its killing me how lonely i am

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[ouswhatababe]

yet another booty call

(2:26am)

anxiety rushed throughout your body as you tried to sneak your crush, sicheng, into your house.

the floorboards creaked under his feet. as you both snuk past your parents room, successfully reaching yours. he plunged himself onto your bed, wrapping himself with your thick blanket. you couldn’t help but giggle quietly.

once you turned on a night light. you followed his actions but your body flopped onto sichengs instead. embracement rushed throughout your body as your cheeks begun to heat up.

your body moved without you realising, sitting slightly further away from sicheng than you wanted to be. sichengs face look stunned but concerned.

“are you okay? your not hurt are you?” his voice was low and husky. but his eyes focused on your head which was tilted down from your shame.

with a small yet visible smile on his face, he unwrapped himself from the blanket. his back leaning up against the wall with his arms and legs wide soread open.

“come here y/n! surely you must be cold,” his pure face was full of excitement. you slowly nodded your head, crawling towards him.

time flew past quickly. your back was laying ontop of his chest, hearing his heart beat like a drum. at first it felt like unfamiliar territory but as time went on, you loved being around him.

you felt safe being in his arms, like nothing can harm you. you loved his soft yet masculine voice flow through your ears. he gently playee with your hair as you begun to fall asleep.

“dont you dare fall asleep on me y/n,” sicheng jokingly mumbled as he booped your nose.

“i thought that was the plan,” you replied jokingly, with a cutesy smile on your face.

the atmosphere in the room was light and bubbly but drastically shifted after sicheng mumbled. “no, not tonight. i’m gonna make you mine.” you sharply inhaled as you turned your body to face sicheng. a smirk planted onto his face.

“is that right? what if i dont want too,” you engaged to dirty talk by talk back, slowly closing the space between both of your faces.

“oh baby, we both know how badly-“ before he could finish his sentence, you smashed your lips onto sichengs. he wrapped his muscular arms around your waist pulling you closer.

you wrap your legs around his waist. in a swift movement you and sicheng swapped places. now your back was firmly pressed against the wall.

he lips detached from yours, making you crave for more. “you naughty girl. you should’ve done that.” his voice growled as he moved one hand, gently but firmly, onto your neck.

while his other one trails down your body. sending shivers down your spine causing you to arch your back even more then it already was.

hey long time no see :) , i stopped writing to focus more on school work but in the end that never really worked out this year. i was reading a bunch of mine and i forgot how much i liked writing them so heres another. sorry if its shit im kinda rusty.

i hope you guys have a merry christmas and a happy new year xx!

[ouswhatababe]

the party next door

(2:43am)

soft music flowed through your earphones into your ears. loud cheers came from your neighbor, sichengs, house. as you sat on your veranda that over looked the chaotic party below. you felt familiar stares that continued to look at your covered body.

even though you wore tight leggings and an over sized hoodie, your body couldn’t help but shiver. you begun to hear someone call out your name.

once you looked down to the floor, you saw drunken sicheng laying on your yard. you admired his perfect figure before climbing out of your rusty window onto the old oak tree. 

sichengs face light up as he saw you steadily climbing down the tree. you giggled as you begun to walk towards him. he constantly pat a patch of grass next to him.

once you sat beside him, he begun to talk about the hectic part next door. he wanted to escape from the chaos. you nodded your head in agreement, you didn't listen to his words but instead the tone of his voice. 

it was husky and low just how you like it. he cupped your soft cheeks into his dainty hands. the little boy he is, decided to pull childish faces. which brought a smile to your face, it brightened the atmosphere. 

“fuck your cute,” you whispered under your breath. as you spoke a little spark ignited inside sichengs chocolate swirls.

“i know. but guess what? your cuter!” he giggled as he bopped your tiny nose. 

