I don't post a lot on here these days but maybe I ought to! I think I mostly just feel like ✨️Studyblr✨️ has aesthetics that are Not For Me. Like not in a taste way. I love the aesthetics of Studyblr™️
However: I am going to school with a laptop from 2015 which won't update any software. It also visibly looks like it's from 2015. And I take notes in v scribbly ways on actual paper and sometimes the whole thing is in red pen and it's not legible to anyone but me. I just write down what I don't already know. (Depending on the class there may not be much to that.) I'm disabled and taking like 2 classes rn. I'm on welfare because my student loans defaulted when I was homeless at 19 and 20 and my phone contract went out and I didn't want to be alive. I pay tuition and go to school with mutual aid, abuse reparations, and fumes. Sheer force of will and cultivation of a good social ecosystem of activists I organize with.
I am a student because I want to be. Because it is a place where everyone in my classes talks about homelessness and welfare and childhood poverty and abuse and SA and transness and disability as some theoretical thing that lives on the streets outside of the classroom, outside of sight. Because when I raise my hand and tell people I live in this space, people have started listening to me in ways that I haven't experienced before outside of like. Protest speeches. And also once when I was doing standup comedy. But I also am finding more of this sense of being heard in other aspects of my life because of the labour of activism I've been doing. organizing the anarchist bookfair and other stuff. I also intend to start @welfarehistoryproject as a more formal thing eventually but I keep kicking cans of project ideas down the road.
anyway. I don't know what to do with this blog. I made it in my early 20s IIRC and don't know what I intended from it other than to be in this space of romanticizing learning.
I don't believe that academia is the only way to learn. I don't have respect for it as an institution. I don't have respect for institutions broadly to be frank though. school has been my enemy, my abuser, my rival, and now it is just an interface to me, a series of keys that lets me behind paywalls.
also sometimes I get free t-shirt. wack how much free shit you get as a student but I guess it's not that free considering tuition is a punch in the gut but still !
idk where I'm going with this but here's what I Might post here in future in terms of the more original content type stuff (the stuff that's already on this blog is reflective of what I will be reblogging still)
I tell you about the schoolwork I am doing and my progress for accountability purposes
I share quotes from my readings and stuff
generally I may talk about school topics but unsure what precisely.
maybe some study set up posts
possibly talking about writing?
I am constantly learning a little bit of a lot of languages (mainly Greek and French and ASL right now) so I may talk about that stuff but less likely.
I may also talk about organizing (the activism type). I'm not going to tell you about groups I'm in or whatever but I can talk about resources and pass along advice and frameworks that have helped me.
I also am polyamorous and I have BPD (borderline) and there is a lot I have learned from both of those things being part of my experience. I feel like it would be received weird if I posted about either of those things here, but I would talk about it if people wanted that.
I'm also happy to talk about navigating welfare systems and how to do that. I think there's lots of blogs that teach you about resumes and shit, so I'm happy to help with the underclass equivalent
?? feel free to request I talk about anything
I intend to make a biographic pinned post eventually that is concise and edited but here is some stream of consciousness.
Also I blog normally from @vagaybond