, act like you didn't see anything and continue with your life with banri. he didn't act cold whenever he was with you, he never showed signs of falling out of love, there was no way he'll leave you, ๐ง๐๐๐๐ฉ? you tried to run away, but you can't. you broke down infront of your friends who were
were shopping with you, you couldn't help but cry in pure lament. people started whispering around you as your friends tried to lift you up but a familiar voice echoed through your ears in your horror
โ๐ฏ๐ฎ๐ฏ๐? ๐๐ต๐ ๐ฎ๐ฟ๐ฒ ๐๐ผ๐ ๐ฐ๐ฟ๐๐ถ๐ป๐ด? ๐๐ต๐ฎ๐ ๐ฎ๐ฟ๐ฒ ๐๐ผ๐ ๐ฑ๐ผ๐ถ๐ป๐ด ๐ต๐ฒ๐ฟ๐ฒ?โ banri's hand tried to hold your head up, you slapped it away. the person infront of you had his eyes widen, he knew it. he knew that you saw them. his heart broke into a million pieces when you stood up on your own, still shaking. you lifter your head, glaring at him with your tear filled eyes with pure hatred, no words were said but the fact that you were looking at him with that expression, that expression of shame, disappointment, hate and sadness, it hit him through his chest like a knife stabbed through his chest. he tried to hold you in his embrace repeating the word โsorryโ over and over again but unfortunately for him, your friends shoved him away from you. and as you were pulled away from the one you once called the love of your life, you gave him one last gaze and he's in there, in another woman's embrace. as if you didn't mean anything to him at all. you choked in your own tears, โ๐ข๐๐ฎ๐๐ ๐ ๐๐๐๐ฃ'๐ฉ, ๐ข๐๐ฎ๐๐ ๐ ๐ฌ๐๐จ๐ฃ'๐ฉ ๐๐ข๐ฅ๐ค๐ง๐ฉ๐๐ฃ๐ฉ ๐๐ฉ ๐๐ก๐ก. ๐ฌ๐๐ค ๐๐ข ๐ ๐๐ฃ๐ฎ๐ฌ๐๐ฎ?โ you muttered to yourself. after arriving to one of the comfort rooms of the mall, one of your friends handed you a box of tissues, where did she get those? welp frick frack it, who cares? you need them tissues so you snatched it from her and tried to force a teasing smile, trying to act like yourself but to no avail. she sighed but smiled back
โ๐ฑ๐ผ๐ป'๐ ๐ณ๐ผ๐ฟ๐ฐ๐ฒ ๐ถ๐, ๐๐ผ๐ ๐น๐ผ๐ผ๐ธ ๐๐ด๐น๐ ๐๐ถ๐๐ต ๐ฎ๐น๐น ๐๐ต๐ฎ๐ ๐๐ป๐ผ๐ ๐ฎ๐ป๐ฑ ๐๐ฎ๐๐ฒ๐ฟ๐ณ๐ฎ๐น๐น ๐ผ๐ป ๐๐ผ๐๐ฟ ๐ณ๐ฎ๐ฐ๐ฒ.โ you playfully slapped her arm and thanked her for the tissues. you started wiping everywhere. you were an absolute mess. you never felt so insecure. you look so ugly and you felt so... disgusting. images of that girl with banri flooded your mind. she was beautiful, maybe even smoking hot, she had pouty lips, long eyelashes, thin waist and everything. and you? what do you have? a great personality. is that enough? no, definitely it's not, especially for men like banri. you stared at yourself in the mirror, tears blurring your vision once again.
