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The internet is full of things. Wonderful, weird things. this space is mostly, crafting, cannibals (Hannibal!), Our Flag Means Death, The Adventure Zone, poetry, and whatever else strikes my fancy .

[painfulinpink]

Stuck in my

Parent's house

I wash my hair

Style it

In my mother's

Mirror

With her

Curler

And hairspray

I washed my

Clothes

In her

Detergent

So I walk through

The day

With the scent of her

Every where

And wonder

If this is what's it

Feels like

To become

Your parent

Or if this is what

My future memories

Of her

Will

Be

[painfulinpink]

I have never laid out

On a freshly mowed lawn

Or deep meadow grass

Stared at the bright blue sky

Or night sky

Breathing in

And out.

For there are bugs

And sticks

And grass stains

And mud.

So there is always a blanket

Or denim

Or something

So I don't touch the

Ground at all

And if I stare at the sky

The most I offer

Earth

Is just the tips of my toes

Maybe a foot

Free of shoes

To briefly feel

What's beneath and

Below

But maybe someday

I'll set aside my fears

And socks

My clothes

And cares

Then there,

Laying fully on the grass

I'll accept the dirt

The stains

The bugs

The sticks and rocks and crickets and hums

And everything vibrating all at once

And I will surrender to it

Take a breath

And

Transform

[painfulinpink]

Technically

One would call this

My home

It is where i

Grew up

Since 10.

Technically

It is home

But in walking

Driving

Exploring

This city

It itches

A too small coat

Of wool and stinging

Nettle

Breaking open old

Scabs that i

Cannot help

But pick

I keep hoping

For a bright

Red

Clean

Bleed

But instead it's all

Threaded with

Ink

Or

Poison

I see ghosts everywhere

And they will not

Leave me

Alone

Which, was the

Irony, i

Suppose

Here I was

Alone

And it hurt

And now I am here again

Surrounded by

Crowded memory

Begging to be alone

Again

[painfulinpink]

I remember

My worst day.

When I thought I had

Gotten past

The very worst

Of the grief

I had showered

Rehearsed

Moved on

But you were

Leaving

A Spring

Break

And I wished

So hard

For you to

Stay

One accidental

Phrase

And i

Wept

As though I had no

Hope

All I wanted

Was your arms

Around me

But the only

Allowed

Touch

Was a soft lean

On your knee

While sitting on

Cold

Tile

I know now

That was the best

And all

You could

Give

You sent others

To help

Once you were

Gone

But they weren't

You

And in the end

You weren't the

you I wanted and

Needed

What I wanted was

Him

Again

[painfulinpink]

I am

Self-contained

It's easy to

Let people

Think i

Let them

In.

So easy to share

Little things

Stories

Foibles

A carefully

Stacked

Pillar

That gives

A

Harmless

Impression

But did you

Know

That tonight

I let him

Pull me

Apart

With careful

Surgical

Motion

Vulnerable

On the couch

I let him

Take me

Apart

Piece

By

Piece

Removing artiface

Like a

Coat

Dropping it

In a

Velvet

Skin-warm

Heap

Finding a new

Place

Between my jaw

Neck

And

Ear

That made me

Shiver

[painfulinpink]

Woke up

Wore black to

Church

Listened to

Scripture

Of forgiveness

And

Death

Then I went to

Light a

Candle

Never having done so

Asked what to do

A rare thing

To ask for

Instructions on

How to grieve

Properly

Chose one, never lit

Candle

A full wick

Untouched by fire

Clear and white

I wanted it to

Burn

As long as possible

The only gift i

Can give you

Now

A blank, white candle

Amoung dozens

Full of burning

Grief

I lit yours

Hoping it will burn

Just a little

Longer

Extinguished

My match

Blinked

And walked

Home

[painfulinpink]

