Cleanness and Peppermint

James - 20 - SW: 89kg - CW: 52.5 - LW: 52.5

[p3pperm1nt-pur1ty]

◇ 🦷 = Intro Post = 🦷 ◇

◇ My name is James, I’m 20, and I want to go home

(home being an unknown location that I will never reach)

SW/HW: 89kg

Originally just wanted to be 65kg but I literally cannot stop and I am not in control anymore.

CW: 65.8kg fml (i actually don’t know i’ve been om@d’ing + coffee for a few months now but i’m too scared to weight myself. potentially anywhere from here to 60kg)

LW: 53.3kg

Height: 175cm

◇ I’m gonna hit you with the classic “block, don’t report”. I cannot get help due to my circumstances and this is the only place I’m able to vent.

◇ I won’t use tags often just to avoid getting t-worded. But you’re more than welcome to follow for more of my incoherent whining.

◇ I probably won’t respond to DMs because I cannot sustain a friendship to save my life but if we’re mutuals pretend it’s like we’re cats watching each other through the windows of two houses on opposite sides of the street. Never met but I got ur back if you need it.

◇ !!! I am pro recovery (not for myself of course, I deserve to suffer, but I want to see you alive and well) !!! If you want encouragement to love yourself I will supply. This shit is hard, dude !!!

◇ If anyone has male-oriented 3d content that they’ve collected pls pls pls send it my way. You can 100% break the no-DMs rule for that

◇ I’d prefer my moots to be within a similar age range pls but i’m fairly chill abt anyone who just wants to follow. A lot of y’all don’t have ages on ur blogs which is fair enough but if i’m following you and you don’t want me to be, please feel free to remove/block me. i won’t take it personally and I don’t want to make anyone uncomfortable

◇ Not self dx-ing, but suspecting that I may have OCD. Only been diagnosed with depression but let’s be real Something Is Badly Wrong (TM)

◇ and God, I’m scared.

[p3pperm1nt-pur1ty]

finally been to the doctor after three years, they weighed me fully clothed and then told me my weight was fine. did a blood test. bloods are fine. i am sooooo disappointed that i’m not dying.

binged last night for the first time in six months :/// i don’t feel too bad but physically i am in PAIN. also have to go to work today and i know i’m gonna be so self conscious. I was doing so well yesterday and then fifteen minutes before the end of the shift a mum was like “Oops, little timmy! just let the lady past with the trolley” (me)

K1LLLLL MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE K!!LLL ME NOWWWWWWEEEEE JUST TAKE ME OUT FUCKINH BACK AND FUCKING SH0öT ME. THERE IS NOTHING ELSE O CAN DO BESIDE ⭐️ ve MORE. i want to cry i want to cry and also i’m so anxious for todays shift in for sure going to skip breakfast (even my coffee) to make up for the b1nge) but I still have four hours before i need to leave i’m going to be so bored and sad that whole time

[x78b]

not eating as a gender affirming activity

[dicksucker8800]

if any of my moots struggle with dental hygiene and brushing your teeth heres a list of things that help me because i thought it was a good idea to share :)))))

- the mechanical act of removing plaque is the part that stops bacteria from building up, so brushing with no toothpaste, brushing with a (clean) finger, and rubbing a tshirt or towel on your teeth will all help (while a little gross)

- dont forget to brush your tongue!!!

- mouthwash is really useful because while brushing without toothpaste removes plaque, youre missing out on the fluoride that helps your enamel. even swishing a tiny bit around for like 2 seconds is better than nothing

- try to chew minty gum often, it helps with bad breath and especially after meals its good because it helps with saliva production to flush out food and the act of chewing helps with that too

- have your toothbrush and adjacent items somewhere you’ll easily remember and that dont take much effort to get to. if that means having a travel size bottle of mouthwash and some floss on your nightstand, then do that!! anything that makes it easier for you to get to and to do when youre super tired. teeth stuff isnt just for the bathroom

- if getting motivated to brush your teeth is really hard and youre really tired (or for any other reason) all you have to do is get up and walk to the bathroom. sit on the floor, drink some water, and if you just dont have the mental capacity to deal with a brush and toothpaste in your mouth, you can always just do one thing. floss the bit of food bothering you, get some toothpaste on your teeth and rub it around with your tongue, or scrub with your brush for a few seconds.

