im a little paranoid

a suggestion for all things paranoia! feel free to send in suggestions, tips, or thoughts you need to get out!

[paranoidsuggestions]

HI!! I’m so sorry for my absence, I forgot my login info and just didn’t have the patience to look through my 534634 emails for it for a while

[paranoidsuggestions]

hi friend, your blog makes me feel so much better about my paranoia and my recent complex ptsd diagnosis. so i donno i'm bad at words but thank you for doing this thing <3

AHHHH thank you so much!! this means so so so much to me, i love asks like this. esp like here lately when im busy and not even around much. thank you <3

[paranoidsuggestions]

(lol I hope me sending ask after ask isn't annoying :,,) I'm trying to talk through my paranoia but mayybbbee that would be better if I actually messaged you instead of starting to spam people who follow you) THANK YOU!!!! It is always good to think of the things that made you happy in the past, even if it is writing sweet words for a person you never really met, but who helped you so much

no trust me ur not annoying. but haha, it might be! you can send messages off anon, or you can IM me @candybaa if ud like! 

and aww ur so soft and sweet omg,, i know ive said that before but i honestly suck at talking to people heh x)

[paranoidsuggestions]

I was like "wow I haven't felt this paranoid in a while,, wait" then I remembered this blog and it just made me smile :) I really like poetry and making others feel good but sometimes I feel like mine isn't "real" poetry so knowing people like it is vvv nice, idk why I like your blog/you so much, you just seem like a kind soul, like the sort that offers up their jacket to a friend so quickly, or finds solace in something like lifting their arms when the wind blows, although it is just wind.

aww, im so glad you remember me and that it made you happy!! you’re so kind and soft ahh..

haha, i like to think im that kind of person at least! realistically im more the person that sees a cold friend and offers them my jacket while calling them a dumbass (which just to clarify, in my friend groups we know who all is okay with such terms, its like endearments lol)

which, yknow, close enough!!

but omg yeah i love your poetry?? its very nice!!

[paranoidsuggestions]

(Not sure if this blog is dead?) you remember pda anon? The one who took the blush meme to the next level? Welp that's me and I was going to write something sweet but I can't rn because I'm PARANOID AS HELL so I'm just droppin by to say hey, you're a cool kid, still worthy of my poetry I just don't have any rn (maybe I'd compare you to the methodical and cooling swing of a ceiling fan, breaking the silence at night and keeping my heart from overheating underneath the blanket that is my body)

AHHHH PDA ANON!! I REMEMBER YOU!! Glad to hear from you again! Sorry you’re feelin paranoid D:

And yeah lol this blog’s kinda dead. I’ve seen it still be used as a good resource for people though, so I’m glad about that at least.

I hope you feel better!!

[mazarinesuggestion]

i am blue.

a ghost, a hum, a whisper. a lullaby. a muse. a rebel. a champion. a work of art. bright sunlight & stained glass. a poem in motion. an ocean. a butterfly.

i am a galaxy caught in a body caught in a whirlwind. i am a girl in love with a goddess. with soft smiles and gentle hands. i am tethered to this meadow. i fought like hell. i have scattered myself like a supernova & i am waiting for all of the pieces of me to flutter back home.

i am blue. blurred & burred & blooming. always blooming.

welcome.

[paranoidsuggestions]

Da Ba Dee Da Ba Die

[mazarinesuggestion]

IM LAUGHING THIS IS BRILLIANT THANK U

[paranoidsuggestions]

YOURE WELCOME ADGBDGD GLAD U ENJOYED

[paranoidsuggestions]

Hi guys!

One of my friends needs some help. They previously identified as a trans guy, and began to transition. Now, however, they are nonbinary and more fem presenting.

They want to see if there are others that share this experience, and the experience of being transitioned and not fitting into their agab spaces/experiences sometimes. Like not looking like their agab to the point of people thinking they’re a different agab (in this case, looking like an amab person despite being afab and fem presenting)

They don’t want to intrude on trans women’s spaces or intersex spaces, so they specifically want help to know what to do and what words describe their experience, as well as talking to people who share this experience if possible.

We brought up “detranstioned”and that’s not a bad term, but since it’s used so much in terf spaces it’s really not a permanent fix.

