do i look like a trista to you?

Indie Piper Chapman from Orange Is The New Black. Mature/NSFW themes present. Blog is not spoiler free.

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onlythisme·:

        It’s difficult to do anything more than laugh at this point. It wasn’t often that Piper Chapman was lost for words but this was one of those rare moments. It just seemed so surreal and almost too good to be true. “Sarcasm has always been your go to. I would be sad if this place took that away from you.” Alex’s quips could be brutal but her wit was hard to match. Despite frequently being on the receiving end she still loved to watch such wit in action. However, she’s more than happy to get out of there before anyone finds her fire comment to be threatening and drag her back inside. 

 Piper is just as excited to get in the car as it was to get out. It means that she gets to take Alex away from this place and that this shithole would never be a part of their lives again. As she pulls away, Litchfield shrinks more and more in the rear view mirror until finally it’s view is blocked by the treeline. The drive feels nostalgic this time similar to when Cal had picked her up. Now she was doing the picking up with the love of her life in the passenger seat and nothing but a bright future ahead of them. Piper is quick to take Alex’s hand in hers and thread their fingers together. Such a small touch but still a luxury she hasn’t been able to enjoy in a long time.

        She’s focused on the road though steals quick glances at the other woman from time to time. Truthfully she’s having a hard time believing this is actually happening. There had been years to prepare for this but now that it was actually here she found herself at an impasse as if she’d had no time at all to think about it. “What?” The memory is a good one and yet simple. “Cal took me to dinner and then to Carol’s and when I got home I took an obscenely long bubble bath. She checked in at least twice to make sure I hadn’t fallen asleep.” Despite a tumultuous relationship with Carol, she had let Piper stay long enough to get a job and get back on her feet.

        “What’s the first thing you want to do?” Stopped at a red light, she looks over to Alex with a genuine smile and heart eyes as big as ever. It still didn’t feel real and she had to keep reminding herself that this was no dream or fantasy. This was now a reality and the beginning of the rest of their lives together. 

there’s no denying the feeling of pure joy that settles over alex the farther away they drive. it’s not lost on her that if she were doing this without piper it would be incomplete. it’s as if they’re putting all the misery of the last few years in the rearview together and getting another chance to write their future. she isn’t sure she believes in fate, but sitting with piper’s hand entwined in her own has ways of making her change her mind. as the other woman describes her experience of coming home, alex closes her eyes for just a second to picture it, a complacent smile tugging at the corners of her mouth. “ohh, with carol’s good bubbles? she really has come around.”

when the question is directed back to her, alex considers her words for a moment. that was a loaded question. she wanted to sleep for three days straight in a real bed. she wanted to drink an entire bottle of whiskey and watch the sun come up over manhattan. there were so many possibilities running through her mind, but she finally settles on one while the car is still stopped at the light. “this,” she offers, bringing her hand up and curling her fingers tenderly around piper’s jaw. leaning across the center console, she brings their lips together in another kiss – this one deeper, passionate, kissing piper the way she couldn’t in front of a crowd of curious eyes. every emotion is poured into it and she doesn’t stop until the car behind them honks. the light had turned green, and alex fights the urge to roll the window down and shoot the car behind them her middle finger for interrupting the moment.

settling back in her seat, she finally shrugs. “that was number one. number two is bribing you to buy me a big, juicy, artery clogging cheeseburger.” raising her hands for emphasis, alex sizes the burger in question out to about the size of her head. “that kinda went along with number one.”

[onlythisme]

        “I didn’t even have to ask if I could use them. She just... gave ‘em to me.” Carol had been surprisingly good to Piper after getting out. The biggest part was of course letting her stay there while she found her footing once more. It was a huge help and there hadn’t been that many quarrels either. The occasional snarky comment slipped out but it seemed more accidental than intentional most of the time. It was a welcome change. Not that her mother was now her favorite person, but she wasn’t classified as a raging bitch anymore. “Carol even asked about you. How you were whenever I would visit. It’s like she almost cared. It was incredible, Alex. I think she’s had a change of heart.”

        She’s eager for an answer and ready to take Alex out for her first night of freedom. It’s an unforgettable feeling and she wants to make this night a good one. Alex has always been full of surprises and the kiss is just another one as it takes Piper’s eyes off the road. There’s no objection to it at all. That same passion that has been dormant for years is shown as she returns the kiss, not wanting to break away but she has to as the honking grows louder. It doesn’t stop Piper from smiling endlessly at her as she finally starts to drive again.