โ๐ฌ๐๐ฎ ๐๐๐ฃ๐ฉ ๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ช๐ฉ๐๐๐ช๐ก? ๐ฌ๐๐ฎ ๐๐๐ฃ๐ฉ ๐ฎ๐ค๐ช ๐๐ ๐๐ฃ๐ค๐ช๐๐?...โ you whispered, enough for only you to hear. suddenly as you were deep in your envy hole, your phone started to ring. you knew this ringtone, it was the cuppy cake song. the one you always sang for banri whenever he wanted to sleep while using your lap as his pillow after their rehearsals and practices in the mankai company. you remembered how masumi was whining at izumi that he wanted to do whatever you and banri were doing together infront of them. while reminiscing, you didn't notice how your hand was snaking in your purse to get your phone. you answered the call without thinking and was greeted by a screaming banri, not the playful scream she was used to. but an angry scream, noโ not angry. he was furious.
โ๐๐๐๐ฅ๐ ๐ง๐๐ ๐๐จ๐๐ ๐๐ฅ๐ ๐ฌ๐ข๐จ ๐ฅ๐๐๐๐ง ๐ก๐ข๐ช?!!โ you flinched at his tone. you gulped and clenched your fist, weren't you the one who was supposed to be angry? you were the one who was cheated on, not him. so what was he acting like that for?
โ๐ฌ๐๐ ๐ผ๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐พ๐๐๐ผ๐๐๐๐ ๐ผ๐ ๐๐?! ๐'๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐'๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ฟ ๐๐ ๐๐๐ผ๐ ๐๐๐! ๐....โ your voiced cracked, tears started falling again. you felt helpless, trapped like you fell in a void with nobody to be your hero. a pregnant silence passed. you had so many things to say. you wanted to know why he thought it was cool to date two girls at once. why he was kissing another girl other than you even though he promised that you were the only one for him, even buying you promise rings. but no words left your lips.
โ๐๐ผ๐ผ๐ธ... ๐ฏ๐ฎ๐ฏ๐ฒ, ๐ฝ๐ฟ๐ถ๐ป๐ฐ๐ฒ๐๐, ๐บ๐ ๐ฎ๐ป๐ด๐ฒ๐น, ๐ถ๐บ ๐๐ผ๐ฟ๐ฟ๐... ๐ถ ๐ฑ๐ถ๐ฑ๐ป'๐ ๐บ๐ฒ๐ฎ๐ป ๐ณ๐ผ๐ฟ ๐๐ต๐ถ๐ ๐๐ผ ๐ต๐ฎ๐ฝ๐ฝ๐ฒ๐ป. ๐ถ ๐ฑ๐ถ๐ฑ๐ป'๐ ๐๐ฎ๐ป๐ ๐๐ผ ๐ต๐๐ฟ๐ ๐๐ผ๐, ๐ถ ๐๐๐ฒ๐ฎ๐ฟโโ you chuckled bitterly at his weak attempt of an apology.
โ๐ฎ๐ค๐ช ๐๐๐ ๐ ๐๐๐ค๐๐๐. ๐๐ฉ ๐ฌ๐๐จ๐ฃ'๐ฉ ๐ ๐ข๐๐จ๐ฉ๐๐ ๐. ๐ฎ๐ค๐ช ๐๐๐๐ฃ'๐ฉ ๐ข๐๐๐ฃ ๐ฉ๐ค ๐๐ช๐ง๐ฉ ๐ข๐? ๐๐๐ ๐ฎ๐ค๐ช ๐ฉ๐๐๐ฃ๐ ๐ฉ๐๐๐ฉ ๐'๐ ๐๐ค ๐ฌ๐๐ค๐ ๐ข๐ฎ ๐๐ค๐ฎ๐๐ง๐๐๐ฃ๐ ๐๐๐จ ๐๐ฃ๐ค๐ฉ๐๐๐ง ๐๐๐ง๐ก๐๐ง๐๐๐ฃ๐, ๐ ๐๐ข ๐จ๐ค ๐๐ช๐๐ ๐๐ฃ๐ ๐๐๐ฅ๐ฅ๐ฎ.โ you heard his gasp from the other line, he has never heard your sassy side before. you had always been his sweet angel, his fluffball. he was left speechless.