A quote from them:

"anything regarding detransitioned previously binary-identified nonbinary people that doesn't involve terfs"

[mazarinesuggestion]

i am blue.

a ghost, a hum, a whisper. a lullaby. a muse. a rebel. a champion. a work of art. bright sunlight & stained glass. a poem in motion. an ocean. a butterfly.

i am a galaxy caught in a body caught in a whirlwind. i am a girl in love with a goddess. with soft smiles and gentle hands. i am tethered to this meadow. i fought like hell. i have scattered myself like a supernova & i am waiting for all of the pieces of me to flutter back home.

i am blue. blurred & burred & blooming. always blooming.

welcome.

[paranoidsuggestions]

Da Ba Dee Da Ba Die

[paranoidsuggestions]

My anxiety (already diagnosed) has increased to the point of paranoia (I guess? Not diagnosed) and I'm really hesitant to bring it up w/ my therapist because he's such a therapist about it? He seems more focused on how things started than how to make them stop. Idk

Ooh, yeah that happens. Either anxiety can increase to paranoia or further looking at anxiety symptoms can reveal paranoia or any number of things, really.

And while I’m no longer with her, my therapist was kind of the opposite. She wanted to stop all my symptoms without ever really caring what started them/what the causes were.

So I guess my point is, try and find a middle ground with him. Maybe bring up that you’d like to treat the symptoms along with find out why it happens. Because tbh that just makes the most sense, anyways? Learn coping techniques while you deal with your shit tbh.

So yeah, don’t necessarily try to get him to totally reconsider it (it might not work and also it might not be best!) but make your voice heard. The worst he can do is not listen, honestly. But at best, he could take that into account and possibly help you more. Maybe he doesn’t know it’s such a problem to you!

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please help

i really really did not want to do this but.

hello, my name is seren. i’m a mentally ill, gay, trans minor who is currently trapped in an abusive home. my father passed away on november 4th, 2016 when he choked on a fentanyl patch, which he was taking to help prevent the pain caused by the tumors on his pituitary gland and the back of his brain. ever since he passed away, i have been living with my mother. my dad had sole custody over me, but since he passed, that very obviously wasn’t the case anymore. 

my mother and i have never, ever gotten along. she is borderline abusive, if not such. not only am i living with an abuser, i am also now living in a two bedroom condo in which i am sleeping on the couch. there are five people living in this condo, and tensions are incredibly high. there have been at least three fights in which one of my brothers, my mom, and my mom’s girlfriend have gotten in a fight which has lead to my brother either trying to kill himself or run away, all of which i was exposed to.

the school i am in is shoddy at best, forcing me to retake every class i had already begun to take in my school in virginia. pretty much every day i am taunted and made of constantly for my situation, and on numerous occasions i have faked illness just so i didn’t have to go to school.

despite these conditions, my mother insists that i stay here in florida with her and my brothers. my father’s fiancee, laurel, has very openly expressed that she is incredibly willing to take me in and adopt me. this request was also my dad’s last wish. in his texts with laurel, he had said that if he were to die, laurel should take me in and care for me in his absence. however, since the two had yet to be married, my mother refuses to allow me to live with laurel despite the fact she has a 3 and a half bedroom home, and the money to actually take care of me.

april 8th through the 15th is my spring break. my mother has said that she is willing to allow me to visit laurel during this break, however she does not have the money to take care of plane tickets. 

being able to visit laurel over spring break could quite literally mean life or death with me. since my father passed, i have been ungodly depressed and suicidal. i have made three attempts on my own life since that day. i cannot keep living in this home safely, and the trip to laurel’s house over spring break may possibly make it so my mother allows me to stay with her. if i cannot live with laurel, i am not willing to keep living in this situation.

that’s where your help comes in. i really, really need money for plane tickets before march 25th so i can be able to book the tickets in time. please, i am begging for help at this point. they’ll cost $465 dollars for both me and my brother to go, because my mom will not allow me to go by myself. you can donate to my paypal here >  PayPal.Me/serencapestany or i also have commissions open here

please help me. i really need this opportunity so i don’t have to keep living in this horrible home, please.

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please reblog this. even if you can’t donate, please just get the word out.

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please dont stop reblogging this

[paranoidsuggestions]

Im so sorry y’all idk what the fuck this blog is at this point

I’m gonna look into getting another mod or two again! I’m gonna ask some friends first, and then i might set up an application on here.

In the meantime, feel free to send in suggestions or any paranoia related tips you have! i need to get a queue set up.

[roughsexualsuggestions]

The definition of trans is not identifying with your sex. Nonbinary people, by definition, are trans, whether you believe in them or not, the concept is the same.

