So an update to my followers
I still want to use every single day most of the day... But I have now graduated from college, moved to the DMV area and found a decent paying job. I am very much alive, I still miss @sweet-despondencyevery single second of every day but I promise it's possible to succeed even with an addiction... I am living proof. Not trying to say it get's easier but you learn how to deal with it and manage it... Also I have distanced myself from anyone I know that can access it... That's my solution. Am I happy? No not really. Am I where I need to be? Far from. Am I making progress? Who the fuck actually even knows.... But i'm attempting to do this for as long as I possibly can until I either succeed and start thinking about drugs less or fail and go back to using... I have never felt so alone and am in a city completely alone. I don't miss my hometown at all but I do wish I had someone I could just lay with and share my thoughts with even in a platonic way but all the girls i've interacted with recently have either just wanted to fuck or have standards that will never be met... idk who the fuck knows... i'm just trying to make it.
Also, fuck you Tumblr for banning the nodsquad page... Tumblr would actively allow hundreds of thousands of people to die each year rather than be educated and have Narcan by their side. But I can't fight with a company that has millions of dollars and is actively making money off of my posts because of the amount of followers I have. So yeah fuck them, fuck them in the ass for monetizing my ideas yet not allowing access to save lives. You fuckers will all burn in hell. And if hell doesn't exist, which idk if it does your life will have negative effects and you will die alone in pain. I'm so exhausted and tired of fighting with these people. Just continue letting people die. That's definitely an educated way of dealing with a problem that is literally killing cities of people every year.
