Palmtree Panic System

Adult - DID system - Trans - Fictionkin Any pronouns (He/They preferred) Will post random things, rants, etc DNI maps, aaps, zoos, necros, endos, proshippers, darkshippers, radqueers/transIDs, TRASH, just whatever tbh. https://palmtreepanicsys.carrd.co/ Side blogs: @system-who-likes-sonic @deck-of-roses @anti-endo-foxs-den @system-sillies .

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Updated Intro

Because fuck it, I can. And yes, I will be deleting the old one.

Hey, I'm Panic. I'm trans (ftm), a DID system, and fictionkin. I go by any pronouns, but I prefer he/they.

This general blog/account name is meant to be a mental health thing, separated from my main account, and an anonymous thing, so that people like my family and irl friends don't have to see me complaining about being a system. I've been mostly talking about DID, but I hope to ramble and joke about other things.

If you want to know my DNIs, and some other bits of information, check out this link. Note that I am an anti endo, among basically every nontraumagenic system and system-like type. Yes, you need severe and/or repeated trauma at a young age in order to become a system, and have the alters that come from systems. Oh, and note that I do block freely. Whatever you say to me will not matter.

Feel free to ask any questions. I don't mind. Share whatever you want, I don't care.

And below, here are my other side blogs. I will update this as I go, assuming I remember to:

@system-who-likes-sonic

@deck-of-roses

@anti-endo-foxs-den

@system-sillies

Have a good day! :)

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Casual Update

Hey, it's (formerly) Cryopathy Zone here. Haven't posted on any of my accounts in months. Mental health has been kicking in hard, and I've been focusing on other things, so I haven't had the motivation to post on Tumblr in quite a while. But I'm going to try to slowly revive my blogs, one at a time.

I'm also changing my system name, which means a tiny bit of rebranding. Going from Cryopathy Zone to Palmtree Panic System. Hope that's chill. Just wanted to base it off of an actual Sonic zone, instead of something random. I got quite the work to do in order to set that all up, so yippee.

Probably the first blogs to be revived will be @anti-endo-foxs-den and @system-who-likes-sonic . The former is due to very important reasons, and will be harder to revive, while the latter is just because it's a blog I had a lot of fun with when I was doing Tumblr, and may motivate me more. I may make another new blog too, but I am unsure if I will connect it to my main or not.

Anyway, I hope you all have a good day/night. And as per usual, don't let the endos bite. :]

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what ???? huh ????? fuh does any of this means ??

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(TW Christianity)

Oh, yeah, no, this is a thing. Before CDDs were fully figured out, there were things called:

"You were burned at the stake because the townspeople thought you were infected by demons."

"You were locked up in a mental hospital for the majority of your life, left to rot in horrible living conditions, and be treated harshly. If you were unlucky, you might've even been lobotomized."

There's likely other examples I just can't think of. But now it's become "You lived in a time where science has advanced, where people can understand your mental health as a result, but nah, people either want to be like you and make themselves mentally unwell, or they want to say you don't exist."

Yeah, endos are weird.

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Being a system is ermmm ummm hrrmmm uhhhhhh hmmmm what was I gonna say again? Must've been the wind.

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This meme has been stuck in my head for a while, because it reminds me of some (pro) nontraumagenics' mindsets. Not all of them, just that specific group of them.

I think about the wrinkles as being the trauma. There's some (pro) nontraumagenics out there who are like "EWWW, you have TRAUMA?? You had HORRIBLE EXPERIENCES at a YOUNG AGE that shaped your BRAIN in horrible ways??! That doesn't make you a REAL system!"

And obviously, there's a lot of (pro) nontraumagenics out there who see being a system as "cute" and "fun". It really isn't, but go off, I guess.

These people don't really think, do they?

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Fellas, what if I'm tempted to make yet another system blog, even though I have multiple, and I'm losing motivation to go onto Tumblr?

I just have an idea that's about talking about silly things that go on in my system. And then other people can talk about silly things that go on in their system if they want to as well. it's just a space to specifically be positive.

But I already have multiple blogs I gotta keep active. One is already dying, and I don't know how to revive it. Another just started. And another is just the silly meme one that doesn't need to be updated as often.

So uhhhh, help???