And the goal of being trans is transitioning. What is there to transition to? You can’t. There are plenty of trans people I know who will tell you nonbinary is simply a mockery of them and it’s wrong. Are you going to speak for them? Do you care about trans people so little you’d speak over actual trans people with dysphoria?

[xsuggestion]

There is no universal “goal of being trans”. And nonbinary people have had surgeries and taken hormones before. I know of a nonbinary person who had top surgery but doesn’t want to do anything else.

There are plenty of trans people I know who will tell you thinking that is transphobic and wrong. Are you going to speak for them? Do you care about trans people so little you believe you have a say in the requirements of being trans?

[roughsexualsuggestions]

I don’t decide what’s required to be trans. But medical practice does. And other trans people do. And you’re speaking for and over all the people who I’m repeating. Because that’s all I’m doing.

Like I said, my opinion is neither here nor there and I don’t care about the trans community in so far as to say I’ve got no personal stake in it. I’m not trans, none of my close friends are… I meet trans people all the time but I just haven’t developed close relationships you know. So I’m indifferent. I’m just repeating what the trans people I’ve talked to on here and irl say.

[xsuggestion]

lmao and you’re speaking for and over all the people I’M repeating

Anyway, I just wanted to know you’d seen everything about what I had to say. Stop treating sleepysuggestions like shit, they’re a good person. Bye.

[paranoidsuggestions]

Hey OP if you’re not trans you opinion doesn’t matter, like, at all.

Also, nonbinary people can experience dysphoria because their gender is different than their assigned one. Nonbinary people can bind, change their pronouns, want to dress a certain way, and any number of other things. What do you think transistioning is? If you’re thinking surgery is the only thing then you’re wrong, because there are binary trans people that don’t have surgery or don’t want hormones.

I personally don’t believe dysphoria is necessary to be trans at all, and a LOT of trans people--binary and nonbinary alike--agree with me. Here’s a good artcle about it [link]

Here is another one, and this one shows how the idea that dysphoria is necessary hurts binary and nonbinary people alike. [link]

Requiring dysphoria is harmful. It’s damaging. Requiring dysphoria implies that for someone to truly be the gender they are, they need to want the societal stereotypical parts of the gender they are. 

We cannot be happy with our bodies.

 Requiring dysphoria, especially genital dysphoria, implies women cannot happily have penises. Men cannot happily have vaginas. Non-binary people cannot happily exist ever, due to how society dictates and enforces the binary. This idea that dysphoria is necessary to exist as a trans person reinforces the outdated notion that the only ‘true’ trans people are those who wish to have genitals that stereotypically conform to the societal notion of what being a man/woman is. It removes non-binary people from existence, yet again, through this notion.

Saying that medical practice desides who is trans is really harmful. The idea that nonbinary genders aren’t real is also racist in the fact that it erases culture and ethnic specific genders.

Anyways, I’m not going to reply to any discourse against this because as a trans person with dysphoria cis people don’t get to talk over me.

[paranoidsuggestions]

As a trans person thank you for that post I always wonder if blogs that aren't centered around issues within the community are homo-/transphobic so thank you

You’re welcome! I try to keep my opinions vocal on stuff like this because I know what you mean about not knowing where someone stands on an issue.

Of course the last “issue” i was vocal on was pineapple on pizza but... We all have our things...

[paranoidsuggestions]

this blog is not terf friendly

and it never will be

[paranoidsuggestions]

i support u and your pineapple on pizza

thank you <3

[paranoidsuggestions]

my mom says i cant get another diagnosis (im 13, i have severe anxiety and depression) for anything else because i have a "severe case of adolescence." yes. i am severely infected. watch out, i am contagious

Ngl I didn’t answer this at first because “watch out, i am contagious” made me smile in the way that I feel like you’re my little sibling being a smartass behind our parents’ backs.

As for help, I’d say try and just consistently bring it up/show a considerable pattern in your behavior/beliefs that she can see. Also perhaps see about asking your doctor about the situation if you can. Maybe you can convince them, and they can convince her!

[paranoidsuggestions]

I will eat an entire pineapple on top of a pizza. Don’t try me on this.

[paranoidsuggestions]

@the-sad-ace -sobs- I DONT NEED YOU -sobs- I HAVE @puretrid NOW

[paranoidsuggestions]

-tears streaming down my face- ‘s fine, ‘s fine. its just,, a difference of opinion -broken sob- @criptids we can still be f-friends