Howdy

My name's Elijah I'm new here

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I'm Elijah I'm 19 I am gay on here sometimes just a bit and I like to whisper very quietly into the void

I'm not cool enough to keep nsft stuff on a separate blog so proceed with caution

Feel free to say hi :)

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Doodly gay

We'll see if I come back to finish this one

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Time to replay The Stanley Parable :]

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I immediately on my first run fucked up and the narrator won't talk to me anymore

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Time to replay The Stanley Parable :]

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I feel like I've given myself some level of internalized transphobia by trying to pass and be stealth. It works most of the time but I feel on guard often and my internal reaction to people who don't have that as a goal has gotten shittier. Idk, a lot of it is defensive but it's fucking with me regardless. Trying to blend in with shitty cis men isn't helping :/

I hate feeling like I'm excluded from certain cis dude groups (because I have a secret or they wouldn't like me if I didn't pass or I don't have shared experiences) but queer people don't automatically welcome or interact with me either

At college I was in class with a very fem trans guy and it was odd to see friends of mine slip up with pronouns or say he was "too woke" or whatever while they were completely normal around me (just because I got lucky! I'm tall and I've been "mistaken" for a man for years)

Feeling like I'm in some way better because I got lucky for my goals is shitty

And it's not like it stops the dysphoria, if anything I overanalyze more than ever before

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Trans tape my beloved (especially under a binder)

(Belly/chest a little)

[bring-me-back-a-dog]

I'm going to the store what y'all want

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You all have the same sugary braincell.

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Picnic but we all just sit around and eat sweets 🥺

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My masculine energy is so strong that I got he/himed by a teenage boy while shirtless (in a sports bra)

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I cross stitched this a while ago but I sold it so I'm about to make another one

Happy pride :)

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Not enough fat drunken dad figures in the fauxc35t space.

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My application for this role

Substance problem ✅

Prefers to be shirtless / Wears wife beaters ✅

Emotionally distant but not uncaring ✅

Fauxc35t Pervert ✅

Has an unwarranted ego ✅

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You're hired

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Why is my post nut clarity so existential

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Which of you fuckers can I stab (in a sex way or otherwise)

[choked-up]

for someone who’s really sensitive, I sure do have a lot of violent sexual fantasies huh

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Most of my local kink stuff seems to be 21+ (fair enough but :/) and is just intimidating without knowing where to start. We will see I guess

[autisticjonathanjoestar]

bouncing on it in repentance

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crying and begging for forgiveness on it

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I'm trying to draw bondage and it's fun but hardd

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I made a new profile picture

I don't love it but it's cool