shifting journal

cj | she/they 22, scorpio

[ourqueenofcups]

my dr selves as taylor swift albums

calypso jane bennet as taylor swift (farm dr)

calypso jane potter as fearless (marauders dr)

calypso jane campbell as speak now (the flash dr)

calypso jane matthews as red (fame dr)

calypso jane grant as 1989 (nepo baby dr)

calypso jane miller as reputation (smosh records dr)

calypso jane taylor as lover (smosh dr)

calypso jane ashbourne as folklore (supernatural dr)

calypso jane fletcher as evermore (5sos dr)

calypso jane ravenwood as midnights (watcher/buzzfeed unsolved dr)

marina as the tortured poets department (creepypasta dr)

calypso jane watson as the life of a showgirl (smosh university dr)

[ourqueenofcups]

entry 002 | 3.01.2026

i've been attempting "awake methods" (which i say very loosely because i don't really use traditional methods for the most part, just counting and visualizing mostly and obviously intention) recently, which i never really did before. still searching for that breakthrough from that ace of swords. i'll be honest though, it's a little bit frustrating. i'm the first to admit i'm a sleepy gal but it feels like i am always falling asleep in the middle of my method. of course, intention is there, falling asleep isn't necessarily the end of the world, but it does feel like i'm messing it up. which i can admit is maybe part of the problem.

i could try using a method and see if that offers me any sort of clarity, but methods always seem so overly complicated to me. like count to 500 and on every number divisible by 7, say affirmations equal to the sum of the two previous sets. you know? like i don't want to have to know the fibonacci sequence to shift pls. and i shouldn't have to! shifting is simple, all you need is intention, blah blah whatever we've all heard it before. i guess i'm just sitting here thinking maybe i'm not visualizing hard enough or maybe i should try harder to stay awake, when none of it is actually necessary. not really. it's just frustrating :/

[ourqueenofcups]

entry 001 | 2.27.2026

my shifting readings recently have been absolutely haunted by the ace of swords and the tower. like HAUNTED. i'm still a beginner tarot reader, still having to look up card meanings occasionally, but trust after pulling it approximately 7 billion times in the past two weeks, i know the meaning of the ace of swords like the back of my damn hand. i would say that generally i get a little bit nervous seeing the tower in a reading, but combined with the ace of swords, i'm actually feeling excited? it feels like i'm staring down the barrel of a huge breakthrough, something that is going to shake up the way i see shifting and reality entirely. upheaval in the absolute best way. lowkey can't wait

[ourqueenofcups]

call me cj <3

after pulling some cards, i've decided to start a shifting journal both to keep track of my journey and have somewhere to document and gather my thoughts as well as trying to get more involved with the community