        “You didn’t have to bribe me you know. I would have bought you dinner still. But that definitely helped you out.” She’s unable to keep from smiling before finally pulling into the parking lot of a brewery near her place. It’s somewhere she’s spent more nights than she would admit to but it’s a place of comfort now. “This place has really good food and pool tables. I might be able to beat you now.”

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onlythisme·:

        it’s a day that she’s been looking forward to for years. As fast as time seemed to fly, it also went by just as slow. The days when by especially slow when she first got out. Days turned into weeks. Weeks into months. Months into years. Adjusting to life outside of prison had been no easy task, but Piper had managed. A job, an apartment. It meant having her life back though there was still one essential piece that was missing before it would truly be perfect. That piece was Alex and today meant that her life would be whole again. Her girlfriend wife was about to be a part of her life once more and not in a talk-through-the-plexiglass type way. 

        In typical Piper fashion, she had arrived way too early. It was a move that did nothing more than send her already heightened anxiety through the roof. What was she supposed to say when she did see Alex? Was hi too casual? Would it make her seem mad? Would ‘I missed you’ come off as too clingy needy? Was a hug okay or would it be too overwhelming in the moment? These were all the questions rattling through her brain as it shot off a mile a minute. 

        Waiting in the car felt just as long as the four years she’d just endured but before she knew it, family and friends were lining up and elbowing past each other to greet the newly freed crowd. Piper is out of the car in an instant and eagerly (but politely) pushing her way through the clutter of bodies. To no avail, she’s easily out muscled despite explaining the fact that her wife is getting out and she needs to be right there at the front for her. The look she’s given is enough to make her back off to wait her turn. It doesn’t mean she stops looking though. On the tips of her toes she glances past bobbing heads until finally she gets a glimpse. Alex’s height plays to her advantage and she quietly states her name in disbelief. It doesn’t take long to find her voice as she calls out to her, waving her hand in the air. “Alex! Alex!”

        It takes everything in her not to run past past the cordoned off area and as soon as Alex is in the clear, she wraps her arms around her in a tight embrace. Emotions overwhelm and she hides her face in dark black locks of hair so she can properly take this moment in. To actually see her, to touch her, to feel her warmth is more than Piper can ask for. It’s all worth it now; nights spent alone, conversations through the glass, holidays and birthdays passing by with no one to celebrate with. As Alex pulls back, Piper finds all the nervousness fading away. It’s the most comfortable she’s been since getting out. Before she even responds, hands cup the other woman’s cheeks so that their lips can meet. Four years, Four years she’s waited to kiss her girl and she wasn’t going to wait any longer. “Glad to see you’re still you,” she mumbles out. She is though. it’s not meant as a dig in any way. 

blinking back warm tears, alex breathes out an incredulous laugh against piper’s lips. this day, this moment, this kiss feels like a dream and she doesn’t want to wake up. her hands are everywhere – fingers pushing through soft blonde hair, the backs of her knuckles stroking piper’s cheeks, taking advantage of every touch she’s been deprived of. it’s only then, as she gazes into her wife’s eyes, that she realizes what an idiot she was to think piper wouldn’t show. no, she doesn’t deserve this kindness, but today is the day she starts to make her amends real. “you’d think something was wrong if i didn’t hide my extremely fragile emotional state behind sarcasm.”

with one last kiss pressed to piper’s lips, alex gestures toward the car, anxious to get as far away from this fucking place as humanly possible. “let’s get out of here before i try to set this place on fire,” she says, a hint of amusement in her tone, but it’d be a lie to say she hadn’t seriously considered it.

once they’re in the car with piper behind the wheel, the weight of freedom finally hits her. she isn’t sure what convinces her brain that she’s no longer walking through a dream – the gates opening up to the highway that’ll carry them back to the city, or maybe the feeling of piper’s thigh beneath her hand as the other woman drives. all alex knows for sure is this is the happiest she’s ever been and there’s no fighting the smile that settles permanently in her features. the trauma from the last several years grows more distant with every mile and she’s determined to keep it that way.

squeezing piper’s thigh, alex turns her head from the window to study the other woman’s profile. in every possible way, piper is the most beautiful thing she’s ever seen. that’s always been true, but it’s as if she’s seeing her wife in a new light. they’re different now; a little older, wiser, maybe, and the thought isn’t lost on alex that they might not have found their way back to each other without the pain of the last few years. the only thing that would never change was how much she loved the other woman. “what’s the first thing you did when you got out?” alex finally asks once piper realizes she’s staring. “i don’t think i ever asked you.”