โ๐ถ'๐บ ๐๐ผ๐ฟ๐ฟ๐, ๐ฎ๐ป๐ด๐ฒ๐น. ๐ถ ๐ฑ๐ผ๐ป๐ ๐ธ๐ป๐ผ๐ ๐๐ต๐ ๐ถ ๐ฑ๐ถ๐ฑ ๐๐ต๐ถ๐...โ was the only thing he could say.
โ๐ฏ๐๐ ๐๐ผ๐ ๐น๐ผ๐๐ฒ ๐บ๐ฒ ๐ฟ๐ถ๐ด๐ต๐? ๐ฝ๐น๐ฒ๐ฎ๐๐ฒ ๐ณ๐ผ๐ฟ๐ด๐ถ๐๐ฒ ๐บ๐ฒ. ๐ถ'๐น๐น ๐ฏ๐ฒ ๐ฎ ๐ฏ๐ฒ๐๐๐ฒ๐ฟ ๐บ๐ฎ๐ป, ๐ฝ๐น๐ฒ๐ฎ๐๐ฒ ๐ฑ๐ผ๐ป'๐ ๐น๐ฒ๐ฎ๐๐ฒ ๐บ๐ฒ. ๐ถ ๐ฏ๐ฒ๐ด ๐ผ๐ณ ๐๐ผ๐โ his voice was cracking, he was definitely crying, it made you feel like crying too. it made you think for a second, to forget what you saw and continue to love him but as you were thinking about it the picture of him kissing that girl in that shop hit you. no... you can't continue like this. you can't be happy like this.
โ๐๐ข ๐จ๐ค๐ง๐ง๐ฎ ๐๐๐ฃ๐ง๐, ๐ ๐๐ค ๐ก๐ค๐ซ๐ ๐ฎ๐ค๐ช... ๐๐ช๐ฉ ๐ ๐๐ค๐ฃ๐ฉ ๐ฉ๐๐๐ฃ๐ ๐ ๐๐๐ฃ ๐ฉ๐ง๐ช๐จ๐ฉ ๐ฎ๐ค๐ชโ you cried, you could almost hear your heart shattering, hearing your own words and banri's soft cries from the phone.
โ๐ฏ๐ฎ๐ฏ๐โ ๐ป๐ผ ๐ฝ๐น๐ฒ๐ฎ๐๐ฒ ๐ฑ๐ผ๐ป๐ ๐น๐ฒ๐ฎ๐๐ฒ ๐บ๐ฒ. ๐ถ ๐ฎ๐น๐ฟ๐ฒ๐ฎ๐ฑ๐ ๐ฏ๐ฟ๐ผ๐ธ๐ฒ ๐๐ต๐ถ๐ป๐ด๐ ๐ผ๐ณ๐ณ ๐๐ถ๐๐ต ๐ต๐ฒ๐ฟ. ๐ถ ๐ฑ๐ผ๐ป๐ ๐น๐ผ๐๐ฒ ๐ต๐ฒ๐ฟ, ๐ถ ๐น๐ผ๐๐ฒ ๐ฌ๐ข๐จ. ๐ฑ๐ถ๐ฑ๐ป'๐ ๐๐ฒ ๐ฝ๐ฟ๐ผ๐บ๐ถ๐๐ฒ ๐๐ผ ๐ฏ๐ฒ ๐๐ถ๐๐ต ๐ฒ๐ฎ๐ฐ๐ต ๐ผ๐๐ต๐ฒ๐ฟ ๐ณ๐ผ๐ฟ๐ฒ๐๐ฒ๐ฟ? ๐๐ผ๐'๐ฟ๐ฒ ๐บ๐ ๐ฝ๐น๐ฎ๐๐ฒ๐ฟ ๐๐๐ผ, ๐ฟ๐ถ๐ด๐ต๐? ๐๐ต๐ฒ๐ฟ๐ฒ ๐ฎ๐ฟ๐ฒ ๐๐ผ๐? ๐ถ'๐บ ๐ด๐ผ๐ถ๐ป๐ด ๐๐ผ ๐ฝ๐ถ๐ฐ๐ธ ๐๐ผ๐ ๐๐ฝ ๐ฎ๐ป๐ฑ ๐ถ'๐น๐น ๐ฏ๐ฟ๐ถ๐ป๐ด ๐๐ผ๐ ๐๐ผ ๐๐ต๐ฒ ๐ฑ๐ผ๐ฟ๐บ. ๐๐ต๐ฒ๐'๐น๐น ๐ฏ๐ฒ ๐๐ต๐ฟ๐ถ๐น๐น๐ฒ๐ฑ ๐๐ผ ๐ต๐ฎ๐๐ฒ ๐๐ผ๐ ๐๐ต๐ฒ๐ฟ๐ฒโ ๐น๐ฒ๐'๐ ๐ด๐ผ ๐๐ผ ๐บ๐ ๐ฟ๐ผ๐ผ๐บ ๐ฎ๐ป๐ฑ ๐ฝ๐น๐ฎ๐ ๐๐ผ๐บ๐ฒ ๐ด๐ฎ๐บ๐ฒ๐. ๐ท๐๐๐ ๐๐ต๐ฒ ๐๐๐ผ ๐ผ๐ณ ๐๐, ๐๐ฒ๐ฎ๐ต?โ he was stammering, you wanted to tell him that you were in the second floor's bathroom, just infront of that candy story you loved so much but you knew what your friends would do to him once he tries to get near you. they would murder him with words and push him away. if he doesn't listen they'll go on combat mode and you never really liked violence.
