simple in the moonlight

hello. i'm Adrielle. you can call me Nikki.

[runwayandbeauty]

[otrera]

Lol night as well deactivate now

[otrera]

Lol You ever wonder why ur headphones sound quiet and then u realize they weren’t plugged in all the way and now ur embarrassed

[otrera]

This week has been so difficult.

On Monday, i failed my exit exam by 12 points.

Later that day I received one of the worst phone calls. My youth group minister had suddenly passed away. This woman had the purest heart and really helped guide my journey of faith and helped me strive to become a better person. Even though she was dealing with so many things herself, she always was spreading positive energy onto others. She has made such an impact on my life. I feel like all of this happening rn just can't be real.

Today I got back from seeing my youth group family after clinical. I went home and saw that my lil pet turtle had passed away.

What I really want to do rn is to be positive and try to have a Lil bit of motivation in me rn to do so, but with everything happening right now, It’s so difficult to do so.

I have an amazing support group and really amazing friends, but right now, I don't know how to feel and I don't know what to do to make it better. I really want to have the same energy and positivity as she did, but I just don't know how to cope.

[arpeggia]

Saida Valenzuela - Echoes

“Microcosms composed of millions of crystalline particles; unique and unrepeatable designs as if they were from another planet; scenes in varied colors and shapes that remind us of the sea, the desert, the marshes or the earth. The result is authentic pieces of art naturally created without human intervention that show us once again nature is and always be the best artist.“

See more Saida Valenzuela posts here.

[arpeggia]

Agnieszka Lepka - Human vs Nature

[zechs]

[arpeggia]

Stephen GIll - Hackney Flowers, 2004-2007

[fuckhardandcum-deactivated20190]

Eat her out and don’t expect anything in return

[tokijin-deactivated20170926]

[jizelpink]

oh my god

[nipsndnaps-deactivated20170717]

They’re running

[otrera]

It's been 6 years since I've self harmed. Boy have I come a long way

[queridasputnik]

Leve

[otrera]

lol I'm doing a pageant for school next week

[otrera]

Over the past couple of years I've really built up my confidence. I've gotten to a point where I am aware of what I'm capable of and more, but it's times like these where I kind of hate myself for getting involved in something I knew was not worth my time. All I can do now is keep moving along and working towards my own goals so I can accomplish what I want in my life.

[otrera]

I haven't posted a personal thing in a while, and I'm not sure which of my followers are still active lol. I'd insert a "read more" here but idk how to do that from my phone and idk if that's still a thing. I'm the kind of person with a gentle heart. I have a problem saying "no" to people. Recently I let myself get involved with someone that I shouldn't have. But since I have a hard time saying no, I let myself go ahead with it and established some kind of mutual exclusive fwb with it. The entire time I tried not to have feelings for this individual, and I didn't. I did not see anything special in this person, but I was more physically attracted to them. When I first started actually spending time with the person at school, I felt as if they were using me for what I had in terms of my apartment and what not. Idk where I'm tryna get with this post, but I'm at the point where I'm done letting myself get involved with people I shouldn't be giving the chance to. I know I'm an intelligent, dedicated individual who is striving to change the world in a small way. I just feel used and disrespected and I can't help but be completely upset and disappointed with myself because I should have known this was going to happen. Currently trying not to cry because this person is not worth my tears but I kind of hate myself at the moment.

[otrera]

I feel lost and unfocused

[otrera]

Reflection.

Every year I make a reflection post. Here is this years! 2016 started off pretty low for me. I felt like a complete disappointment to my parents. However, my dad told me that it's not bad experiences that define us, but how we bring ourselves up from them. So throughout 2016 I kept that in the back of my mind. 2016 was the year I found myself to be the most confident that I have been in a while. It was the year where I found myself motivating myself and others to be the best they could be. I just hope for 2017, I keep on growing, continue to put all of my efforts into everything I do, and just radiate positive energy onto others