[onlythisme]

        It’s difficult to do anything more than laugh at this point. It wasn’t often that Piper Chapman was lost for words but this was one of those rare moments. It just seemed so surreal and almost too good to be true. “Sarcasm has always been your go to. I would be sad if this place took that away from you.” Alex’s quips could be brutal but her wit was hard to match. Despite frequently being on the receiving end she still loved to watch such wit in action. However, she’s more than happy to get out of there before anyone finds her fire comment to be threatening and drag her back inside. 

 Piper is just as excited to get in the car as it was to get out. It means that she gets to take Alex away from this place and that this shithole would never be a part of their lives again. As she pulls away, Litchfield shrinks more and more in the rear view mirror until finally it’s view is blocked by the treeline. The drive feels nostalgic this time similar to when Cal had picked her up. Now she was doing the picking up with the love of her life in the passenger seat and nothing but a bright future ahead of them. Piper is quick to take Alex’s hand in hers and thread their fingers together. Such a small touch but still a luxury she hasn’t been able to enjoy in a long time.

        She’s focused on the road though steals quick glances at the other woman from time to time. Truthfully she’s having a hard time believing this is actually happening. There had been years to prepare for this but now that it was actually here she found herself at an impasse as if she’d had no time at all to think about it. “What?” The memory is a good one and yet simple. “Cal took me to dinner and then to Carol’s and when I got home I took an obscenely long bubble bath. She checked in at least twice to make sure I hadn’t fallen asleep.” Despite a tumultuous relationship with Carol, she had let Piper stay long enough to get a job and get back on her feet.

        “What’s the first thing you want to do?” Stopped at a red light, she looks over to Alex with a genuine smile and heart eyes as big as ever. It still didn’t feel real and she had to keep reminding herself that this was no dream or fantasy. This was now a reality and the beginning of the rest of their lives together. 

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@onlythisme;

four years. four of the longest fucking years of her life and the nightmare was finally over. alex felt every minute of that time in her bones, weighing heavily on her soul, and the thought that freedom was so close was euphoric. it was almost surreal saying goodbye to the familiar faces who had become, in some demented way, like family. alex promised to write – to nichols, mostly, and both of them knew it was mostly a lie. she wasn’t giving this place a second thought once she was gone.

alex was running on pure adrenaline as she stood waiting to be processed, her hands shaking as she filled out her release paperwork. there was a part of her that was already second guessing this, as if someone were playing a practical joke on her, and the second she set foot outside of the building she would be placed in handcuffs and hauled back to her cell. the thought was almost enough to make her sick. “pipes,” she says quietly, quickly, a way to keep herself grounded and ward off the panic. “piper’s coming to pick me up. i’m going home with piper.” with a resolute nod, she quickly signs her name and moves to stand in line with the rest of the newly released.

sunshine is the first thing that hits her when the small group is led outside. her stomach is in knots and she’s reminded of the first time she was here, getting to go home. there’s a bitterness in that memory, the thought that she betrayed the love of her life for a small taste of freedom. it’s an overwhelming feeling and as her eyes scan the parking lot for the familiar blonde, her wife, alex begins to convince herself that she doesn’t deserve this. four years wasn’t nearly enough time to make amends for what she did, and she realizes she wouldn’t blame piper if she’d decided to just not show up today. she never deserved an ounce of the other woman’s kindness.

taking a few steps forward, alex’s head shoots up as she hears her name being called. the crowd thins just enough for her to spot piper lingering near a row of cars and it takes her breath away. for just a moment she stands staring, watching piper wave her over, her vows from four years ago echoing in her mind. my promise is to make it up to you every day. a smile pushes to her face and alex takes off, slowly at first before breaking into a run to close the distance between them. there’s no hiding the emotion in her eyes as she sinks into her wife’s waiting arms – years of only being able to stare at piper through thick glass, never touching, have built to this and any reserve alex thought she might have evaporates instantly. “hey,” she says finally, quietly, reluctantly pulling back enough to meet piper’s eyes. “how much gas money do i owe you?”

[onlythisme]

        it’s a day that she’s been looking forward to for years. As fast as time seemed to fly, it also went by just as slow. The days when by especially slow when she first got out. Days turned into weeks. Weeks into months. Months into years. Adjusting to life outside of prison had been no easy task, but Piper had managed. A job, an apartment. It meant having her life back though there was still one essential piece that was missing before it would truly be perfect. That piece was Alex and today meant that her life would be whole again. Her girlfriend wife was about to be a part of her life once more and not in a talk-through-the-plexiglass type way. 

