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independent NICK LANE from FRINGE    /     oc and crossover friendly

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Fingers always curled into fists, ready for a fight, ready to kill. YOU ARE HOME, ARE SAFE, MY LOVE, you whisper to me:  YOU ARE NO LONGER AT WAR. My clothing is armour. My smile is my war-paint. (Will I ever be at peace? Will I ever stop being at war?) Hold me close. Calm my soul with a lullaby. (YOU ARE HOME, YOU ARE SAFE. YOU DO NOT NEED TO BE AFRAID.) I will always be at war, I think: Every step is to the beat of a drum. Our house is a battle-ground; I was raised a fighter. I was raised a warrior. YOU CAN STOP FIGHTING, you say. I have been fighting since I was a child: I do not know who I am without a war. I do not know who I am when peace is here. YOU ARE NO LONGER A SOLDIER:  LAY DOWN YOUR ARMS. But I cannot; my mother left me no choice but to fight. My father did not come to my aid. I have become my own battle ground. I cannot lay down my arms, for they have become part of me.

The war is over, but I have been fighting for too long to know what peace is. (CNS)

[rileyssblue]

Look, I know they’re watching.

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❝ the future is wide and wild and full of promise, but it is precarious, too. ❞

idk this was a meme from literally months ago that i’m just getting to now because i am actually the worst     /     if you can find it and wanna send it be my guest

    the smile nick flashes her is more  tired  than anything else, his laugh hollow, void of any real humor.  idly, and with the masochism of the man who holds his hand above open flame, he wonders what it must be like, to have that sort of optimism, to believe that the future held such a thing as promise.  precarious, he can understand  —  the end of everything had loomed on his horizon since childhood  —  but the rest? 

    a familiar sort of despair stirs, an unwelcome being trapped beneath his ribcage, clawing for release, for permission to flood his system with acidic emotion, and it’s only through sheer force of will that keeps it from spilling out  ( only he deserves this.  he can’t risk bleeding over, can’t risk infecting her like he has so many others ). 

    he’s been quiet too long, he realizes quickly   god, why can’t he handle a converstation? he’s so pathetic.   

         " i uh… i guess that’s one way of looking at it.“

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[izkim]

[polyarnye-nochi-blog]

“forget? he never forgets. he doesn’t forget the ghosts in his lungs or the skeletons in his closet. he doesn’t forget when he wakes up screaming and he never forgets as he falls to his bloody knees finished to the bone. don’t ask him if he forgets because he never forgets. he’ll never forget this.”

— night terrors. (via alleyspat)

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mercury | sleeping at last

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ooc     /     so ,  while i stop myself from binge watching stuff all night, how about a soft plotting call?  hit the heart and i’ll pop into your ims to plot something !

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“  REVERSE EMPATH. THAT’S WHAT JONES TOLD ME I’D BECOME. THAT MY EMOTIONS WERE CONTAGIOUS.     /     independent and selective  nick lane  from  fringe.  as loved by chris.  oc and crossover friendly!

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❝ c’mon. it’s fucking freezing and i’m not leaving you out here alone. ❞

‘ if we were villians ’   sentence starters     /     accepting

she was far enough away that nick had to lengthen the reach of his abilities, searching her words over for any hint of smugness or guilt that might indicate deception   ( not in regards to the cold  —  even with the programming still littered through his broken brain that demanded he not acknowledge it, he was still at least peripherally aware of the temperatures plummeting towards zero  —  it was a  trap  he was worried about ). 

        “ you’re  s.h.i.e.l.d. ”   a statement, not a question.  given, it wasn’t a statement he had any  proof  to back up, but he wasn’t aware of any other reason a person would be picking through the remains of a hydra base in siberia.  hell, he wasn’t sure any other organization would have the nerve to do so.

       “ why would you help me? ”   true, he wasn’t quite as recognizable as hydra’s more… prominent  asset, but he was quite sure his  s.h.i.e.l.d.  file was sizable in it’s own right, and it went against what he’d learned with his every encounter with the agency that they might offer aid to an unknown quantity.  he was sure this woman had an ulterior motive, but finding it was another story, and his hand twitched towards his gun reflexively. 

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random ass headcanon that i have  absolutely no  justification for :  in the averted timeline, i like to believe that nick  ( possibly with amber!sally clark )  was the one to eventually find etta and more or less adopt her, first because he was seeking atonement for his time spent being manipulated by jones, and then later because he’d come to genuinely love her as his own.  he followed her into the resistance, but had been killed a few years before 2036.

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Sleeping At Last - Mars 

we were full of life, we could barely hold it in. we were amateurs at war, strangers to suffering

there is goodness in the heart of every broken man who comes right up to the edge of losing everything he has.

we were young enough to sign along the dotted line now we’re young enough to try to build a better life.

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WHICH GREEK GOD / GODDESS DO YOU REFLECT THE MOST?

your result: athena

athena is the goddess of wisdom, craft, and war in ancient greek religion and mythology. in later times, athena was syncretized with the roman goddess minerva.  athena was portrayed as having a calm temperament, and moving slowly to anger.  she was believed to only fight for just causes and never fight without a purpose.

TAGGED BY     /     @anxietytorn TAGGING     /     @diisplacement, @agentlee,  @lanternknight  && whoever else wants to !

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I’ll be good, I’ll be good And I’ll love the world, like i should Yeah I’ll be good, I’ll be good For all the times that I never could

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Words cannot describe how much I love this song. Absolutely incredible.

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cont.

“Ha, aren’t I familiar with that.” He huffs out a semi-bitter chuckle, then he sighs and reaches up to clap a hand on the other’s shoulder. “Sorry to hear about that, bud, sounds rough. If you ever wanna talk it out more, I’m more than fine with listening.” He offers.

nick doesn’t mean to  stiffen  the moment peter’s hand clasps over his shoulder, really, he doesn’t.   peter’s been far kinder to him than he deserves.  nick has no right to quail at his touch.  ( after all, it’s  him  who’s the monster here, not the younger bishop )  shame flares scarlet through him and he does his best to swallow it down before it can crackle into the air around them. 

        “  thanks, peter.  really. ”

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        “everyone you may love will cease to exist.”

                                                                                                “everyone i love?”

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NAME:  NICK LANE SEX:   MALE DATE OF BIRTH:   10.12.79 PLACE OF BIRTH:   JACKSONVILLE, FL PATIENT NO:   883944 000933740122 DATE OF ADMISSION:   3.18.98 DIAGNOSIS:   GENERALIZED & SOCIAL ANXIETY DISORDER, OCD,                          EMOTIONAL DISREGULATION, MAJOR DEPRESSION, PTSD,                          INSOMNIA, ANXIETY WARD:   6 SUPERVISING PHYSICIAN:   A. MILLER STATUS:   RELEASED 2.23.08

“He had a kind of brightness to him.”

“Intelligent?”

“Yes quite, but that’s not what I mean. He had an emotional brightness. If he was happy, he would light up a room. Sad, he was like a black hole that would suck you right down with him.  Hyper-emotive is the clinical term. Put simply, his affect was highly infectious.”