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Some More Things Most Don't See.

Some More Things Most Don’t See.

Somedays I Forget The Purpose Of This Site

Somedays I forget the purpose of this site and blog is to show what it is we deal with and today it seems a lot since for as much as I appear to be on time I am so far behind its nuts, and what else you ask well let’s start with the memory I seem to not have more and more that generally only appears in lives when I get on a good chat and then…

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The Day We Knew Was Coming. Well today our holidays ended so to speak because for the last over a week Michelle has been home pretty much full time other then a few outings and today seen her head back to work, now for some this is no big deal and others would be relieved me I am about as confused as could be and to the point I almost asked out loud to the empty house what strain we would be utilizing for the day which has been routine for the last week which really freaked me out since routine change is a bitch and would explain why I am smoking like I have and never ending supply which we know isn't the case, and it's a need to get fucked up in a way weed can't do which means old coping skills and none of which are good and being alone isn't all bad as I am pushing to get shit done and make the site more friendly and quicker to use which has been a good thing along with this being my second blog and I have been speaking and emailing with others, so as much as today is a sad and shitty day I am doing exactly what I said I was going to do this year and some of which I had set out to do while Michelle was home we instead relaxed and enjoyed the time we had being as lazy as humanly possible somedays more out of necessity then anything else since we did run out and such not to mention the spring visit mother nature gave us which is always tough to deal with.

Are You A Fighter Active or Not We Want To Talk.

Looking For Fighters For C.T.E. Discussion!

I have been saying for a bit we would like to connect with those in the fight world coaches, fighters, families, as we see the impact of concussions and sub concussive hits causing so many issues in the world of contact sports it seems us that never made it to the spot light are getting passed over and this is a tragedy since the vast majority…

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Changing The Party Drug Stigma.

So here we are already set to begin microdosing again, for those that are new I will take you back to the beginning when we had decided to become a part of another study involving a double blind placebo which in my opinion would have given us less then ZERO to work with and this idea was and is being shown to us now as we are cutting back on time down by 3 days to get going again. The positives…

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The Aftermath So To Speak.

So 11 days out from the microdosing study, and not doing so well let’s put on top of this running out of what we deem and yes after yesterday I see more education is needed, that being said the stress alone of running out and knowing their isn’t a fucking thing you can do except watch is tiring or it would seem to be as we are back into the walking zombie mode and although today feels somewhat…

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Coming Next Week!

Our New Exercise Routine

Here it is after talking until my lips almost fell off, this year Mark’s our exercise series which will see a new video uploaded every week and could be from any discipline but will run together. I have been a lifetime martial artist and bringing together different styles to introduce an exercise system for…

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I'm Tiring Of The Debate!

I’m Tiring Of The Debate!

Morning All, Well it appears once again this stupid fucking debate has come my way and it is one I am tired of and I am going to say my peace and write my essay and not give one fuck from this point forward on someone’s narrow minded views and opinions on weed and the powers of addictions and what gives me the fucking right you ask…

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Caryophyllene The Better Of The Terpenes.

Caryophyllene

This is the second in a series dealing with pain and inflammation although done on facebook this one is a little better, to me this terpene is one of the top dogs of sorts and can be found in so many everyday things since Black Pepper as long as there are no allergies is in most peoples cupboards as a general spice along with cloves which are the 2 top sources and has zero this far…

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Our Worst Fears Came True. So for most that use some form of medication running out is the scariest thing you can imagine and for us as well, now totally out no however resin and the little kief we had in reserve aren't taking much of the edge off and as each day passes the mood changes and not for the better this we are nervously aware of the good news is we should be never kind will be stocked today whether our orders in or we go get some either way my cocky attitude about being ok for a couple weeks or more days was foolish to say the least since I havemt been here in what we can figure 4 years or so and we have seen the slide in the last couple so the thoughts of being out totally now after getting a little glimpse so hang on while we talk the last couple days.

2019 The Year It Was And What's Next.

2019 The Year It Was And What’s Next.

Well wasn’t that as about an intense a year as I have had in awhile, this year is ending though in a lot of the same ways as last year we have our 3 person crew in real life, but the difference is the people we have never met that are following, sharing, and helping spread the message and to those that will continue to in this new year.

This year began with me in a really bad spot both physically…

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Happy New Year All!

Just a short video and written to say Happy New Year to all our supporters who share and see our stuff on a daily basis and those that have been there since we began. We hope to bring a lot more information and differing opinions for next year and are still open to any and all suggestions, once again thank you to all for the…

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It's To Early For This Shit.

It’s To Early For This Shit.

So for all intents and purposes we are going to run out the question is for how long, and also what is it I am going to do sit and mope or get up and make the best of the worst situation we have faced in forever. Well let’s go no more sitting down worrying and wondering we have wasted 2 days of Michelle’s holidays over this and there isn’t a fucking thing we can do and my own words are swirling…

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Most Don’t Get It. So some truly don't get my disdain for our delivery system so I will put it into perspective for those that maybe don't understand, the story goes a little something like this tomorrow may see us run out for the first time in 2 years and not for anything we could have controlled see we have kept the same 2 order a month schedule and up until this past few months things ran rather smooth nothing being perfect but nothing close to running out.

And This Is How It Has To Be.

So here we go into another new year new way type shit as most will be spouting off about not me we are changing things to suit us better, by kicking out a blocking those fans that walked away from us we now force you here to help us pay for the site and those who are following alone as total strangers likely struggling with the same issues in one or more ways this doesn’t affect you, see for the…

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Our Road To The Grow!

Our Grow!

This video is a quick little intro to let you know where our idea has come from and how we got here. There wasn’t 1 easy thing about this whole process as it seemed the more we learned the more each way was flawed and expensive in its own way.

What You Need to Know About HPS vs. LED Grow Lights

Whether it was which bulb will help is grow the most most dense and bud filled plants in…

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Talking To Much I Figure. Well we have been slowly changing behind the scenes my daily routine seemingly the hardest as usual and for those that don't know what I am trying to change well this is the point of these blogs.

Mataro Blue Strain Review.

Mataro Blue

Our Review—-Mataro Blue

It was almost 2 years ago now when Michelle and I first got together that we had got a free gram of this one through our old dispensary and that day was a particularly bad one for me and I truly don’t recall all of the events I just know the day was a bad one I was very angry agitated and scrappy and then I did a bowl of this and turned my frown upside down and…

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