I'm totally not active here, I have no followers (not really BUT I know only 'you' would read this because only 'you' follow me here) (if you're still active here, idk)
I just want to say, I wonder if people would search for me if I go missing from social media. The answer is NO. I'm kinda 'disappointed' that even my cousin didn't even ask me what's wrong. Do I sound like talking behind my friends' backs now? If I do, then pursue. I'm just too selfish and corrupted for them. I don't deserve them. Just simply because my specific pet peeve is 'getting ignored'. I feel dead among my friends. I'm simply saying that I'm their 'friend'. Maybe because they're introverts like who doesn't know what to talk......
I had a habit of getting SUPER JEALOUS of people's friendship out there and HOW THE FUCK YOU GUYS COULD MAKE FRIENDS SO EASILY ON THE INTERNET?!!
I'm too pissed off right now just because of myself.....
Yeah, actually I can get move on easily from this feeling because I don't like negative feelings. That's why even though no matter how pissed off I am on any situation, my mood can better few minutes after; which I can't do now. If not, I'll ignore my own desires again; which I always am, because I don't want to break ties with anyone. Tha's my biggest fear; BREAKING TIES WITH ANYONE. Because I've been through this several; all end up with bad endings....

















