possible tw

16 he/him, just venting about random shit and what's going on in my mind

[owowouowowo]

i have and always will hate it here, things just get worse every time

[owowouowowo]

i hate when my blood sticks to my clothes, or it stains into my clothes

[owowouowowo]

TW SUICIDE

i already gave up in life a long time ago, i was a fool to think at least some happiness will come to me, i ruin everything, i have ruined many relationships before, i have familiar issues, i have many issues, i am a disaster, i do not deserve to be alive, i dont even know why i am alive at this point. i should kill myself, i feel trapped, and i want to kill myself so badly, i want eternal peace and happiness, i just want a break please

[owowouowowo]

i cut too deep this time

[owowouowowo]

the pain wont go away from the deep cuts i made to myself, seeing everyone around me happy makes me sad and angry, my parents now see me as a failure and someone they dont recognize anymore, i dont know who i am anymore. happiness seems impossible for me to be, tears wont stop falling, seeing everyone live their lifes at their fullest while im at my lowest makes me sick and disgusting, i lost one of my closest friends recently, i am slowly losing it, i see death more beautiful than life now...

[owowouowowo]

i think i just lost a relationship with one of my closest friends, i messed up, he lost trust in me, i hurt him, he doesnt sees me as a friend anymore, what have i done, i didnt did this on purpose, why i have to mess everything up, i hate myself so much, i cutted my arm to feel pain, i deserve pain, i deserve to die, the best thing my friends need in their life is for me to leave, why am i like this, ive tried to change for all of my life but i just cant, i want them to see how much im trying, i need some type of salvation, i hate hurting people accidentally, i just want this to stop, i want to fade away, i wish i was never born.

please make it stop...

[owowouowowo]

hey, just here to offer some words of comfort. you will get through this, you will recover, and you will someday be happy. i get worried about people when i see them make vent posts, so i decided to send this to you. anyways, hope this helped a bit.

thank you really much, i hope all of this will end soon enough, i really cant continue to fake my emotions when im around people, but you shouldnt be worried about ppl making vent posts cuz its what they trully feel, so its their true colors, anyways thank you for those words and i long for happiness to come

[owowouowowo]

i need someone to rant, to tell everything inside my heart, i want someone who will listen to me, i want someone to love me by who i am, i have bottled up everything inside me for now all of my life, i need to get it out, i cant fucking continue like this, ill break down soon enough i really cant keep carrying this weight anymore

someone just please...

[owowouowowo]

im finally coming back to my hometown, with my "friends", and to the old lifestyle once again, i really dont want to see them because im afraid i will get hurt again and again, i definitely dont want to see my crush, it just pains me alot when im around them, i wish i could do something about it..

[owowouowowo]

im always the one that gets hurt at the end, i try to change to be a new person, but at the end of the day, im fated to finish up like the useless sack of shit that i am , i regret meeting new people cuz i always get hurt, i dont want to make new friends, i hate being the nice guy, always getting hurt for no reason and getting looked down as always

[owowouowowo]

#ਏਓ ʚ ї ɞ ꒰ ꒱ .ﾟ 𓆩♡𓆪 ꒰ ა ♡ ໒

so today i finally created my vent account, inspired by one of my friends