My void

--BEING HAPPY IS REALLY FUCKING HARD BUT IM STILL TRYING I SWEAR-- 18/gay/NY cus i dont wanna say my name

[ghosttalks-deactivated20241115]

[the-moon-whisperer]

[xstrauma]

[reblog or like only | do not save/repost]

[cwote]

Are you hurting right now? I’m sorry. Times can get bad. Life can sometimes be down right shitty. Maybe you relapsed for the first time, or even the tenth time. Maybe you had a panic attack and isolated yourself from friends and family today. Maybe you’re someone who thinks they don’t have any friends or family to care about them. For whatever it is you’re going through, I want you to take a deep breath, fuck it, take 5 deep breaths. In through your nose and out through your mouth. Relax. Remain calm. You can do this. Life will go on and you need to be around to see what happens next, okay?

[mental-ch-illness]

shoutout to my favorite coping mechanism, isolation

[beskt]

[julykings]

having a body sure is strange! / insta

[theonlyliar]

I’m a bad person..

[thegoodvybe]

[cupid-in-love]

Nothing, really.

[panikkkked]

5/5/19

ive been isolating myself so fucking much lately and i cant stand to do anything. im broke as shit, im failing all my classes, i feel absolutely horrible. i want to stay cutting again but i really really dont. i feel like i should go to the hospital because im really worried about myself but im so busy and i have so much to do. but it doesnt matter cus im not doing any of the things i have to do. so im incredibly stressed but i cant focus to do anything and i feel like a fucking failure all the time and i know i have depression but why cant i just do anything why am i so fucking lazy and i want to die so lets go im gonna drop out of school and then drop off a cliff.

[disabilityuserboxes]

this user has intense self doubt due to years of gaslighting  

[youresafenow]

only taking care of yourself

when you ‘deserve it’

is like only watering a plant

when it rains

[sometimes-now]

[parentless-suggestions]

it fucked me up when it hit me how i’ve internalized my abuse. when it hit my that kids laughing and playing with their parents is genuine. that wives and husbands being in love wasn’t a ruse. when it hit me that others doing favors for me weren’t so i could owe them, that i don’t have to clean up after everyone, that i don’t need to explain myself all the time. it fucked me up so bad that i’ve never been loved enough in my childhood to know this. i cried for hours when it hit me.

[mercury]

[rose-burn]

now im nothing just like before // 6.27.17

[amonethh]

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