[ouswhatababe]

gone for good

(part two)

(1:05pm)

you heard a light tap on your door. a smile formed on your face as you instantly knew who was knocking. your crush, sicheng.

you rushed to the door, quietly opening it for him to slip through. his eyes were rubbed raw. his adorable nose was brighter than rudolphs. this broke your heart, seeing him like this.

just as he was about to speak, you covered his mouth. light footsteps kept going past your bedroom. you realeased a sigh once it stopped. sicheng gently grabbed your hand, leading you onto your comfortable bed.

once he laid down, he patted a spot next to him. indicating for you to lay next to him. with a smirk on your face. you ran up to him. you leaped into the air and swiftly landed onto the stop he previously hit.

you slightly jumped as you felt warm arms wrap around your waist. you laid your head onto sichengs chest.

your breathing pattern became in synced with his. you sunk into his body. you were a popsicle and he was the heated cement.

you felt safe in his arms. as if no one could hurt you. moments like these brighten your gloomy days. sicheng felt the same way.

it breaks your heart to think that, being in sichengs arms wont be possible again.

“enjoy this moment while it’s happening. dont think about the future.” he mumbled. you shook your head in agreement. his wise words imprinted in the back of your mimd.

[ouswhatababe]

gone for good

(part one)

(12:30am)

your heart breaks as you heard your crush, sicheng sniffling on the phone call. he vented about every little burden that was on his mind.

you helped him lift every single problem that was weighing him down. he loved you for that, it was a shame you didnt know.

just as you were cheering him up, he begun to sob once again. three little words tore your heart in pieces; im moving away.

your vision begun to get foggy. your throat felt as if you dry swallowed a pill. you shook your head viciously.

sicheng called out your name, trying to get your attention. you kept asking questions why he was going and never coming back.

a defeated sigh came from the other end of the phone. something so easily that can be improved, is making him leave for good; his grades.

“i wish you were here.” your voice cracked as you spoke. you thought you said in your head, but it slipped out.

“well that can be arranged.” sichengs husky voice whispered. which sent shivers throughout your body. without another word he ended the phone call.

[ouswhatababe]

more than just your heart got stolen

(9:00pm)

dating in secret with the towns bad boy,sicheng was a hard job to begin with. but you stuck with it, without any regrets.

throughout the past couple of weeks, its been hard. you’ve been leaving town for check ups while he is busy fixing a clients car. it doesn't help that school separates the both of you. 

you heard a quiet knock on your window which scared the living shits out of you. you squinted your eyes, trying to figure out who was hanging from your window cell.

your heart begun to pound loudly as you realized it was sicheng. you rushed to unlock the rusty latch on the window. then quickly dashed to slightly close your bedroom door.

after a couple of hours pasted, sicheng kept whispering in your ear. word after word that slipped out of his mouth, made you begun to crave his taste. 

with a tiny but noticeable smirk on your face, you smashed your lips onto sichengs. he kissed back a little rougher. your felt his hands roam down your back which shot chills through out your body.

your left hand tangled into his silky hair. you begun to tug it gently, which made manly moans escaped sichengs mouth into yours. you tugged his grey hoodie signally to him to take it off. which he did.

you admired his muscular body. you slightly added pressure to your finger nail as you traced up and down his body. this flipped a switch inside of sicheng before he pinned your arms above your head. 

your breathing kept shaking. you were excited yet anxious at the same time. with a huge grin on your face, it helped sicheng to feel confident. 

this is the first time you have ever been this far. you wanted to wait and so sicheng did. but that night, your heart wasnt the only thing that got stolen. 

[ouswhatababe]

plane trip

(10:50am)

after admiring out through the plane window, you saw sichengs head bob back and forth beside you. you giggled to the sight of him as you cupped his left check and lowered his head onto your shoulders.

you saw a small smile formed on sichengs face which made you smile like an idiot. you begun to stroke his cheeks lightly, they felt softer than a baby’s skin.

his muscular arms snaked around yours, he begun to cuddle it tightly. his head was in a perfect position to rest yours on top of his. so you decided to lay your head onto his. a sweet coconut scent filled your nostrils.

sichengs hair smelt familiar. you begun to giggle once you realised it smelt like your shampoo. you felt a slightest amount of pressure on your dainty fingers. they were getting a massage from the half asleep sicheng.

