Anemoia - Afar it's sidden, not in the fresh
Anemoia: yoreyearn for a stell or time one has never been.
One day I went to a shoppinghub and, walking through the highend limb, one thing I underyet was that the ansen of the steads was truly chirten, hour the eatinghouses, which had a lite truly alike to the things I like to see on the net, like the limbs in shires of Europe or lightshootings I see on Tumblr. But something happened: although I truly like seeing such lightshootings, the askillhood in the things, the folk, even though I like everything, I didn't feel any of that when I was there. At the truly least I should find that beautiful, if even it wasn't right like what I see on net, I should like to see folk withworking with each other, living their own lives, as I do watching walking tapes. But nothing happened.
At the time I even think on me as halfhearted, wandered if that was an aftermath of bad sleeping, because it's not as if I like better to see those things by lightshootings than in the fresh; I'd always like to see those things in the fresh when finding or watching, to touch, feel, enjoy being there; so having the bire to see something alike and feeling almost nothing is thorny, and that does worry me. What if it will never go away, even if I start to sleep well?
However, I watched a tape of a man who lives in Sunland and talks about what Sunland is like and life altogether, with a tape of him walking through the streets. In this tape he talks about a yoreyearn (nostalgia) feeling for a spot one has never been. I had already knew about this feeling by the name of "anemoia", from "The Dictionary of Obscure Sorrows", but he brooks a Germanish word "sehnsucht". And it was with what he said in the tape and what folk posted that I beknew: it is not only me that this happens to.
He names it yoreyearn. I do feel that watching tapes from aforetime, but I'm not sure I feel that with nowadays spots. In truth, I'm not even sure about the rightness of this word in the retching of this feeling, it billwhitely only seems like something else. But I'll be brooking it for lack of a better one.
The man of this tape has a selcouth taste: he likes twitchens. And he says that, when he still lived in his inborn land, he watched tapes of Sunlandish twitchens and did feel that yoreyearn feeling. Today, having the seel of seeing those twitchens in the fresh, he feels nothing, or seld feels anything. He only feels something alike to what he wont to feel when he sees the lightshootings he took at home, and, even then, it is not in the same greaten.
And, suttlely, it's an atle feeling, clearly it is. Alas, one untweenendly would like to have that good feeling looking at the shootings and have even more looking at that in the fresh. It's truly a letdown seeing all those spots, knowing more about them, willing to see them with one's own eyes and, having the seel, one no more feels the yoreyearn.
At the same time, it truly retches the feeling of yoreyearn; yoreyearn infolds remembering a throw, wanting to live it again, but not cunning to do so. An unsadendly lust!
Maybe that happens for the way we "feel the surroundings" through tapes and lightshootings is sere from the way we feel it in fresh, which is anyetful for me. Along of that, anemoia happening in a sundry lay, that is, afar, is right for the freedness is sere.
Even then, it's gripping how that works alsuch like yoreyearn. Yoreyearn is longing for the foregone, which we can't "touch" anymore, in an unrinendly way; yoreyearn is when we can't reach that, it's a feeling that only happens in our mind. Yoreyearn for a lay... even if these lays, unlikely from the aminds, can still be, can still be neesed, still be lived.
But I still hope that it doesn't have to be only like that, that I could cun to feel the anemoia feeling seeing that in fresh too. In the posts in the tape I've brought up, a maiden tells how she felt anemoia, which swinded, when she saw those things in the fresh, but the lay changed, when she started taking unbooked outings. For her, the ground she didn't feel the feeling was bethinking, when she looked for the spot to neese, forsaw the lightshootings, bethought how long she was going to stay. It's anyetful for me.