My transmasculine experience is a bit controversial, I don't share it off anon.. but, I was AMAB. I am intersex, and have always been viewed femininely for a boy.. I have boobs and curves, I pass as a woman and I don't want to. I don't want femininity forced onto me, but it has been by my puberty and even by the world around me. I've shared pictures of my body online and even had people tell me to just "give up and be a woman at that point". The only support I get from cis people is pity, and only if I try to call my intersex variation a disease in need of a cure.. but I don't think it's a disease. I just wish I looked more masculine, (but testosterone would have little effect on me, so I don't even bother). I hope someone like me would be welcomed into the transmasc community, despite not being ftm.. I don't want to be a failed cis man. Being transmasculine but not ftm is the only way I've found I can take pride in myself. I generally don't share my AGAB or my intersexuality with other trans people because I'm afraid of being excluded from my only community for being "a cis man pretending to be trans", I don't want people to think that of me.
your experience is so similar to mine and other transmascs, as well as the experiences of other intersex people i’ve heard from, and honestly i can think of no real reason you shouldn’t be welcomed here
As someone on the edge of the trans masc community, who's relation to transmasculinity is "i mean sort of? I guess? Idk man, but I fit in this community best", I can tell you the trans masc community (or at least, how i experience it) would ABSOLUTELY accept you. You aren't a cis man pretending to be trans, if you want to identify as trans masc then that's absolutely okay. Do what makes you feel comfortable and confident in yourself, and we will welcome you with open arms.
You're absolutely welcome here 💜
I was literally just thinking about how this kind of experience needs more representation, and how people's perception of the trans experience needs to include more than just mtf and ftm contexts. Thank you for sharing this, I know this probably means a lot for some folks to see it.

















