lonelyhermit

BLOGS OF THOUGHTS ON LIFE AND SOME POETRY

[paramesvaranpillay]

Never read War and Peace

I have a copy but have never read War and Peace. The Paperback in black and gold cover is still new after more than a decade.

Anyway being a lonely hermit when I suffer with Bipolar Mood disorder (Schizoaffective Disorder) has taken it's toll.

I WANT an END no love means I to to die soon sooner the better.

Maybe the infinite universe of the afterlife has love to offer?

PEACE*

[paramesvaranpillay]

Faith

when things are doomed

fear not, he is there

if you are in pain and want to despair

Stop just there, he is there

when love seems far and forgotten

and you want to cry

Stop just there, he is there

Clouds may cover the daylight

but He is always there!

Sit still and BE quite

Feel him He is there

He is your mother, he is your father

He is the air, the sun, the fire, the water, the earth, the ether and all the beauty everywhere

Love him, Love his first, The One, his Son

have Faith

For all will be Alright!

[paramesvaranpillay]

May this be a year of truth, healing and continued good feels. #RoshHashana #ShanahTovah (at Durban, KwaZulu-Natal) https://www.instagram.com/p/B3AUS_Sgkne/?igshid=5oobn7xti3w4

[paramesvaranpillay]

Soul = Heart = Source of Creation = Treasure (at Planet Earth) https://www.instagram.com/p/B2otJFuAvpZ/?igshid=w3hhvs4xyr1j

[paramesvaranpillay]

May/June Vlog #mentalhealth #schizoaffectivedisorder #vlog #risperidone #autumn #autumnevening #hospitalvisit #publichealthcare #positiveandupbeat #upbeat #positivethinking #sleep #3hourssleep (at Reservoir Hills, Kwazulu-Natal, South Africa) https://www.instagram.com/p/ByF1uP1BtYT/?igshid=s2cqev4v3g60

[paramesvaranpillay]

Lose to gain unlimited potential, the leaving of Chakras from my body. #chakra #chakras #crownchakra #pinkchakra #beinghuman #unlimitedpotential #etherealbody #body #spiritualgrowth (at Reservoir Hills, Kwazulu-Natal, South Africa) https://www.instagram.com/p/BqW_48mg8ZJ/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=12k5ggdz7db32

[paramesvaranpillay]

Free your mind by releasing negativity in form tension from your body

Paramesvaran

[paramesvaranpillay]

My Last Swatch. Relaxing on my own. #swatch #relaxing #onmyown (at Reservoir Hills, Kwazulu-Natal, South Africa) https://www.instagram.com/p/Bp_kRyOgjsE/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=14ew635yn5nt8

[paramesvaranpillay]

Happy Diwali, Happy Deepavali followers. Light at Sunrise and Sunset. Lamps and fireworks at night to celebrate in dark times of life. #diwali #deepavali #peace #lightanddarkness #lamps #fireworks #celebrationoflife (at Reservoir Hills, Kwazulu-Natal, South Africa) https://www.instagram.com/p/Bp1p7_kg__x/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1ev93rmxwa3lo

[paramesvaranpillay]

Good start to another day in paradise. #sunrise #Durban #DurbanSkies #goodmusic #philcollins #coldplay #bastilleband (at Reservoir Hills, Kwazulu-Natal, South Africa) https://www.instagram.com/p/BpyHZnIBrtc/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1pqyhvjxmkfgb

[paramesvaranpillay]

See love in the war for it's what is worth fighting for

Paramesvaran

[paramesvaranpillay]

Belief. #belief #lovingparents #surrender #thenextsixyears #sixyearsago #today #11October 2018 #love #healing #newperspective #true (at Reservoir Hills, Kwazulu-Natal, South Africa) https://www.instagram.com/p/BozEDEpAIVw/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1l4ll8uglmnsq

[paramesvaranpillay]

Sunrise yesterday 26/09/2018 #sunrise #earth #gloriousday #newbeginnings #everyday #durbanskies #durban #lookingeast (at Reservoir Hills, Kwazulu-Natal, South Africa) https://www.instagram.com/p/BoOb7RzgJK5/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=7i68htsbica6

[paramesvaranpillay]

Good mental health so Important! #schizoaffective #audiohallucinations #manicepisodes #bipolar #positiveselfimage #holdingon #patience (at Reservoir Hills, Kwazulu-Natal, South Africa) https://www.instagram.com/p/BnWKGjygagF/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1c7d6m9khp4lz

[paramesvaranpillay]

Great actions start with small steps

[paramesvaranpillay]

March 2018 Video #driving #beingcareful #rain #greetings #stayinginonfridaynight (at Reservoir Hills, Kwazulu-Natal, South Africa)

[paramesvaranpillay]

Villians Clause

music the breaker

breaker beaker

list mess

peace bliss

horns and trumpets

Fire and Ice

hot days sleepless nights

bad to the bone

dareness the bareness

white and black

Villians Clause

knots the mouse, cats out to play

people from other lands

Men Women together Apart

Panic calmness stillness

free votes being and well-being

Tailor and clothes

worms books bird-call