[ouswhatababe]

welcome home

(7:40pm)

you come home to your boyfriend, sicheng from your five day getaway. after he gave you welcome home hugs and passionate kisses, sicheng played a movie, so you snuggled up to his warm body. the movie that he payed attention to begun to bore you.

one hand was knotted with his, the other begun to trace little circles on his thighs. the movement of your fingers snapped sichengs concentration towards the movie, to your tiny fingers on his thigh.

sichengs hand slivered down your back which sent shivers throughout your body. once it reached the bottom of your back, it sneaked into the back of your pants. he grabbed your ass, squeezed it slowly.

your hands stopped the circle motion and begun to hardly massage his inner thighs. this flipped a switch inside of both of you. the atmosphere of your dark bedroom shifted, the sexual tension rose.

sicheng flipped your body over, making himself on top of you, pinning you down onto the comfy bed. he proudly wore a smirk on his face, something you didn’t realised you missed. his soft lips kissed yours, harder than it was earlier. he pulled away to quickly, as he tried to tease you.

“fuck i missed you.” sicheng quickly mumbled before leaving trails of kissing down your body.

[ouswhatababe]

cant think straight

y/n: omg fuck you

sicheng: what? why?

sicheng: did i do something??

y/n: yeah!! you are glued yourself in the back of my mind!!

sicheng: and thats bad how? :)

y/n: because now i cant think straight :)

[ouswhatababe]

a joke that went to far

as the first semester of school was coming to an end, you were excited to go for your holidays to the big city. an idea has been floating around your brain for weeks. you wanted to see peoples reaction of you leaving out of the town for good.

but little did you know sicheng too it seriously. a little bit too seriously. when you were enjoying your holiday, you received a message from your best friend.

as you both messaged each other about your days and how much you miss each other. it slowly became into an argument.

you confused that you were coming back and your on a holiday. instead of getting a positive reaction, you got the complete opposite.

you lied to me. how could you do this to me? i trusted you. you didnt even tell me it was a joke. wow you fucked up everything now.

his words cut you mentally deep. did i really lie to him? did i really fuck up everything? you persuaded your self you did just that.

tears ran down your face, quiet sobs left your mouth. you hand clenched into a fist as you punched your thys as hard as you could.

the one person who genuinely loved you doesnt anymore. you thought of heaps of ideas to make it up to him. however each possible way to make amends with sicheng failed.

as you kept apologising you, realised you didnt fuck everything up. days before you left you tried your hardest to hang out with your best friend, but he kept declining.

you tried your hardest to spend time with him before your vacation. but he didnt bother to try hangout with you.

but once you jokes about leaving for good but then confessed it was a prank. now suddenly you fucked up his life.

you left him on read once he texted, im closer with my ex girlfriend and i am with you.

[ouswhatababe]

fall asleep in my arms

[11:45pm]

your best friend, sicheng held a birthday party at his huge house. with the alcohol running through your veins and sadness weighing you down, you were a mess that night.

mascara ran down your face from the tears earlier yet the biggest smile was on your face. your white shirt had puked smudged on the sleeve causing you to change into your pajamas.

sicheng picked you up in bridal style carrying you to his bedroom, a concerned look on his face.  

“sis you okay?” you giggled before asking. he gently placed you down onto his bed, tucking you in.

“not really. i over heard this group of fellas talking about using you because you’re drunk. so i’ll lay here with you for a while.” sicheng mumbles as he tried to hide his pink cheeks.

he laid down next to you but he was too far away. so you decided to wriggled closer, parking your butt on his crotch. after a few seconds of awkwardness, sicheng wrapped his muscular arms around your shoulder and waist. 

you snuggled into his warm body. his strong scent washed over the alcohol scent floating around the house. you breathing in synced with his. 

