So for the past 6 months or so I've reached what I'd say is one of my lowest points, unsure of what the next days gonna bring me.. hurt people I'd never thought I would, lost some due to me not helping myself, seeming like everything's fine outside smiling and giving the common as fuck "I'm fine" when I'm fucking screaming internally.. Honesty I've been scared about being almost 23 and not knowing the next step to take. But who the fuck does really? I'm comfortable not understanding myself 100% yet cause I've still got a lot to find out. You'll reach a point where you really gotta stop saying all this shit you're "gonna do" and step up to the fuckin plate. So here's me. Changing my mindset of talking about it to doing it. I might lose some from the choices I need to make and I might not who knows I sure as shit don't lol. I've been doing a lot of reflecting on what I want, I'm not gonna have that life I want sitting here smoking dazers and watching YouTube videos all day. Naw I respect that for me to score big I gotta aim big, work that 8:30-5 shift and not bitch and moan about it.. So I guess what I'm saying is I don't wanna look back on a life of regret and what could've been, when I can shoot for a life that I make from my own drive and success, surrounded with the people who hold me up when I'm at a low point and I'll always be there to return the favor. I'm gonna fight for what I love, and love what I'm fighting for. Some might call Bullshit on this post and that's fine but you can't bash me for trying what others are too scared to do for themselves. My friends and family are my strengths to me they're one in the same and with the people I've met in these 22 years I couldn't ask for a better family to have, so thanks for everything I guess and it's about time I returned the favor :) #pma #change #NoWorries