โ๐ ๐๐ผ๐ ๐ฎ๐ค๐ช๐ง ๐ฅ๐ก๐๐ฎ๐๐ง ๐ฉ๐ฌ๐ค. ๐๐ช๐ฉ ๐'๐ข ๐๐ฃ๐๐๐ฃ๐ ๐ฉ๐๐๐จ ๐ฃ๐ค๐ฌ. ๐'๐ข ๐จ๐ค๐ง๐ง๐ฎ ๐๐๐ฃ๐ง๐, ๐ ๐๐๐ฃ'๐ฉ ๐๐๐๐ ๐ฎ๐ค๐ช ๐ง๐๐๐๐ฉ ๐ฃ๐ค๐ฌ. ๐'๐ข ๐จ๐ค๐ง๐ง๐ฎโ and with that you ended the call, blocked him and went to one of your friendsโ car as they drove you home. banri was still in the mall, eyes reddened as he bawled his eyes out after that conversation with you. he was hopelessly looking for you until yuki and kazunari spotted him and forced him to come back home and call it a day. he tried to go to your own apartment, basically kicking off the door, thankfully one of the old ladies who lived somewhere near your apartment spotted him and asked him to leave. you never left your home and never touched your phone which was bombarded with messages from people from the mankai company, asking if you were okay. you felt somewhat soft knowing that they have warmed up to you as you were always visiting and helping them whenever you could. you helped them cook once when omi was doing a late night photoshoot, tsuzuru visited home and everyone else wanted something else than izumi's famous curry. you lent a hand to tzusuru when he was writing a script for the winter troupe and it ended up bomb. you remembered how proud and how bright banri's smile as he kept repeating โthat's my girlfriend's work. ofcourse it's perfectโ, tears left your eyes as you punched yourself internally.
โ๐ฌ๐๐ฎ ๐๐๐ ๐๐ฉ ๐๐๐ซ๐ ๐ฉ๐ค ๐๐ฃ๐ ๐ฉ๐๐๐จ ๐ฌ๐๐ฎ? ๐ฌ๐๐ฎ ๐๐๐ ๐๐ฉ ๐๐๐ซ๐ ๐ฉ๐ค ๐๐ฃ๐ ๐๐ฉ ๐๐ก๐ก?โ
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