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"I need something bigger than the sky, hold it in my arms and know its mine" - Remember My Name, Mitski.

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Welcome to my blog!

This is where I post my thoughts, rants, and occasionally short analysis on whatever has captured my attention. Besides fandom stuff, I also love listening to music and making oc's, though I likely won't post much about that. I am not consistent whatsoever with how often I post.

Pronouns: She/Her

Age: 16

My Favorite Songs Currently Are: Brutus by The Buttress. Undressed by Sombr. I (Heart) You by KMFDM.

Previous Fandoms: FNAF, Gacha Life/Gacha Club, The Owl House, South Park, Sally Face, Welcome Home, Don't Hug Me I'm Scared, Stranger Things, Poppy Playtime, Moral Orel, Dungeon Meshi(Netflix adaptation), Mob Psycho 100(Netflix adaptation), Dead Plate, The Summer Hikaru Died, Smiling Friends, and probably more that I can't remember at the moment. I am not caught up with any new developments regarding most of these.

Current Fandom(s): Alien Stage (favourites are Till and Ivan).

Note: most of the images I use in my Alien Stage related posts are from the ALIEN STAGE: SEGYEIN ARCHIVE website.

Due to the spontaneous self-destruction of my previous electronic device, I was not able to access my now old account, @pancake-perry, which is why this blog has the same name...but with an additional 2!

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Yikes...kind of abandoned this blog for a while. Sorry for that. I had a slight mental health crisis for a bit and also moved states, so it's been pretty overwhelming these past several months. I'm much better now though! I don't really like the look of this blog anymore so I'll probably change it up soon. I may start posting Alien Stage related stuff again. How frequently I do will depend on my mood.

Remember to take care of yourselves. Have yourself a good night/day. :]

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So...is this going to be an animation?

Set release dates are usually only given to animations (excluding the 3rd anniversary remix).

Speaking of the anniversary remix...the confetti present in the subsong art is very similar to that of the anniversary remix art. Perhaps this points to us getting a mashup of all the characters voices? Whatever it is, I'm sure it'll be absolutely amazing.

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I'm very fascinated by this genre of angry Ivan that bears a striking resemblance to Sua's jealous face.

And while I don't know the context of the shikishi, I do know the context of the first image in which he's making that face.

This one facial expression leads me to believe that Ivan is not as comfortable with his position in Till's life as he appears to be.

Ivan has created a system of caring for Till when he isn't looking and then provoking him when he is. This method of interaction allows for Ivan to maintain a less burdening role(or so he believes) in Till's life while still providing support. He thinks that wanting a more prominent role in the other's life is selfish, so he convinces himself that he is content where he is.

Unfortunately for him and his self hatred, with unrecognized love comes the desire to be recognized. It's only natural for him to want a loving, reciprocated relationship like Mizi and Sua. It's called having human emotions, and you can only bury them for so long before they resurface.

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Imagine entering a self-hatred contest and you see this guy as your opponent.

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People complaining about Till's buzz cut was honestly insane to me...

I personally adore his buzz cut. He's so, so, so gorgeous. I loved his longer hair too, of course. I just think buzz cut Till deserves more love.

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My opinion on the chosen sports for Ivan and Till because Scars made me sad and I want to write about something fun.

(I'm not well versed in sports, so I apologize if anything said here seems uneducated!)

First up is Ivan as a figure skater. It's perfection. I honestly don't think they could've chosen better. Figure skating is such a dramatic yet elegant sport, and I think that fits Ivan's personality really well. I can definitely see him using figure skating as a way to release masked emotions like how he did with song in round 3. I also think figure skating attire fits his already conservative clothing style.

Now let's talk about Till as a basketball player. I like it a mild amount. Not the best, but not the worst. I just feel that we could've had something a lot more interesting(no offence to basketball fans). For example, I could definitely imagine him in high energy sports like hockey, track, or boxing because of how driven and intensely feeling he is.

But my favourite option for Till has to be breakdancing or hip-hop dance. It's intense, expressive, rebellious, and musical. All are traits he possesses. The loose clothing breakdancers often wear also aren't too far off from some of the outfits we've seen Till in.

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Just imagined little Till and Ivan happily playing together in a flower field with the brightest smiles to Heaven by Mitski and devastated myself.

Let the babies be happy!!! :[

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Okay. I'm going to say this now just in case something about this gets revealed later on.

Are we...actually witnessing Till's bisexual awakening in real time? Hear me out, because I know this may sound a bit ridiculous to some. I suspect that Till may have unknowingly had a crush on Ivan.

(Note: This is only a theory! I am not at all claiming this to be undoubtedly true. I simply enjoy considering all possibilities.)

There honestly isn't any concrete proof of this. There is, however, a lot of little details that could be interpreted as Till having some romantic attraction towards Ivan.

let's start with Till's implied bisexuality. The first example that comes to mind is in the "🍴"comic. I believe this is an obvious allegory for his attraction to both women(sweet) and men(plain). Also note that the colors of either option can be associated with Mizi(pink) and Ivan(blue).

