I do what I want

he/him | mental health talk, so tw

[pajama-boy]

Here’s a guy, thanks for stopping by ^^

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Ok

My Tumblr is literally just oversharing 

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Me when me

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Who Gave Me Internet

Damn I went through a whole character arc through owning this blog and looking back on it I’m just like O_O why tf would I say that. Like Ik I would only make blog posts when I needed to vent, but even keeping that in mind, why would I think these things and write them down?? Lol not deleting any of it tho ^_^ I want anyone who looks through my blog which will likely only be my future self to go through this mental breakdown with me ^^

[pajama-boy]

GET ME OUUT

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Dimensions

There is 10000% more dimensions than this one. Most people can’t leave this dimension. But people do experience that kind of shit. I will list the ones I know if right now. I made all the names up to identify them, if there’s actual names for them, uh my bad lol. And there’s probably an infinite number of dimensions, but these are just the one’s I know. If any of these sound familiar please let me know o.0 EARTH: The Earth that you and me live in. I call it Earth just as an easy identifier and not because it’s a planet. Dimensions aren’t planets in themselves, but the Earth dimension we live in is on the planet Earth in da milky way or whatever. ASCENDANCE: This is basically afterlife. You can think of it as heaven... Or not. There isn’t a punishment or reward after life, you just go to da dead people dimension. LIMBO: Limbo is the overlap of Earth and Ascendance. It’s where ghosts are. I think some can choose to go to Limbo, but for the most part they don’t choose it and do not want to be here. They don’t get to communicate with each other, they’re dead on Earth alone. I don’t know what qualifies dead people to go to Ascendance or Limbo, it might be random idfk. But, I’m pretty sure there is significance to it. People on Earth can communicate with the dead in various different ways. DARK EARTH: It’s just Earth but more evil. It has entities we can’t see, but some people can see/hear/experience them. This (hypothetically) would be where demons are. Idk about the whole demon business, though. I think they’re just entities. They don’t live on our Earth like ghosts do, but they can enter through certain things. Like people or Ouija boards. But mostly people. Folks let entities in without even knowing. I guess they aren’t always evil, but they can’t really comprehend mortality so they’re usually evil. VOID: It’s nothing, it’s the building blocks for everything. Entities/spirits/people will only visit the Void, but they can’t stay very long. Things with conscious thought can’t stay in the Void because it IS nothing and since they’re something, they subconsciously create or leave. Or just purposely leave. YOU: This one’s more personal to an individual. It’s where dreams are. And people in comas go there. It’s crafted around your experiences and shit, but everyone who dreams has been there. UTOPIA: Bullshit you can never go there it’s stupid and a lie and you can’t get there no matter how hard you chase it or even if it’s offered to you. You can’t do it, it’s not for you. But, it’s constantly pretending to be an option when it’s fucking not! Or maybe you can get there when you die, but idk. 

[pajama-boy]

Digital painting by me :)

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Bad Opinions

Why am I a little bigot? I can’t believe I really said you need dysphoria to be trans and that pansexuals aren’t real. Even if to me pan seems like the same thing as bi, it isn’t to other people and that’s cool. But whatever, by internal homophobia does not and should not involve other people. Imagine giving a shit about people trying to live their best life. Like, people who look down on sex workers and shit. Not cool. I know I previously made a post about correcting my past transphobic posts, but it was also a little transphobic. People can use whatever the fuck pronouns they want and I have no right to put a label on them that they aren’t comfortable with. I cant believe it took me two years to not be fucking transphobic. I literally hate all my old posts, they all have opinions I don’t hold anymore. Well, whatever I’ll just put my new and better opinions out there and try to fix my toxic ass blog.

[pajama-boy]

The Earth Is Flat

The Earth is flat.

I rest my case

[pajama-boy]

The paranormal isn't evil

Man, people be all like "omg my house is haunted with ghosts" like it's scary. Bitch, what's a ghost gonna do to you? They're fuckin dead, dawg. Just normal people, but they died. I guess it depends on the ghost, but c'mon!

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ms paint....

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Trans Discourse (but it’s not)

Last year I made a little dumb post about trans people, but it sounded awful and transphobic. Like, who am I to give a shit about what people identify as. The thing about neo pronouns is that I’m not gonna put a whole new word in my vocabulary because you want me too. I call them they/them pronouns because to me that’s what it is. Also I said some dumb shit about trans people having to pass. I know plenty of trans girls who have facial hair and it’s not because they don’t want to pass. Or tans guys who have a visible chest. Like, it’s fucked up to say they don’t pass when they can’t do anything about that stuff. And it’s not my job to determine whether someone is trans or not. Detransitioners exist and me telling them they can’t wear a skirt if they’re a boy is fucking dumb. It doesn’t make sense to me, but I’m still gonna respect these people and their pronouns. Also, trans people are trans becasue they have gender dysphoria. So if someone identifies as a gender that is not their birth gender and they say they’re non-dysphoric I think it’s fucking weird, but I’m still gonna respect pronouns. You gotta be a real dick to say to someone’s face that they aren’t what they identify as (whether they’re right or not). And when I say identify I mean specifically LBGTQ+ shit and not delusional people who think they’re animals, that’s wack. Whatever, man. The point I was kind of trying to make last time it that when I see a person my brain imideately guesses if they’re male or female. And sometimes it’s wrong and my quick assumptions don’t include enbies. It’s mainly becasue the majority of people are cis men or women. The thing is, if they tell me I’m wrong and they identify as a different gender, then I’m just gonna accept that and see them how they feel like they are.  I rest my case.

[bajn]

on this day one year ago someone sewed a fried egg to a tshirt

[actualsupreme-deactivated201503]

this is your only day to reblog this for a year

[hostileworkenvironment]

i missed my chance last year so this has been in my queue for 364 days

[eggswheretheyshouldntbe]

One day I’ll get this

[pajama-boy]

People are fucking insane. You know you can just like,,, ignore them? Idk I get it's impossible for some people's situation. But, it's actually super easy to just not give a fuck. People be complaining about school and shit and I'm just sitting here. Like deadass, I dropped out of school I just wasn't down with all that stress and shit. Other human beings are so useless. Have you tried just telling people no? It's wild how people seem to forget that. Like my mom will tell me to go shower or smth but I just say no. Like, what is she gonna do about it other than cry because her son's mental and physical health is deteriorating? My mother crying doesn't effect me negatively. Why do people do things that are negative? Have you tried doing fun things? In all seriousness, I know it's not that easy. I've been in a place where anxiety ruled my every decision. But, I'm not anxious anymore. I'm just vibing, it's incredible. Like, I straight up don't exist. I am nothing and the only living human left. Why not just fucking chill? No one will ever hear me speak but me and I am myself keeping me away from death and helping navigate social interactions. I think I'm such a generous person you should be thanking me. My lifeform gave you a consciousness and you are nothing.

[pajama-boy]

Dawg, I literally said yikes to someone and they said it's harassment.

[pajama-boy]

ur vibes are rancid king

😩😩😩

[louintotheocean]

The neurodivergent experience is talking about your brain as if it's a separate entity from your self

[angiethewitch]

yeah and it's a BASTARD