Some years

The day passes

As any other

It rains or shines

I work or play

It feels like spring or

Darkest cold winter

It is any day

Other years

It is fresh pain

Agony

Frozen in time

Sharp icicles

That drip and drip

Into a frozen puddle

To slip on

And bruise

It could just end up

A dull and persistent ache

The follows me

Through the day

A rain-heavy cloud

That may or may not burst

This year I seem to

Find

Pieces but not

Peace

Echos of joy

Frozen photographs

This year

Nothing but

Memories

And

I miss you

[painfulinpink]

I will light a candle

For you

I've never done that

It's not my tradition

Not my church

But I don't know

What was in your heart

When you died

So now

I asked my husband

(husband. I loved you and now I love him and

Oh how I wonder

How you two would have been

Together)

If his church had

Candles

And if they could be

Lit

And he said of course

And told me he lights one

Every

Sunday

For his own loss

To a self inflicted

Death

So on Sunday

We will go together

Light our candles

Together

And mourn those we loved

Because their graves are far

Or don't exist

At all

And try to find

Forgiveness

[painfulinpink]

I still love you

Every letter and phrase

Seems like a

Portent

And as your

Death day

Approaches

The terrible suspense

Of a choice

That cannot be taken back

Forgiveness never

Granted

Aches and burns

I was your ice wrapped in velvet

The sun to your moon

Where you hungrily watched

What it was like to be warm

And in my light

And in my immaturity

I shut you in the dark

Like I thought I was

Supposed to do

With broken hearts

And still and still

I find your words

And long to go back

To the after school

Hall

Where I was hungry

For held hands

And silly phrases

We had one year

Then three

Then two

And one, one last month or so

And you were gone

I let myself miss you

As some kind of treat or reward

Because no one was really

Supposed to know

But you were one of the few

Rules I broke

And I would break it

Again

And

Again

[painfulinpink]

Every goal

Met

Every single

One

So now

Contentment

But I don't

Know how

I know how to

Want

I know how to

Strive

But I don't know how to

Sit

In golden light

Accept my

Reward

All I know

Is

Longing

Lust

Living

For the

Goal

For the

Prize

How is thus

Winning

When contentment

Feels like

Loss

[painfulinpink]

Apparently

I have

Spent

2 years

In a

Panic

Spiral

I went to work

I had dinner with friends

I experienced joy in

Many

Forms

But it was all

An act

I knew

I was

So

Good

At

Acting

But I

Guess

I even

Fooled

Myself

[charlataninred]

Love how tumblr has its own folk stories. Yeah the God of Arepo we’ve all heard the story and we all still cry about it. Yeah that one about the woman locked up for centuries finally getting free. That one about the witch who would marry anyone who could get her house key from her cat and it’s revealed she IS the cat after the narrator befriends the cat.

[meraarts]

Might I add:

The defeat of the wizard who made people choose how they’d be to be executed

The woman who raised the changeling alongside her biological child

The human who died of radiation poisoning after repairing the spaceship

[eater-of-hopes-and-dreams]

The adventures of a space roomba

Cinderella finding Araura (and falling in love)

I don’t know a snappy description but the my nemesis cynthia story certainly lives in my head

[blitzlowin]

hilariously, these are almost all in my fic tag. so, a compiled list from the notes (and some extras):

The God of Arepo (graphic novel 1 / 2 / 3) (ebook)

The Monster of Sentan

The Witch’s Cat

Raise Both Children

Stabby the Roomba (honorable mention)

Cinderella Marries the Prince (comic)

My Arch Nemesis Cynthia

Pirates and Mermaid

Eindred and the Witch

The Demon King

The Cornerwitch

Grandmother Beetroot

Apocalypse Daycare Worker

Grandmother Accidentally Summons a Demon

New Year Saga

A Story About Changelings

Ranger in the King’s Forest

The Difference Between a Hare and a Rabbit

Goblin Men (Canines)

[charlataninred]

I am in love with you /p

[the-thread-of-the-infinite]