“please dont ever leave.” you whispered, the words bounced throughout the large room. 

“trust me baby, i wont.” the way those words rolled off his tongue, made you melt into his arms. you smiled like a lunatic as you drifted to sleep. 

[ouswhatababe]

just a friend?

[2:48pm]

you kept tossing and turning, unable to fall asleep. scenarios kept running through your mind. dreams you wanted to make into a reality.

without knowing a smile formed on your face to the thought of sicheng. you thought about his joyful personality. and the way words flowed out of his mouth.

you wanted to feel his warmth from his muscular body. you wanted to be swimming in his strong colone.

why all of a sudden do you crave sicheng? little did you know, you always did. you tried to persuade yourself that you loved him as a friend.

for months you believed yourself. you believed that you saw him as one if your closest friends. but your heart changed the idea of him.

you quickly holted out of bed, as you try to find your phone. the brightness was set low but still made you tighly squint.

you quickly begun to text sicheng. for months i persuaded myself that i like you as a friend, but to be honest i think i like you as more.

when you were about to turn off your phone, a text message drawed your attention. it was from your new crush. it was about time :)

you giggled softly, turning off your phone. once you placed it back on your counter. you hurriedly tangled your self in your cozy blanket.

tonight was the first time you slept peacefully because you finally knew how you felt about sicheng.

[ouswhatababe]

the pill of heartbreak

[9:40pm]

the dim lights made it hard for you to see, where your hands were. it felt as if one was tangled in his hair while the other was rubbing up and down his hard stomach. you felt numerous amout of hard rocks.

your boyfriend, sichengs lips roughly attacked yours making you felt defeated but in a good way. small moans escaped from both your mouths every couple of minutes.

there was no space in between your face and his. you were loving the moment.

you begun to slow down as you felt warm tears fall onto your face but they werent coming from your eyes. they were coming from sichengs.

“this isnt right.” he mumbled onto your lips. confusion took over your body which made you deatch from his heated body.

“wait what?” your voice was shaking along with your soft hands.

“i did something wrong.” sicheng confessed, your mind was full of worse possible solutions. his eyes were full of guilty, making you feel anxious.

“i was drunk. and i, kissed someone.” his voice was low. he felt embarrassed to admit he cheated on you. he averted his teary eyes.

“with who?” your voice rose making sicheng tremble in fear.

“with your best friend.” his whispered as his voice cracked. you held back both your tears and anger.

“get out.” your tone matched his. his eyes snapped back at yours. you felt betrayed by both your loved ones.

“look im sorry! please can we-“

“no. please. get out.” you interuppted, pointing your shaky finger to the wooden door.

without saying anything else, sicheng stood up slowly. guilt weighed his shoulders causing his foot steps to be heavy.

once he closed the door quietly, the tears you held back rushed out. your body slammed onto the bed. your face found your sicheng scented pillow.

you screamed in agony but was muffled from the white pillow. you kicked your smooth legs on the queen sizes bed. your hands shut tightly as you harshly punched your thys. red marks formed on both your knunckles and thys.

“why? how could he? i loved him! he loved me.” your mumbled in pain. your throat felt as if you swallowed a dry pill. the pill of heartbreak.

[ouswhatababe]

is he smiling like i am

[9:32pm]

the tiny stars shimmered like there was no tomorrow. hand in hand they twirled with each other in the night sky.

when you layed down on the soft grass, it tickled your skin. the cold but gentle winds dodged your shivering body. even though you were wearing layers upon layers of clothing you felt very cold.

you wished for your boyfriend, sichengs wamth. you missed his muscular arms wrapped around your tiny body. you craved his soft lips on yours and the taste they gave you each time.

as you looked upon the twinkling sky, you wondered if sicheng was doing the same. you wondered if he was smiling like you were.