- remember that something is always better than nothing, but dont beat yourself up for not being perfect with teeth brushing. i promise your teeth wont rot out of your skull or anything because you forgot or were too tired or depressed to get out of bed. it happens. but doing any small thing to remove some plaque or make your mouth taste not gross is going to help you feel a little less bad

not sure how to finish this off but take care of yourselves and never forget how swaggy you are

[p3pperm1nt-pur1ty]

CHAT WE ARE FALLING DEEPER‼️🗣🗣🔥🗣‼️🗣‼️🐺

just beat my €d personal best łw and i legit don’t know what to do. what is this even for. all this has done is reveal the shape of my sk3leton to me and now I can see for sure that my hips are just too wide and nothing will change that. doesn’t matter how low i go now bc it will always be like that :/

i have my first doctors appointment in over two years (mandated by my therapist) soon and i’m minorly pissed that my bm! will be more than 16 when i go in. is it bad to want to be admitted to hospital against my will? I just want to take a break from my life in a place where people have to look after me bc i cannot be trusted.

it’s all about control but also having free will is exhausting. hospital or lob0tomy pls and thank you. don’t mind which

[sacrificedivinity]

Daily ED self-check for harm reduction

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for the ⭐️ving and pvrg1ng peeps to stay safe <3

(not promoting, but harm reduction is so so important!!)

1. Heart and pulse

• sit quietly for 1 min

• place 2 fingers on wrist/neck

• count your pulse for 30 sec and double it

• normal: 60-100 bpm

• danger zone: <50, >120 bpm or irregular/skipping beats

2. Blood pressure/dizziness

• stand up from sitting

• notice: do you get lightheaded, see black spots, feel like fainting?

• frequent dizziness/fainting = electrolyte or blood pressure crash

3. Swelling check

• press gently into your shin/ankle for 5 seconds - if a dent stays (pitting edema), your body is holding fluid from electrolyte imbalance

4. Muscle & nerves

• stretch your hand wide, then make a fist

• Notice: tingling, twitching, or cramping? That can signal low potassium or calcium.

5. Hydration & Urine

• check urine color (preferably your first pee of the day).

• Pale yellow = hydrated

• Dark yellow/amber = dehydrated

• Clear all the time = over- hydrated (can dilute electrolytes)

6. Emergency red flags (call for hospitalization!!)

• severe chest pain or irregular heartbeat

• Passing out or near fainting

• Extreme swelling in the face, hands, or legs

• Inability to keep fluids down

• Extreme shortness of breath

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I might make another post about supplements & vitamins more tailored to m1a because I never see enough about harm-reduction when it comes to pvrg1ng which is incredibly important I cannot stress this enough.

Stay safe everyone 🫶🏻💌🪶

Edit: I wanted to add this YouTube link from this video by Of Herbs and Altars. They make a lot of ED-related and recovery video essays that help a lot. One of the newest videos touches on the idea of finding compromise and harm-reduction within your disorder so it no longer takes over your life. It's helped me so so much. <3

https://youtu.be/0OM89lnEDXs?si=D9jQ0BuZMWstqbGg

[p3pperm1nt-pur1ty]

In the legacy console edition of Minecraft there was a christmas themed custom map with a christmas texture pack and all the dirt looked like christmas cake and right now the 3d is 3ding so badly i’m just daydreaming about eating the christmas cake minecraft dirt 😭 😭

[p3pperm1nt-pur1ty]

maybe tmi but

ik ppl who r3strict often pray for a visit from the ✨ shit fairy ✨ and yah me same but recently my body has switched and it feels like anything i eat goes right through me in about ten minutes i have never used l4x in my life btw what is up with this should i be concerned (more than usual)

[girlzdrinkblood]

i’ve fully changed my view on food, i look at anything over 170 calories like it killed my family and called me a slur

[girlzdrinkblood]

anyone else fantasize about ripping themselves open and literally scooping out any fat? no? just me?

[vanillabeetles]

lunch ideas 🥗

[p3pperm1nt-pur1ty]

my favourite seat on the bus is the one that’s over the wheel arch specifically bc when i put my feet on it it raises my legs up and makes them look skinnier chat how cooked am I

[hisblackconverse-deactivated202]

hi so im actually too busy killing myself to gaf about your class rn

[lyssieslife524]

I need a friend who will come with me to go food shopping and spend an hour just walking slowly up and down the aisles and let me turn over and examine the packaging of everything that peaks my interest

[m0stevilmush]

new diet in which i eat NOTHING and i KILL MYSELF

[ouchowouch]

yaaoowwww it hurts

[hisblackconverse-deactivated202]

”i never see you at the club” i never see you panic switching between a step counter, a calorie counter, google, calculator, and tumblr while huddling in the corner of a restaurant but ok