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I forgot to upload these ones. "Can you see all of me" moment. I wonder if we can walk into his history. Maybe we should step outside, and hold on for dear life. (So many Shadow the Hedgehog references. God, I wanna marry him. /silly) For real though, this one reminds me of Valentine's Day chocolates for some reason. I think it's the color scheme? All I know is I'm hungry now.

Oh, and also there's this one that references a stupid ass meme I made on my @system-who-likes-sonic blog. I thought it was a funny phrase, so why not make it its own userbox outside of the meme, y'know.

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Well, I made more, I suppose. More Sonic character related anti endo userboxes, yippee.

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Fuck it. I made userboxes for the first time.

Yes, I know there's a white line at the left edge. I didn't notice it until I saved all three of them, and I'm too lazy to fix it.

Should I do more? Maybe make some of more Sonic characters, or of other characters in general? I found this to be fun, so like, I dunno.

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Why is my front right now just a bunch of blue hedgehogs and then this one poor fox? What did they do to deserve this? i feel bad for them. He's gotta deal with a bunch of idiots trying to figure out what game we should play. And we keep getting distracted too. This brain is a mess. Too many alters are fronting. Raahhhhhh.

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Keep thinking about this ever since I saw Sophie say it. The oppressed minority society doesn’t want you to talk about: imaginary friends

🥹🥹🥹 kids grow out of imaginary friends because they’re imaginary!!! They’re part of the kids imagination!!!! They help a kid when learning social skills and problem solving and just to have fun with a companion, but tend go away once those needs are met in real life or they grow out of it and don’t have the capacity to carry on that imagination any more. it’s not some repressed thing you have to hide?!?! And this is like saying the tulpa already existed and you’re just silencing them? I thought you intentionally created those? Am I wrong?

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Taking things that are normal to the average person, and turning them into this "special, unique, important thing" that must be looked into, and cannot be ignored is something that, in my opinion, can be used for some pretty bad things. This kind of stuff is used to rope people into these communities, and some people do it on purpose. That type of behavior is something that - and I know this is going to piss people off - I see as predatory.

Now, I'm not saying that every nontraumagenic system is a ruthless predator, trying to rope people into their group to manipulate them. I'm saying that this behavior is not something to be ignored. This behavior is unfortunately seen a decent amount, where people will go "have you looked into plurality for your symptoms?" or "have you tried making your own alters?", and many are unaware that they are contributing to the problem, at least in my opinion. It's become so normalized that it's just what they're supposed to do: Get people in, prevent them from leaving, and make the opposition the worst thing possible.

I find it especially worrying when minors are involved, as well as people with various mental disorders. People who are impressionable are going to be sucked in, and also in some cases may be fairly vocal in the scene. They shouldn't be spending their time worrying about symptoms that they may or may not truly have. In reality, they aren't seeing the options that they could be getting help for, and those improvements could better their life. Do they have a CDD, and are contributing this to something else? Is a different mental disorder confusing them? Or is this simply just them going down a rabbit hole that they struggle to escape, and they need a hand to help them out? Who knows?

I'm betting this is going to be a fairly controversial take. And I don't mind that. Spaces that pretend to be something they're not are harmful. That's just a fact.

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syscourse is the discourse tag. don't use it if you're not interested in arguing. syscourse and dni don't mix unless there's a legitimate reason for a certain group not to interact beyond you just don't want to argue with them in the argument tag (for example a post about littles where you don't want systems without littles interacting)

Hey, so before I state anything on this, I'll just politely say this: I don't intend on using the syscourse tag anymore. Does that make you happy? Is that your intention? I don't know. I just see that it made some people upset that I used the tag in the first place, so I'm just not going to bother with it anymore.

Second, "arguing." You do understand that there are more calmer ways to go about things, right? Now, I haven't explored the tags very much, but based off of what I've seen, I'd assume the syscourse and discourse tags have two purposes: Putting out takes that are more intense, and having the potential to spark a debate, whether it's between that person and someone else, or between other people in the replies or reposts. That's what I gathered.

I see why it can be weird to put a bunch of dnis on there. It was weird for me to do that, I can gather that. But I can see that some takes are not put out just to be debated. The term "discourse" in the dictionary doesn't solely mean "hey, you and I argue over this, okay?" There's going to be people who put dnis in their tags because certain groups are more agitated, or annoying, etc. If those people argue still, that's that. The user can always just block and move on.

