Just Want To Have The Control

Just me, my ed and I 1,70cm - Gw1:70 - Gw2:60 - Ugw:50 ACTIVE MAR 2022, Italy, 18

[oohsorrykaren]

⚠️TW: ED THINGS⚠️

If you r in recovery, if you are looking for an ED, if you just want to lose a few pounds, PLEASE block me, don't stay in this part of tumblr. In my account there are sick thoughts of a ill girl, don’t come to this dark universe.

Please, I’m not pro anything, I just use Tumblr as my diary,it’s just my safe space. If you don’t like it block me but don’t report.

Stay safe💓

[oohsorrykaren]

It’s so easy to not eat while studying…I’ll be good at school from now I guess😀

[oohsorrykaren]

Hi, back to shit

[oohsorrykaren]

Sometimes I stop to think and I realize that I feel guilty for having eaten pickled gherkins instead of fasting when months ago I ate non-stop whatever happened to me, cmon bitch be proud of yourself.

[whitelacebunny]

me as a kid: when i live alone i will be able to buy all the sweets and snacks i want!

me now: if i lived alone i might not buy food

[oohsorrykaren]

THIS

[oohsorrykaren]

ok, today's limit is 750kcal, and tonight I have to eat pizza with my girlfriend. I'll have to fast until then, wish me luck🤞🏻

[oohsorrykaren]

@sertaline This is the recipe, I haven’t enough space in the comment section💓💓

I heated a pan and put a teaspoon of oil in it (if you have a non-stick pan it's better so you can avoid the oil), then I poured in it a mixture of frozen cut vegetables that I got at the supermarket, it takes just a few minutes to get ready, then turn off the heat and add a sprinkling of curry.

In the meantime, I boiled some water and then put my portion of noodles in it (these are egg noodles), even for these 3 minutes are enough and I then drained them. I combined the noodles with the vegetables and I added 15ml of soy sauce, I tossed another minute in the pan and that's it!

[oohsorrykaren]

213 kcal🥳🥳

[oohsorrykaren]

DAILY LIMIT: 850

BREAKFAST: skipped

LUNCH: 387kcal

3 rice cakes, 100gr ham, 80gr steamed lentils, 57gr little tomatoes, 5gr onion, 22gr cream cheese light

DINNER: 322kcal

oil 10ml, salad around 100gr, cod around 300gr

TOTAL: 709 of 850

[oohsorrykaren]

I just finished my tracker for this month, hope you like it or inspire yours☺️☺️☺️

[oohsorrykaren]

I haven't touched the scale for months now .. I'm terrified of knowing my weight but I know that to give me a push I need to weigh myself. In a few days I should have my period tho and many say that this adds kg, what I’m supposed 2do?

[oohsorrykaren]

K I checked the nutritionist's files and surprise surprise I reached the heaviest weight of my life, at the moment I should be around 78 kilos. I don't know how to react to all this.

[oohsorrykaren]

I haven't touched the scale for months now .. I'm terrified of knowing my weight but I know that to give me a push I need to weigh myself. In a few days I should have my period tho and many say that this adds kg, what I’m supposed 2do?

[oohsorrykaren]

Not me staying under 300kcal daily past year😿

[oohsorrykaren]

Oh..

[oohsorrykaren]

Don’t you want to?

[oohsorrykaren]

Goal: living alone with no food at all at home so that you have nothing to binge on🥰😍

[oohsorrykaren]

The urge to get away from all the people who make me happy and distract me from my ed ​​to focus on my disorders👍