operation:B.I.O.

I've recently been diagnosed with PCOS and this is our journey to operation bun in the oven.

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Well, we had an IUI on June 15th and now we have 3 healthy little babies!

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Fertility 101: loss/miscarriage

Fertility 101:

Finding the silver lining after having a loss is realizing that my body is at least capable of getting pregnant long enough for a positive home tests and hcg tests. Doesn't make it hurt any less. But I've been so transparent with you all thus far. And the idea of miscarriages are always so hush. To those still following and on the journey as well, stay positive, get all the cuddles you can, grieve, be angry. Do it all. But at the end of the experience, take the blessing, the pain and the heartbreak and have faith that your body is not an enemy. It's setting the stage, making sure everything is perfect for your perfect little baby.

So to everyone who got my wrath, my blah or my laziness, please tolerate me--I'm grieving. I don't feel right asking for forgiveness as though what I'm experiencing is wrong. But I can ask that you all continue to tolerate me and to continue being there for us when we need you the most. .

Also, if you didn't get a Christmas gift from us it's because I couldn't get out of the bed let alone out of the house to do shopping.

To family who is reading this, please read this and don't feel the need to call and apologize, it just rallies the tears. I'm ok.

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I'm getting a miscarriage for Christmas.

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Forcing your patients to wait over 24hrs for results should not be allowed. Especially when they are told that they would receive a call in the morning.

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So, we made the official plunge back into treatment. I started with a new doctor though. Why? Well honestly I am tied of betting told I'm too fat and for being told that I can't track clomid---even though they're is no clear reason why I cannot.

Thus, here I am. My ovaries look good, my lining is garbage tho so they started me back on metformin (1 pill a day though) and I'll take clomid on the 3rd day of my next period.

This new doctor seems straight forward and I'm honestly hopeful this will all work. I'll be posting as we go. And it sounds like we will be trying iui's one more round. Here goes nothing.

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We are a bit past the tww but with no period and no positive test results I feel like I'm in limbo. My breasts are tender and I have lower back pain, but I tend to get those symptoms with my period now and days. So I'll wait another 3 days and then test. If I still get a negative and no period I'll head into the clinic to see what's going on. In the meantime, enjoy this lovely photo from out 3yr anniversary photoshoot.

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So we are on vacation with my sister and her 3 kiddos. My ovaries are on high alert. Just kidding. But I would like to say that I have made it through my first week of the tww with minimum stress. I will take a pregnancy test Monday (4-5) days from now when we get back. I honestly have no idea what the results might be. I'm not too stressed so that feels like a good thing. I'm focused on keeping my stress level down and my thoughts light and positive. Here's to a weekend with the family!

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Looks like Wednesday was the surge day! I'm drinking a ton more water and going on walks. I'm praying earnestly for answers and for a baby. Let's hope God heard me and feels inclined to bless us with a healthy baby.

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"I want a little romance"

Needless to say, the ovulation test seems to show today as our LH surge so I planned accordingly. What's that mean?

Random kind of cute star wars panties- ☑️

Pink lace bra ☑️

Kind of bloated belly from curry ☑️

Awkward attempt at dancing for the hubs ☑️

What more can the man ask for? Lol that was our night.

LH surge is high

We baby danced with added pre-seed. We will baby dance again Wednesday and test in two weeks. Either I start my period or I don't. Fingers crossed

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Well, you know what this means. Here we go! I'm guessing tomorrow will be the most fertile day so we will be baby dancing with the addition of pre-seed. I'll keep you updated

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Are we still trying?

Talk about a hiatus! Well we are back in the saddle after taking a year off from trying. I will be working on shedding a few pounds in time for an August ivf attempt. Also, I'm excited to tell y'all that we are going to try acupuncture within the month. I'll let y'all know how that goes. I'll update more tonight as I'm currently dying from hunger.

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Happy New Year

Well we are well into the month of January now so i suppose my hiatus must come to an end. I owe you all an update. November We are only taking metformin, vitamin D ascend Ovasitol to keep my system regular. As of now we are waiting to speak with the doctor in December to discuss ivf. My stress levels are way down and I'm really finally just enjoying being married to and amazing man. December The hubs and I schedule the appointment with our RE and I'm excited because in the 2 years of this journey he was off and able to meet the RE. He is able to go to all other appointments with me because we schedule those ones on Fridays. Anyhow, we do bloodwork and discuss my habit with MC and we all agree that me losing at least 17lbs would better the odds of a successful transfer. The next appointment is in mid February. Then we will see what my levels are and go from there. January I'm down 3 pounds and still trying to knock off 10 by February. If I lost more by then it'd be a dream. I am calling soon to double check whether or not our insurance will cover the recommended genetics testing. Sn: how cool is it that with genetics testing they will already know whether our little birdie will be a boy or girl!?

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Fertility Struggles 101: feeling sad

Fertility Struggles 101: I get upset when ppl try to tell me to "not get depressed" because we haven't been successful. I can trust in God's plan for us and still be sad. I get so sad some days it cripples me. All I want to do is lay in bed, cry, pray and sleep. This has had a direct effect on my school, church and social life. Because, sometimes, being around babies, pregnant couples and such....feels too sad. #iprayforstrenghthandwisdomtotrustHim

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Fertility Struggles 101: cuddles.

Fertility Struggles 101: sometimes I want cuddles...but at the exact same time I want cuddles from a distance.

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Fertility Struggles 101: out

Fertility Struggles 101: although we didn't make it this month my heart and faith remain strong. I've got a great support system and I have my faith. I want to say thank you to everyone who prays for us and keeps us in their thoughts. We are moving forward with ivf, Pat will need all the strength he can as I become a raging ball of hormones. PS. I will be sad and mad at any given time. #thisNoisntforever #theLordismakingsomeoneGREAT

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Today i tested negative after our 4th attempt (medicated no iui or ivf). I told my husband early in the morning and I couldn't look him in the eyes. My heart hurt. We had a perfect follicle and lining...just didn't take. I'm confused as to why it wouldn't work. The saddest part was my husband. He held me to his chest and just loved me. He tried to stay positive but I felt the tears in his beard. I love this man more than life. We thought this was our month, God has his own plans. Next step, waiting on AF and then IVF

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Fertility Struggles 101: never test early

Fertility Struggles 101: today I repeatedly said "I will not test today" Then I tested.