[ouswhatababe]

what a surprise

[1:15pm]

your plan for today was to surprise you closest friend, sicheng. your friendship consisted of a various amount of elements. such as living in different cities which can cause heaps of texting and missed calls, surprise visits like today and the occasional hook up which usually leads into something deeper. without knowing you were falling for sicheng, he could say the same thing about you too.

as you were grocery shopping in order to buy frozen, shitty tasting pizza for tonight’s dinner, you felt a light tap on your shoulder. when you turned around to see a mutual friend of yours and sichengs, jess may. 

“hey jess! long time no see.” you forced a smile, hiding your irritated feelings you have for her as you shift from one leg to another.

“hey y/n! does sicheng know your in the city?” jess may curiously asked. you gave her a death glare. you already knew her plans by the look on her sour face. she was in fact going to tell sicheng that your in the city. which will ruin your surprise.

“no, not yet. im going over to his soon.” you snarled at her causing her to back down. 

“be careful, dont bump into his little fuck buddy!” she cheerfully said before she was about to turn and walk away. but you grabbed her wrist in time. 

“what did you just say?” you harsh fully spat in her face.

“didnt you hear? he has a little slut that comes up once in a while. they have a couple of drinks but one thing leads to another i guess.” jess may whispered in your ear. you froze unable to defend yourself. was this rumor about you?   

“taking in your reaction, its either you werent aware of the rumor. or you are that slut bag.” she added. you begun to feel another persons eyes on you, but you decided to ignore it. 

“i can tell you that sicheng and i have never gone past kissing.” you lied as you let go of jess mays wrist which revealed a red hand mark.

“what a load of bullshit. you dumb slut.” you heard her mumbled. just as you were about to leave you felt a stinging pain on your left cheek.

“did you just slap me?” you sour fully questioned. without leaving her any time to respond you swung a hard punch. which knocked her to the ground. you were about to finally storm away, until you see sicheng smiling like a maniac on one end of the aisle. you quickly rush to him. 

“your buying the pizza!” you grumpily mumbled shoving the plastic, shopping basket to his chest.

“hello to you too.” he cheerfully spoke.

“wipe that ridiculously, adorable, smile off your face. before i punch it off.” you jokingly threatened, trying so hard to hide your smile.

[ouswhatababe]

cute little bunny

[11:00am]

you woke up to your cheerful pup, marie, whining at your front door. confusion washed over you half asleep body. soon after anxiety does, causing you to fully awaken. 

“good morning baby. why are you whining? did you see something? was someone here?” you begun to ramble as your hands turned into a mini earthquake. you noticed a yellow sticky note was attached to her pink collar. you snatched the note realizing something was written on it.

 you instantly knew it was your boyfriend, sichengs handwriting. it said: if your sleepy and you know it get some coffee! you stood up to walk over to your coffee machine. once again another yellow note. you giggles as you realized you were on an easter hunt and these notes were clues.

you excitedly ran around your whole apartment complex, marie by your side thinking it was all a game. but it wasnt, it was a hunt. the yellow notes turned into pink notes which turned into a range of bright colors. 

without you realizing the notes lead you into a jaw groping garden. neatly trimmed bushes had lavender roses blooming. a purple, checkered, blanket was lying on the grass. a large figure sat on top, burning sweet, scented candles.

its head turned to face yours as he heard footsteps approaching him. each step you got closer you figured it was a male wearing a bunny costume. you dropped everything in your hands and ran up to him, jumping into his arms.

the master mind dressed in a bunny costume was, the man you missed and loved dearly, sicheng. however the soft fur on his costume tickled your sensitive skin which made you go into a laughing fit. sicheng giggled along before he planted a gentle kiss on your plumped lips.

“you always wanted a cute bunny!” his cheerful voice soothed your shaky hands. in the morning your hands shook from anxiety, but now it shook from the overload of happiness you felt.              

