The Broken Locks Were A Warning

My name is Aleksi Quirke, I'm nineteen and I'm a freshman at Charlton University. That's pretty much all there is to say about me.

[wnq-writers]

3 AM or 3 PM, I do not care. I will be there, when you need me.

lostmusing (via wordsnquotes)

[not-painted-anymore-blog-deacti]

“Traumatized people chronically feel unsafe inside their bodies: The past is alive in the form of gnawing interior discomfort. Their bodies are constantly bombarded by visceral warning signs, and, in an attempt to control these processes, they often become expert at ignoring their gut feelings and in numbing awareness of what is played out inside. They learn to hide from their selves.

“The Body Keeps The Score” by Bessel Van Der Kolk (via mischabarton2004)

[acefitz-deactivated20170703]

[purplebuddhaproject]

I cannot make you understand. I cannot make anyone understand what is happening inside me. I cannot even explain it to myself.

Franz Kafka (via purplebuddhaproject)

[wnq-writers]

Just because you’ve seen my life, doesn’t mean you know. Those are simply snippets of who I am, the parts I’m willing to show.

darencolbert (via wnq-writers)

[larmoyante]

I want to explain how exhausted I am. Even in my dreams. How I wake up tired. How I’m being drowned by some kind of black wave.

Elizabeth Wurtzel, Prozac Nation (via larmoyante)

[thoughts-memories]

[scriptios]

And I still mourn the person I could’ve been; that gullible child that never grew quite right.

does anyone know where unrealized versions of yourself go once they’ve been killed? (✯)

[screenshotsofdespair]

[metadefumaca]

[summers-buffy]

anxiety: OK BUT WHAT IF -

me: homie we went over this like 100 times yesterday and we totally resolved it

anxiety: yeah but i’ve looked at it from a new angle and there’s like 20 more reasons why u should be worried about it

me:

me: …..go on

having an anxiety disorder is horrible because you’re always so agitated and worried and frightened and desperate for help but at the same time you know it’s all ridiculous and instead of telling anyone about it you just hide away in shame and get increasingly worse until you finally manage to compress yourself into a diamond of sheer terror

[crisxbellincioni]

“Have you met him before?” The boy questioned, sipping into his tea as he listened to the other boy, “Like, since you find out? How exactly did you even find out?”

[onlyaleksi-blog]

Aleksi shook his head, “Just the one time. We’re, um, we’re supposed to meet tomorrow and talk though.” he said carefully. “Um, well, we just ... we were talking, we introduced ourselves. He had the right name, and he looked like the one picture I had so ... I asked about his dad. I knew some, ah, some pretty distinctive information so ... I mean, he honestly thought it was some kind of prank at first, but ... yeah, it was kind of weird.”

[onlyaleksi-blog]

Text @ Brandon:

Aleksi: So, um ... that thing that the gossip blog wants us to do. How should we do that?

[missharmonyjones-blog]

“Oh wow, that is a lot to take in all at once.” Harmony replied, sending the boy a soft smile. She had no idea what she would do if she randomly ran into a sibling that she never expected to meet, or even a cousin or something. “It’s just a really small world, I guess.”

[onlyaleksi-blog]

Aleksi nodded, “Yeah, I guess it is. I mean, I’m glad that I did find him. I’ve wanted to since I was six. It’s just ... weird I guess. To think about trying to get to know a brother I’ve never met before now.”

[eleanxrmoody]

“I bring goodies!” she called out as she came through the doorway. The bags she was dragging behind her weighed her down, and as soon as she’d reached the table she dumped the bag down on the table, relieving the pressure off of her arms. “You would not believe the amount of stuff daddy got this year that he couldn’t actually have. You can thank his cholesterol and blood pressure for that”. As she spoke she began to rifle through the bags pulling out the various items. “Loads of wine and chocolates. Even some olive oil. I had some caviar, but the airport security guys took it off me. Apparently it was some rare, prohibited roe or something, I stopped listening” she shrugged, “anyway, pick what you like”

[onlyaleksi-blog]

“Oh, wow...” Aleksi said as she placed the bags on the table and began pulling objects out. “Really? I guess it makes sense, a little, I know there are some things you’re not supposed to bring on planes, and stuff like that.” he said carefully as he looked at everything she was setting out, “Are you sure?” he asked, wondering why she was offering this stuff to him. A lot of it looked expensive.