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Why do I have this feeling na di ako papasa. 💔

You deserve all the happiness in the world yet here I am thinking that he's not the one that will give you all that happiness you deserve.

Before I ask the big question or even before I say yes, I think of all the worst case scenario that may happen once I get into a relationship. I think of the ways we'll break up or even the fights that we may encounter.

I don't know why expect the worst and just forego of the best. It just comes automatically and I don't know if it's good or bad. But when the time comes we eventually break up, I find it emotionally comforting that I expected all of it so I don't become an emotional wreck.

How to disappear and be done with all this shit?

I would like to say thank you to all the people that stayed and became a part of my life this 2017. If not because of you I might not have made it through this year. I thank you for being there even if you were busy but still made time for me.I thank you for the little things you've done for me, it meant a lot. Those little acts that may have meant nothing for you, but was a big deal for me. Just your mere presence makes me happy because it's a time where I don't feel alone and worthless.

I want to say sorry for being tactless most of the time, being the emotional wreck that I am, I say things that I haven't thought about thoroughly. I'm sorry if ever I overstepped within your comfort zone, I didn't intended to do so. If ever it happens again please tell me so that I'll know where to stop. I'm sorry if ever I hurted you physically or emotionally. I know I'm a toxic person to start with and I promise to try my best to be better.

I vow to be a better version of myself this year and I wish you'll still be there to see it.

Happy New Year.

Shattered with no reasons at all.

broken will and soul.

I’ve been very good at being single and because of that I don’t really know how to be in a relationship anymore.

#meh #sht

Who/Where do you to turn to when even your family makes you feel like shit?

The worst thing that alcohol can give you is not the nausea nor the hangover but the fact that you can face your fsar without turning back. Even if it's the worst of the worst, alcohol gives you the courage that's been hidden inside the deepest corners of your heart and mind.

You need to cry sometimes just to calm a weary heart.

Let's just keep that little box of feelings to ourselves.

#prsnlsht

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Gusto kong maranasan na magselos at maparanoid ng wala sa oras, kahit sa mababaw na dahilan.

Gusto kong maranasang magpanggap na magsungit-sungitan dahil sinusuyo ako.

Gusto kong maranasan na umiyak hanggang sa makatulog at magising nang nakangiti kasi nandyan na ang mga “sorry messages” mo.

Gusto ko ring maranasan na makipagkompetensya sa mga taong naunang dumating sa buhay mo.

Gusto ko rin maranasan na maging online stalker at hater sa mga babaeng dumaan sa buhay mo.

Gusto ko rin maranasang mahirapan sa pag-iisip ng pang-surprise sa mga espesyal na araw sa buhay mo.

Gusto ko rin maranasang makatanggap ng flood texts at calls dahil hindi ako makontak.

Gusto ko rin maranasang maghirap para sa taong mahal ko, kahit kapalit nito ang pride ko.

Gusto kong maranasan ang lahat kapag nagmamahal ang isang tao. Sa mga magagandang pangyayari, hanggang sa pinakamasakit kahit sa mga maliliit na detalye. Kasi doon mo mas nararamdaman kung gaano mo kamahal ang isang tao at doon mo rin mas na-appreciate kung gaano ka kaswerte na naranasan mong magmahal. Kasi hindi lahat nabibigyan ng pagkakataon na magmahal. Hindi lahat kasing swerte mo na maranasan ang iba’t ibang pakiramdam ng dahil sa pagmamahal.

I thought I was okay but I guess I'm not.