[ouswhatababe]

[4:30pm]

your head rested on your crush, sichengs shoulders. your head slightly moved every time he took a breath of fresh air.

your eyes gazed upon his eyes, nocting how lushes his eyelashes were. an idea popped into your mind.

“sicheng?” you said excitedly, which concerned him. sicheng knew nothing came well with that tone of voice.

“oh no. what do you want y/n?” he giggled nervously.

“can i put mascara on your lashes!” you cheerfully spoke. your eyes light up of excitement when made sicheng really happy.

“sure, why not!” he matched your tones as you stood up to find your black mascara. as you begun to rummaged your makeup drawer, sicheng grew impatient.

“y/n, hurry up.” he whined as you found a black cylinder with purple writing covered in it. you decided to tease sicheng by walking slowly towards him.

when you were in his arm reach, he yanked your body towards his by your soft wrist. you pushed his torso down onto the comfy bed making his fit body lay down.

you noticed the atmosphere changed dramatically but you set it aside. your left leg went over his muscular body, so your legs were on either side of him.

you sat on his crotch without knowing it turned him on. you swirled the mascara wand in the tube before asking sicheng to widen his eyes. the twelve year old boy inside of him caused him to pull an adorable but idiotic face.

“dont pull that face! im trying to concentrate, unless u want me to poke out your eyeballs!” you giggled as his hands rested on your thighs comfortably. you didnt have your glasses on therefore your face was inches away frim his.

you felt his hot breath in your face but you didnt seem to mind. you put a thick coat of black liquid onto his eyelashes. you were pretty impressed you didnt smudge any on his eyelids.

sichengs battered his lashes trying to impersonate you. you giggled while gently punching his shoulder.

you felt time stand still, the air around you was stiff as if you could hardly breath it in. sicheng passionately sucked your lips as you did the same to his. your hands moved to his face as his snaked around your tiny waist.

you sunk into the kiss, not knowing you were so hungry for his taste. you felt his nose slightly dig into your eye but you didnt mind.

you pull away before running out of breath. his face was a couple of fingers away from yours. your eyes glanced back into his. you saw happiness when you looked deeper into his eyes.

“y/n? ive liked you for a long time and i hope the feelings are mutal because i would really like to date you. y/n, will you be my significant other?” sicheng whispered. you were lost for words so instead you shook your head, grinning like a love sick puppy.

[ouswhatababe]

[8:05pm]

up beat music blasted through your bed room which gave you too much energy. you begun to clean your pigsty of a room for tomorrow evening.

you havent seen sicheng in months. tomorrow hes coming home. as you looked around the room it seemed unfamiliar. this is the first time in months that your room has been spotless.

as you removed your clothes to hop into the shower endless amount of emotions suddenly hit you. its happen a lot lately, to the point where its a a daily routine.

all these feelings felt so familiar but together is so odd. when you sat on the bottom of your bathtub water gently splashed your nude body.

without knowing you tears dripped into the water around you as you begun to scream. they were so high pitch to the point it made you sensitive ears bleed.

you submerged your whole body into the freezing water. causing water to flow out of the tub hitting onto the tiled floor, but you came up quickly as you felt intense stares. standing in your door frame was the boy you have missed for weeks on end.

“can i join you? the airplane made me feel all sticky.” sicheng laughed, his voice soothed your aching ears. he opened his arms widely as you hoped out the bathtub, almost slipping over the wet flood.

you wrap your wet arms around his torso giving you warmth. you missed this. he wrapped his muscular arms around your naked body. you missed the feeling of safety he gave you when you were in his arms.

you snuzzeled your head to his chest feeling his heart beat rise. you felt his eyes looking up and down your body.

“what are you looking at.” you teased, lifting your head to look at his gorgeous face.

“the definition of beaty.” he replied back in a husky voice. he knew it that tome of his voice turned you on, which it did.

“your more handsome with your clothes off.” you smirked at him. tugging off his black jacket.