What about the one with the princess locked in a tower learning to become a wizard? That’s lived in my mind for years and I haven’t seen it in a long time

[death-of-the-endless]

Oh, love that story, adding it to the list: 20. Princess Talia and adding a few more contenders 21. Thyme 22. The Monster under the Bed 23. A Meaningful Death 24. Humans are unstoppable…until they aren’t 25. The Monster under the Fridge 26. Antler Guy 27. Cleric slamming healing spells

[death-of-the-endless]

Adding a few more I remembered:  28. The Frog and the Scorpion 29. HSTHETE 30. The First Witch in the World 31. Imagine that Oceans were replaced by Forests  32. A Faerie taking a Name  33. The Dragon on the Farm  34. Synovus & Menace  35. Raising the Anti-Christ  36. Aliens vs. Flora & Fauna of Earth (pretty sure there are even more additions to the original post but I had this one saved)  37. Doctors without Borders…in Space!  38. The Villain-Wrangler  39. The Last Contact  40. The 100 Parent-Point Children  41. And the Heavens Wept  42. The Night Gentleman  43. The Serpent God and their Priestess 

[knottahooker]

44. No One Showed Up for the Last Storytime

[adamskiiii]

Wow! @writing-prompt-s contributing to like half of these!

[writing-prompt-s]

I can hardly take any credit for these stories! But I love sharing them. Unfortunately I cannot read all the prompt responses so please tag me if you want me to reblog a story that resonated with you so I can give it a little boost :)

[swampy711]

Reblogging this again so I can find it easier cause my god this is beautiful

[swampy711]

I didn’t realise that I’d somehow accidentally unpinned this post until yesterday, and subsequently had to travel back through a couple months worth of reblogs to find it again. so now I’m gonna add more stories as I find them so that I can use this as an archive to find them all again.

Also, this post will be procedurally updated with new stories when I find them, so if you liked it, then maybe check up on it every month or so and I might have new stories to share

1. Standing beneath both Sola and Luna by @comicaurora and @izzbeingchaotic

2. The Future-giver by @shady-tavern

3. Hungry Babushka Ghosts by @thestuffedalligator

4. Nothing I didn’t already know also by @thestuffedalligator

5. The Night-Mother by @melgillman

6. Sherlock Pendragon also by @thestuffedalligator . They really are good at this, aren’t they.

7. The Deathless Sisters by @bixbythemartian

8. There’s a monster at the end of town… by @zakeno

9. A collection of glimpes into a child’s world by a lot of people

10. Underworld Duet by @officialleehadan

11. A benign existence compiled by @willinghands

12. Musings on a hand axe by @gallusrostromegalus

13. Agnodice. More people should know about this

14. Perhaps they shouldn’t have eaten the dragon… by @laurasimonsdaughter

15. Imitation Seawater by @derinthescarletpescatarian

16. What is the difference between a cathedral and a lab? By @letallthetrashraindown

17. The Must'Ain’t by @gallusrostromegalus

18. The Golden Record by @fennecshandgf

19. I turn to Ares by @kochei0

20. Sons of the Labyrinth by @golyadkin

21. The Sphinx’s love by @animentality & @fox-moblin

22. Under the Tracks written by Sio on Twitter, brought tumblr by @apelcini and illustrated by @texeoghea

23. Lots of good recipes started by @girlmuppet and @batmanisagatewaydrug

24. True love brought to tumblr by @kaijuno , @transgenidoqueen and @harbingermotel

25. The Need to Stay by @maddiesharafian

26. The Whale, The Tuna, and The Salmon by @bees-with-swords and illustrated twice over by @eldritchjackalope

27. The Moon asks a Question written by dirgewithoutmusic on Ao3 and illustrated by @purutsukid

28. What we can learn from a child by @notreewaits-deactivated20200806 , @yelnatszeroni, @Ilywela13 , @ladyofatraditionalkind , @banrions , @greedy-guts , @thegodsofkhaosinkarnate

29. Compiles of Japanese and European folklore/myths brought to tumblr by @walmart-the-official and @bleu-guacamole , sourced from yokai.com and the translation works of Prof. D. L. Ashliman of the University of Pittsburgh

30. Time by @welldrawnfish

31. Just so you curious types know where you totally shouldn’t go for your research by @draculasdaughter , @three-blogs-in-a-trenchcoat , and @whateverthebeeswant .

