paper, please

handwritten letters and words never spoken, always yearning to be read, always wanted to be heard Ruth F. x

[paper-please]

I fell for him. As the sun set, I let him go and move on. Only to fall again as the sun rose.

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i am crying now even maybe that you're still here all these other boys but you're the only one that i want to love and when i love, there is death so i grieve now because it always ends the same way. - @paper-please

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there were no words ever enough to explain

it was more than your exhausted soul and my innocent heart

the years that built their walls between us

walls that we managed to tear down

over meaningful conversations

whiskey for me, rye for you

walls that crumbled while we held hands

late night cab rides

i probably cared more than i should have

especially now that you're with her

i keep wondering what she's like

and if we could have worked out

if only i was older

- paper-please

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But could I bargain with the universe for you? - paper-please

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God is love, they said.

That is the reason why I sometimes found it difficult to believe.

In those times,

I didn’t feel loved.

- paper-please

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“Beauty is a curse.. the same way that love is.”

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Ask me to dance, my love

I’ll let all my guard down

Teach me how to breathe

With the air coming out

Of your mouth

- paper-please

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repressing my thoughts

holding back my emotions

the more i silence my voice

they somehow find it through

growing with every flower

bleeding with every pen

✿

- paper-please

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Every time I write stories about you, I end up writing about me.

- paper-please

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Nobody has ever made me feel the way he did. And I keep craving for what we had, even for just a second.. to feel it again. 

He was my summer.

- paper-please

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“Whatever happens, I am still going to lose him, mother.” I paused.

“Do you understand how much it hurts to know that I will lose him no matter what I do?”

- paper-please

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I miss someone.. a stranger. Somebody from a different time, a different place.

- paper-please

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Loving him is like smoking, you know? You know exactly how you’ll end up -- heart disease, lung disease, cancer or even death. But you still light up a cigarette.. one stick after another.

- paper-please

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You

the pain cuts through the thought of never being able to hold you i'd have to swim through oceans and tides just to reach you images of you fill my mind almost every second of everyday i have to stop pulling on the string the thin, little one that connects me to you but without you there would be no pain, no emotion that fuels me and i do not know what could be worse than having to write but not about you - paper-please

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I see an impeccable beauty in words. I love arranging them, putting them right beside each other.. like your name and mine.

- paper-please

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He was everywhere and nowhere at all. My soul longs for him.. But all I could do is write.

- paper-please, 'Ghost Stories of you'