        In typical Piper fashion, she had arrived way too early. It was a move that did nothing more than send her already heightened anxiety through the roof. What was she supposed to say when she did see Alex? Was hi too casual? Would it make her seem mad? Would ‘I missed you’ come off as too clingy needy? Was a hug okay or would it be too overwhelming in the moment? These were all the questions rattling through her brain as it shot off a mile a minute. 

        Waiting in the car felt just as long as the four years she’d just endured but before she knew it, family and friends were lining up and elbowing past each other to greet the newly freed crowd. Piper is out of the car in an instant and eagerly (but politely) pushing her way through the clutter of bodies. To no avail, she’s easily out muscled despite explaining the fact that her wife is getting out and she needs to be right there at the front for her. The look she’s given is enough to make her back off to wait her turn. It doesn’t mean she stops looking though. On the tips of her toes she glances past bobbing heads until finally she gets a glimpse. Alex’s height plays to her advantage and she quietly states her name in disbelief. It doesn’t take long to find her voice as she calls out to her, waving her hand in the air. “Alex! Alex!”

        It takes everything in her not to run past past the cordoned off area and as soon as Alex is in the clear, she wraps her arms around her in a tight embrace. Emotions overwhelm and she hides her face in dark black locks of hair so she can properly take this moment in. To actually see her, to touch her, to feel her warmth is more than Piper can ask for. It’s all worth it now; nights spent alone, conversations through the glass, holidays and birthdays passing by with no one to celebrate with. As Alex pulls back, Piper finds all the nervousness fading away. It’s the most comfortable she’s been since getting out. Before she even responds, hands cup the other woman’s cheeks so that their lips can meet. Four years, Four years she’s waited to kiss her girl and she wasn’t going to wait any longer. “Glad to see you’re still you,” she mumbles out. She is though. it’s not meant as a dig in any way. 

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onlythisme·:

          “Accidentally. Accidentally the leader. I didn’t mean to start a gang war. I was just … protecting my business venture.” At this point she’s not even capable of believing the bullshit she’s spewing, but it’s still a sore spot. There’s a certain defensiveness to her tone and it also shows in the dirty look she shoots in her direction. Blue hues narrow before opening back up as the tension eases away. “I wouldn’t say I lost it. Just strayed off the path a little bit.”

alex closes her eyes and quickly nods in mock agreement, as if piper’s justification made complete sense. “– of selling dirty panties to men for the low, low price of there is something seriously wrong with you.” she can’t help the amusement in her voice and the more defensive the blonde seemed to get, the more hilarious she found it. “you do have an unrefined talent for getting into some fucked up situations. you deserve credit for that.” pursing her lips, alex reaches up to tuck a strand of blonde hair behind piper’s ear. “and, hey, there’s something else to put on the ol’ resume. young entrepreneurs are all the rage.”

[onlythisme]

        Before Piper can shrug it all off, she finds herself shooting a glance in Alex’s direction once more. “Alright, I get it. It was weird. Selling dirty panties to perverts isn’t exactly acceptable on a moral or ethical level, but I was doing what I could to set myself up for the future. A future that you were a part of. So you’re welcome.” Her words were dripping with an obvious sarcasm and what could have been interpreted as a displeased expression now became a soft one. There was a hint of a smile and she turns her head to the side so that Alex’s hand can graze her cheek. It’s a simple move but one of her favorite things in the world.”But would you still love me if I weren’t getting myself into humiliating situations? I wouldn’t be the same window branded, panty selling, gang leading Piper that you know. I already have quite the resume, don't I?”

[onlythisme]

  “-- and she hadn’t done any of those things. But now I realize ... there isn’t another me.                                    There’s only this me.              And I don’t know what the fuck to do with that.”

Indie Piper Chapman. Mature themes present. Formerly trxstnobitch. 

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@onlythisme sent;         “All work and no play never made me lose it.”

“you started a gang war, pipes. you were literally the leader of a white supremacist movement.” the words come out in an incredulous huff, a bemused smirk tugging at the corners of alex’s mouth. “i know it’s been a rough year, but that’s the definition of losing it.”

[onlythisme]

          “Accidentally. Accidentally the leader. I didn’t mean to start a gang war. I was just ... protecting my business venture.” At this point she’s not even capable of believing the bullshit she’s spewing, but it’s still a sore spot. There’s a certain defensiveness to her tone and it also shows in the dirty look she shoots in her direction. Blue hues narrow before opening back up as the tension eases away. “I wouldn’t say I lost it. Just strayed off the path a little bit.”

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