Solely Trying My Best

Just a little journal.

[anxietyproblem]

[kosmogrl]

[happyheidi]

Photo by Azad Balabanian

[positivelyqueer]

Don’t let your insecurities deny people their agency to choose. Even if you think you don’t deserve it, or you don’t understand why, let people decide to love you, to decide to look after you, to decide to help you.

[disturbedlolita]

[konoko]

[perfectquote]

“Nothing’s changed. You’ll go home. You’ll be bored. You’ll be ignored. No one will listen to you, really listen to you. You’re too clever and too quiet for them to understand. They don’t even get your name right.”

— Neil Gaiman, Coraline

[positivelyadhd]

learning how to handle rejection is so important, especially with rsd. because as scary as it can be, rejection is a part of life and spending your time running away from it will do more long term damage than experiencing and learning how to experience rejection in the short term.

[thoughtkick]

“My life is a struggle between my need for acceptance, my fear of rejection, and a desire to not care at all.”

— Unkown

[thoughtkick]

“So much of what we learn about love is taught to us by people who never really loved us.”

— r.h. Sin

[ousia-poetica]

I want to listen to songs, watch series that go against what is politically correct. Art prints by alar iko

[imp-deactivated20171219-deactiv]

when people say my name im like.   cant believe i exist

[memoryslandscape-deactivated202]

“The number of hours we have together is actually not so large. Please linger near the door uncomfortably instead of just leaving. Please forget your scarf in my life and come back later for it.”

— Mikko Harvey, from “For M,” Foundry (no. 9, September 2018)

[gldgod]

here we go again . i’m not asking - scratch that , i am . i am asking with every ounce of my body for this love to last . i know most people won’t understand the way i am . & maybe you don’t either . but fuck , please let me be in a good way for you . for us . so that one day i can say with almost no resistance that we are everything , & forever . please god , give me the strength to fall into the pit of love’s swords , uncaring of whether i will die , if only she knows that i would die for her . i do not want to be afraid . i want to love her how she is loved in her fantasies . i want our love to be the one light - the melding of two lights - if ever the world goes dark . i want us to feel as if nothing can come between us ; nothing of substance .

[int-shaku-deactivated20201101]

there are nights where i question it all

[1ipgloss]

https://www.instagram.com/p/CLaM0qQlUMb/

[quotemadness]

“Just be fucking honest about how you feel about people while you’re alive.”

— John Mayer