Another example can be found as a shikishi. "Dotchi Suki" translates to english as "which one do you like?" ....I'd say this one is self explanatory.

And then there are the recent shikishis that gave me the confidence to consider this idea in the first place. The look on Till's face as he views a prettily posing Ivan reads to me as him realizing something about himself. The blush on his face leads me to believe that what he's feeling might be more than just confusion. Perhaps it's attraction?

I would probably go into more detail about my stated points if I weren't so tired. My apologies for this being so brief! I plan to touch on this topic more soon.

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Basketball player Till and figure skater Ivan. Yeah, that's cool enough...

But have you considered....HOCKEY PLAYER TILL and figure skater Ivan!? They could be ice boyfriends...!!! ˃◡˂

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What I find so tragic about Ivan and Till's relationship is that they very well could have worked out if it weren't for their awful communication.

They could have had an amazing friendship. I don't think it's unreasonable to say that they could have even become lovers.

Ivan and Till complement each other. Their eye colors(green and red) are complementary colors like Mizi and Sua's are. I definitely believe that this was an intentional choice.

Till's fiery but sweet personality contrasts with Ivan's obedient and sometimes apathetic behavior. This creates a dynamic that has the potential to work well either platonically or romantically.

Their strengths and weaknesses also differ in a way that could be very beneficial to one another.

For example, Ivan often struggles to identify gestures of affection because the places in which he grew up lacked examples of it. This leads to a lot of misunderstandings within their relationship.

Till, however, did have these examples thanks to his time with Io. These unique experiences give him the ability to help Ivan better understand how love can be effectively given and received.

Till is afraid of being outwardly vulnerable due to the mistreatment he's endured throughout his life. He's been vulnerable before, and he was punished for it, so he avoids openly expressing love, hurt, concern, etc.

But if he did have a safe space where he knew it was okay to have those complex emotions, I believe he would be much more prone to open communication. Ivan has the patience to provide that safe space. He just needs to learn how to apply it instead of using his current method of rage baiting(which of course, Till could teach him how to do).

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Their weaknesses are what made their relationship so painful, and their strengths are what could make it amazing. With understanding and dual effort, I could see it being a much happier and healthier relationship(or at least as healthy as a relationship can get in Alien Stage.)

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OH MY GOSH!!??? 😭

Like give me a second I'm STILL recovering from the anniversary remixes.

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Oh my God there's so many help I wasn't ready for this

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I'm sorry but every time I see this official artwork of them it reminds me of this meme

It's such a gorgeous piece of mizisua art but I can't help but giggle whenever I see it

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I feel like Till's low self-esteem isn't talked about enough.

Sure, he may seem bold on stage. And his defiance towards those who challenge him is one of his most unique traits. But determination and aggression do not equate to confidence.

In fact, he's pretty submissive around those that aren't actively trying to annoy or hurt him. He apologizes for accidentally bumping into Acorn and is quite shy around people. This leads me to believe that his aggression is more of a defense mechanism than it is real confidence.

Behind the tough exterior he uses to protect himself is an emotional mess.

This official comic is what really inspired me to make this post. It's titled TILL Behind. I personally interpret it as a sort of behind the scenes into Till as a character and artist.

In the comic, he struggles to correctly sing the lyrics of Unknown (Till The End...). He becomes frustrated and appears to break down in tears, saying that he's garbage. I found this rare moment of vulnerability very interesting. Correct me if I'm wrong, but I don't recall ever seeing him praise himself or his work either. I think he's a lot more emotionally unwell than he let's on.

So...where do these feelings of inadequacy originate from? Well, let's take a look at how he's been treated throughout his life.

From a very young age, Till has been handled like an especially bitey dog. The stickers on the glass of his adoption cell in this image are extremely dehumanizing. The discount sticker is essentially saying that he is even less than what humans already are to the aliens. To the aliens, he is nothing but a hassle.

To be viewed so negatively for simply being human and defending yourself must have been incredibly damaging. Even more so because he was still a developing child.

And then he was entered into a competition where if you weren't good enough, you would be killed. I'm sure that didn't help.

This is stated quite bluntly by Urak himself in the Guardian Interview. Urak literally says that if Till weren't as talented as he was, he would be dead. Till does not matter to them outside of his musical talent.

The way you are viewed by others often affects your own perception of yourself. No matter if they are people you despise. I definitely believe that this is an important aspect of his character that should be discussed more.

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Till's room(I'm assuming this is his room) makes me so sad...

It's basically a top security prison cell. It's huge but has nothing in it except Till, a few scattered papers, and a single pencil. I'll bet he doesn't even have a bed. He probably just sleeps on the cold tile floor. There are cameras constantly watching him and a massive gap in the wall with prison bars. He is given ZERO privacy.

FOR THE LOVE OF GOD at least give him a comfortable bedroom to crash into after being horribly abused and surviving actual hell

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Isaac is such a mother I swear

I truly believe that he is the main reason Hyuna and Dewey managed to get so far