32. The Midnight Cafe by @wizard-email

33. The Rules of the Hunt. A collaboration between @rysttle and @polistini

34. The Hand You Cannot See by @blackbearmagic, @nikniknikin, @the-tabularium, @draconym

35. Not what is expected by @dxactivatxdusxr , @its-just-a-phage , @flowernstt, @anotherdayforchaosfay , @anaalihelmisimpukka , and @stealthclaw1

36. A collection of mishaps and mindslips by @cafffine , @rumplefuckingstiltzkin , @fried-berries those whose comments they compiled, @heywriters , @ariconditioner , @modmad , and @lagomorpheme

37. The faceless angels by @cannibalcaprine-deactivated2024, @ancient-debris, @omnybus (the artist), @captain-acab

38. We will remember your shoes by @cooking-with-hailstones, @netherworldpost, and @vaspider. Found through @the-haiku-bot

39. The room where you can play scrabble forever by @exhaustedwerewolf

Continued…

[meoem-blog]

The one by @inbabylontheywept about the girl being fated to marry the boy from the Nativity Village had me riveted on the edge of my seat until the last word

[inbabylontheywept]

Uhhh. I have no idea what story that is. I’m flattered, but are you sure that was me? I get mixed up with @foldingfittedsheets pretty regularly. Just a guess .

[foldingfittedsheets]

I’m less likely to write a straight romance than a nativity scene so this is someone else still.

[painfulinpink]

I have spent my life

Good

And

Perfect

Grounded once

Broken the rules

A handful of times

But now

Now

Exhausted by the weight

Of an unfair world

I wonder

How good am I?

What was it worth?

As I sit here

Watching a

Passion

Play

Was my goodness

Worth the weight

Of lust and longing

And loss of

Experience

Were the mistakes I

Never made

Worth the blank linen

Of my soul

Or perhaps

Can I still stain it

Red

[painfulinpink]

I saw your

Wedding photos

God

Stunning

It's how

I learned

About the ink

On your back

And it reminded

Me

Of how your ink

Broke my heart

Shattered it

Into delicate

Bloody

Pieces

And I wondered

Seeing you

Beautiful in

White

If you remembered

How much you

Hurt

The girl i

Was

Or if on that

Beach

With gentle snow

And winter white

You let all your

Sins

Slip

Into the

Sea

[painfulinpink]

When we

Were kids

You would

Hide

Bottom of the

Stairs

Waiting

In the dark

For the moment I would step

Down

In silence.

You would

Jump out

Yelling

And I would

Scream

And you

Laughed

And laughed

I startled at

Scary movies

TV

Dark nights

Open doors

Everything

Only now i

Find

You've lost your

Taste

For horror

You left

The

Room

While i

Watched

And laughed

And hid

My face behind

My

Hand

And I wonder

When you

Gained

Fear

And i

Lost

Mine

[painfulinpink]

I asked you

For help

Instead

You gave me

An

Audit

Line by line

My mistakes

Added

Subtracted

And

Multipled

Showing me

All my

Faults

Lines

Of

Debt

With no

Balance

[painfulinpink]

Surrounded

By endless

Delight

Sum of

Knowledge

In my

Hands

Shelves overflowing

With books

Enterainment

Beyond

Imagining

Instants

Away

I sit

Frozen

At the hardwood

Table

(still being

Paid

Off)

Endless choices

A hunger

Unsatisfied

And

Unknown