[opheliaxyx]

I had a dream last night where u acted like the old version of you and I felt so calm and happy but then I woke up and started crying cause that was just a dream and u are not the same person u used to be.

[opheliaxyx]

love is a true poison

[opheliaxyx]

It’s just awful that we used to be happy kids. We weren’t worrying about anything. We used to think that love is magic and no one can hurt you. Even if we were crying, it was always getting better. Now we are wondering if we are enough, we are breaking each other’s hearts. We are crying in the middle of the night. And nothing can fix that.

~opheliaxyx

[opheliaxyx]

I’m tired of pretending that I’m fine. I’m tired of people saying „I won’t hurt you” and all lies, I want to close my eyes and wake up when bad days are over.

~opheliaxyx

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[opheliaxyx]

I don’t even know what’s wrong. I’m trying to make other people happy , I’m always there for people I love but no one really can notice that. It’s like giving the part of you to other people beceause you know how it is to feel like shit and you want to make them happy but who cares? Nobody cares. Trying to give hope to others but who can give it to you? Have you ever heard „Thanks for being there for me. You are enough, you are amazing the way you are” ? If yes, well...I wish I could hear that at least once. Come on, the only one thing I need in my fucking life is to live with this feeling in my heart that I do matter. That someone there cares and thinks of me.

[opheliaxyx]

What should I do to make you see that I’m kinda dying inside?

But wait, you don’t care.

[opheliaxyx]

When I’ve met you I had been already broken. I never thought that you are gonna change so much. You were so interested in me, I can easily remember the way you looked at me. I swear to God, I’ve lost my mind like I’ve never done before. When you were giving me a hug all my broken pieces were repaired and I felt happiness every single day. We were laughing, telling each other about our feelings. Suddenly things have changed. I guess you just saw me the way I see myself and you lost interest in me. Now I’m broken even though you’ve promised you would never hurt me. I feel like I’m not good enough, not funny enough, not skinny enough. I wish I was better, I wish I was good enough for you to stay.

[opheliaxyx]

It’s fucked up when you give someone your whole heart which is already broken and they broke it again even though they promised they would never do that.

[opheliaxyx]

I have to leave you. But I will never forget the way you made me feel. I will never forget this feeling when you hugged me - It felt like I was holding my whole world and happiness in my arms. I will never forget your beautiful laugh and eyes in which I could look every single minute. You made me feel special and important, I was loved by you. I wish I could never feel this pain which I feel now so fucking much. It’s too difficult to look at you the way I should look at normal person. I just love our memories, the way you treated me. I love our story. But not every story has to end well.

[opheliaxyx]

Dear me,

I want to apologise for my behaviour. I’m sorry for everything I’ve ever done , said and thought.

I’m very sorry for hurting you in different ways. I’m sorry for trying to pretend that you are okay when you weren’t okay and happy at all.

Sorry for making you feel bad, ugly and fat. I wish I could tell you that you are worth something and you mean a lot but ... but I’ve never done it. I’ve never tried to convince you that you deserve much more.

[opheliaxyx]

True

[opheliaxyx]

[opheliaxyx]

Go .

[opheliaxyx]

Little do you know ...

[opheliaxyx]

Mood

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