As someone who is very odd in the Tumblr space, it's not really worth it to consider this an "argument" or a "rebuttal" of sorts. I'm just trying to show my logic of reasoning, I suppose? I don't know. I'm not good with words sometimes.

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"Nontraumagenic systems" using the term ableism is always so confusing and baffling to me. I genuinely do not understand the logic behind it.

Let's look at just a single google search of the definition of it. One look real quick.

I know that may be confusing to some people, but it's essentially saying "hey, this word means these people discriminate against disabled people." Oh hey, what do you know, CDDs are a mental disorder. And as much as some people may not want to admit it, mental disorders are considered a disability by definition. They are disabiliting to the majority of people who have them. Maybe not everyone, depending on the symptoms, going through therapy, being medicated, etc. But to a good majority of people, they are.

Can some nontraumagenics have their own disabilities other than CDDs? Sure. Let's say your friend Carla with various mental disorders woke up one day, after being too involved in the endo community, and "realized" that they were an endo system. Or maybe an actual traumagenic system got misled into believing they were a nontraumagenic system. Whatever. I'm not gonna get into how nontraumagenic systems often encourage the mentally unwell to believe they're systems, and pull them away from actual help, because meh, this post is long enough.

But, the point I want to make is even though some nontraumagenics are bound to have other mental disorders, us traumagenics are not being ableist towards them just because we say they aren't just like us. Besides, plenty of people who are completely normal end up joining these communities too, and roleplaying our disorder, that we have been dealing with for god knows how long.

If you saw people roleplaying being paralyzed, and being in wheelchairs, and making various fake reasons as to why they're in a wheelchair, and making it all cutesy and quirky, you'd call that ableist, right? So why isn't that the same for a mental disorder that greatly affects people's' day to day lives? Oh, is it because it's the stereotyped disorder that everyone already thinks either doesn't exist or is super quirky? Okay. Cool, cool. Might as well make its reputation worse then.

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Found image of us trying to communicate after we discovered we're getting fast food for dinner:

Whoever is fronting got so excited that he couldn't fucking type. (That's me. I'm the one fronting. I'M SO FUCKING HUNGRY.)

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before finding out you had a complex dissociative disorder, what did you think was going on?

for me, i didnt know what dissociation was at the time, and i thought i was running on autopilot. and as for the alternate personalities, i thought i was code switching or masking my autism.

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Oh boy, this is interesting.

I genuinely didn't even notice that I was communicating between alters. I just thought talking to myself in that alter sense was a "normal" thing people did. I did it too much, but meh, it's whatever, right?

As for memory and dissociation, a former friend convinced me that I had ADHD, so I went with that for years, until i fully realized that no, I didn't have that. Then I chalked it up to my Depression.

I started having intrusive thoughts about having DID. Then, alters attempted to communicate normally (albeit in a weaker sense), only for my therapist to convince me that I didn't have DID. They attempted again in that sense, but they were doing it better, and that's when I realized "oh shit, this is real," despite the heavy denial I was in.

So that's the story. :)

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I feel like if I ever interacted with a tulpamancer irl, it'd be like:

"Hey, so I'm a tulpamancer, and-"

"Are you a Buddhist?"

"What?"

"Do you practice Tibetan Buddhism, and everything under that, or are you using it as a shield to pretend to be like a system, without actually being a system, all while using the guise of it being a "spiritual practice", while it's just appropriating an actual religion?"

"Umm..."

I feel like people forget that tuplas come from appropriating an actual branch of a religion. People are so focused on "ohh, I get to have people in my head!" and not on the fact that they're making fun of people who dedicate their lives to a practice that is so old that they wouldn't be able to comprehend it. I'm not one of those who practice Buddhism, but I can at least respect it, and understand that tulpas are disrespecting those people.

And to think that there's a whole side of "systems" (both people who aren't systems and people who are misled into being part of these communities) who respect these people. This kind of stuff is why I'm on the anti side. :)

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Hey uh, I know this is meant to be a system/mental health blog, but I just want to say Merry Christmas, Happy Holidays, I forget what other holidays are celebrated at this time, but have joy in those too. :)

(I heard that the pro/neu-endos/tulpas/willos/polyminds get coal this year. >:3)