Koda's Life

My Name is Kodaina Ari, and welcome to little bits and pieces of my life. Moments of weakness, and things I don't understand. Also art and stuff, who knows, you might get to see my drawings.

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Oops.

Everythings starting to make sense now. 

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Why I cleared the bowl..

Every second of every minute, of every hour of every day.. I realize that they're nothing more than another mistake. Yet.. day after day I sit here and I wonder... How can I end this day of all days in that way? So I ask the voices, and they say.. No, not today of all days.. You must persevere a little while longer. So here I sit today, looking at the rain whilst I pray. Wondering when the day I die will deliver itself here.. Because it's cold grasp continues to grow fonder and fonder. Its' almost too bad I don't have a beer, That'd almost make today seem worthy of cheer. However, today is nothing but a day caked in fear. And once again, it's nobodies fault by my own.. Don't you think so, my dear? I guess what I'm trying to say is that.. No matter how much life knocks me down.. I'll always smile and tip my hat. Because only a coward gives up with a frown. I've got my own struggle down pat. It's easy to make your problems drown, All you have to do is cover them with lies. Followed up by cutting all of your ties. Eventually you'll be empty inside.

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My bacon is extra crispy and my eggs are full groan, but I only have one plate, 'cause I'm all fucking alone.

IMVU - Oizyss

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Concern

I don’t know why, no..I do know why...  but I don’t want to know... but everything is extremely heavy. I honestly don’t feel myself breathing at all, its like i’m taking small pufffs ion and out and I don’t know what to do about it. I’m panicking. 

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Spider-Man 2 (2004)

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This is teh most beautiful thing I’ve ever seen

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Impulse

Never tell someone you don’t care, even on impulse. If you don’t care, that’s fine and dandy, but you need to know that pretending you care, and marking the issue down so you don’t forget it, can actually save a relationship... it can save anyone. 

However, telling them that you don’t care, will completely destroy whatever you have between you all. Why? If you don’t care about this, why would you care about that? It’s related to them, and you should care about them... so telling them you don’t care about something that has to do with them, will eat them away, regardless of how minute it is. 

I keep making this mistake, and now I’m single. I’ll probably stay single, because when shit happens, the ones I love will remember me saying, “It’s irrelevant,” or “I don’t care about that,” and not come to me to tend to their wounds, because they believe I won’t care and I won’t try to care. 

I can’t blame them, just... don’t make the same mistake as me. Otherwise you’re going to have to make a choice, that will make them happy as all fuck, but completely and utterly crush you. 

Or the choice will be made for you and hurt you both.