5200 shades of gray

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( main @pageance )

liveblogging and random, worthless nonsense thoughts (AND thomgray. worthless nonsense + thomgray.)

tag guide (will update):

(streamer name) yaps = for thoughts pertaining to certain streamers

liveblogging / vodblogging = self-explanatory

hating = evil symbiote thoughts. negativity. sorry

various ship tags, e.g. thomgray, fluxarata, fluxili = self-explanatory, but may be either in character or rpf. be aware, i use this names for both platonic and romantic connotations!

echo bothers me = i don't wanna talk about it :/

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i miss thomgray

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" hey thomas, when i interact with you, do i get the achievement 'hot stuff'? "

REAL THING SHE SAID

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OH RIGHT acting all nonchalant until gray threatens to go talk to airo instead right right sure

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i genuinely just adore thomas and graybytheway. like for a moment not even in a romantic sense but they're just genuinely so lovely and amazing and sweet together and it makes me smile a lot i love them i love them i love them if you don't love them you need to think more

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i love thomgray so much i get genuinely shocked when i remember that the majority of people either don't gaf at all or just have a mild 'thats nice' towards them like HABEBEHEHEHEJEJROTKNRBHRHRHEHRHRHRHHRJEJENS DJEJEIEIENE. NTODOSLSMANQN W RJSJAOWK W RJSJAUWBOODNSNE EJAIJANQKWJRJSINW W JEJSJSKAOB RHEJEJWBWBEHEBEBEBWBWBW. MTMTMMTTHHSOPWMWNQ ALLANWPAKWOAKWMAKWNKWB RHHEJEBEJSJSHHDSGHSHEKSKEUSJIEOSKS EJRNRJRJNRBRNRNRNNENEENENENNENSJSJEBE EJANS SJAN. RNTJROSNSNW I JDUSN E. EIJNWK OBRBIEKWNWNNWIAKMW RUJENENEJEIDBTKROTNTNOSPA TO OLD.SNEN OSNS W JSIWNNJIR. EUSUSH W GRAY HHRHRUEHE. WJWJWJWNJAJS. TIOLYLRLEOWO. ROROEJWJW. ERJIEIWJWJJEIRUUA EUSUWJWJLLMDNR WJWJWNWNJNMFMR RKEKWMMWMQJRIIEIRUTBT SBRHEJSJJWN JWJWNWBWBWBWBBW DJFJTKIFICJSKFJRISSKSIOSKSUSOLKSJAIKZNFJSKDJUSI S RIEKKSIDIIRITJTNNBT TJTNBT . you know?

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i think im going to throw up

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thomgray moodboard

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HE MADE HIS OWN TEXTURE PACK TO AVOID TRIGGERING PEOPLE WITH TRYPOPHOBIA. YOU KNOW WHO HAS TRYPOPHOBIA? GRAYBYTHEWAY

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wait saltys real for that

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IM LITERALLY MY OWN WORST ENEMY

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okay so chat was joking about thomas' family tree since he has irls on stream. and one read out the messages and asked laughingly.

" are they german by any chance? "

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WHY DONT I EVER PUT TIMESTAMPS FML

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" so thomas "

" yes graybytheway? "

" so you hate me and don't want me to come there "

" what? i didn't say that "

(anna makes a noise of sadness)

" thomas you can't say that to your— (fades off) " SUPER ABRUPT PAUSE. REALLY ABRUPT. WHAT WERE YOY GOING TO SAY ANNA.

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i actually really need to go back and find this

[meowawarata]

Truly at this point the autism explanation is the only thing that makes sense to me

[meowawarata]

Not outgoing enough as a child, an introverted nerd with Nerd Interests, loved reading from a very young age. Was very clingy as a teenager—easily attached to people who showed any sort of interest in being friends whatsoever. An extensive vocabulary, using big words just feels most natural. Lots of silly voices/noises. A night owl. That one discord screenshot. Looooves facades and personas that are cooler and more articulate than in real life; often relies on these personas even in casual conversation. High-masking. Exhausted by social interaction and needs more time than most people to recuperate after social activities (+ can’t stream for long hours before getting overwhelmed). Frequently awkward. Hides behind friends and lets them do the talking (CL1) when too overwhelmed socially. Relishes control.

But frankly the most compelling evidence is that he just talks Like That. No allistic person Talks Like That.

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the hostel was really potential group because they opened up the opportunity for so many interesting stories and then didn't organise anything so it all went to waste.

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flux hasn't made a dry sarcastic tweet yet... it's unnatural.... somethings wrong....

[enderwisp]

there should be more stellareyn in things. everyone start including stellareyn in things now. i want her in all collab streams all smps all events