daddy's emo crybaby

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[the-raven-lady]

Good morning / afternoon / evening / timezone, everybody.

I've been super silent the past several weeks, torn between college I was forced to do and one of the worst mental health declines in my life. I wanted to officially come in and say that, at least for the time being, my hiatus is becoming me officially stepping away from this account. I don't have the mental energy, willpower, or time to continue running it on top of grueling self-work and repeated kicks life has been giving.

This has been a really tough decision for me to mull over, and let me tell you the therapy session discussing it was fucking hilarious from an outside perspective whilst also being genuinely difficult.

I'm really grateful for everyone who has supported me. It meant and still means a lot that so many people would turn out to support my writing and art, and I've made some genuinely wonderful friends. You guys helped me get through a lot of bad events. That's invaluable to me.

I'm not going to delete anything and this blog will be staying up, but I have no intentions in the near future to post or write more. Feel free to use the characters and concepts I've shaped with you all for your own works. I'm also not totally just disappearing out of everyone's lives; please feel free to reach out to me on my discord if you have it (or if you want it, please DM me!).

Thank you all for the ride. It's been a blast.

[chaot-c]

Hey can we stop talking about powerwashing the Night Haunter (Konrad Curze) and calling it cute?

And I don't mean, "lovingly leading the Night Haunter to a bath and washing him down in a relaxing way that he consented to." I mean the depictions of trapping him and drenching him with water out of a hose because he's 'gross'.

We all know that the Night Haunter is, among many other things, a fictional representation of how mental health falls when you are not supported anywhere in your life + how you learn to cope with that. His family has successfully turned him into an 'other'- an 'us vs. them'- and he even directly calls this out to Sanguinius's face in Chapter 24 of Pharos. The entire chapter is spent on this.

He has been so abjectified that no one will even call him by his actual name. He says over and over that his name is Night Haunter, and it furthers the 'you are not one of us' ideology when none of his brothers ever have the respect to call him that. I will admit my bias as a trans person (with a dead name I still get called by) that this one grinds me in a very specific way.

Look, we know he stinks. He's covered in viscera and dried blood and untold ages worth of grime, but it's genuinely insensitive to suggest that the proper course of action is to hose him down or powerwash him then call it a service. Mental health asylums used to forcibly strip their patients to nothing and blast them with cold water to clean them off because they were in such a poor mental state that they couldn't take care of themselves. Jets of cold water were also a form of shock therapy used to, "cool off the illness."

There is nothing directly wrong with depicting Night Haunter getting hosed down like an animal if the purpose of your piece is to degrade him further. Content that depicts those sorts of negative events has a right to exist as a storytelling medium. Just don't try to make something that is actively a punishment still used today in prisons and protests into something that's totally okay and cute to do for Night Haunter because "it's just taking care of him!"

It's sad to see what he does to himself. It's comforting to think we could help him improve if we could give him the right words. Show him that he is seen for the mental struggles and scars he has, or, god forbid, maybe give him a shower and instill a new sense of something to be confident in, but perhaps recognize how the specific action of forcing someone to do something against their will might come across.

[chaot-c]

Sorry to everyone who thought I was just straight up quitting tumblr!! I don't post on my main blog as much as I did on my 40k blog for a while, but I'm still here!! Just not gonna write for 40k for the time being.

Please enjoy this silly Elias and Cary that came from @sorormaior and I being silly

[necroarchivedart1212]

[the-raven-lady]

Raven update: not dead but not good either, hiatus remains indefinite

[the-raven-lady]

More trips to the store, more reminders of... HIM...

I have fantastic news

You already know what tf is going on

[the-random-hamlet]

Not Mine. Thought to Share.

[wolfjinas]

@the-raven-lady

[the-raven-lady]

I love when this makes rounds again, thank you

[the-raven-lady]

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DAHA7dbSJSK/?igsh=MWloOTBvMGQzZ25hZg==

Funny

I saw this a few days ago then promptly forgot about it despite the fact that it made me laugh hard enough to download it

[necroarchivedart1212]

ft. @the-raven-lady 's elias

[the-raven-lady]

i am taking no questions

thank you @cannibalise for once again being a funny motherfucker

[frogblast-the-ventcore]

Me and the boys purging the enemies of the Imperium

[firstchaplainerebus]

Find out which of the 18 Primarchs are you, and let me give you a piece of advice based on your result.

[kit-williams]

THE LAST QUESTION ASKS YOU WHO YOU THINK YOU’LL GET AND I SAID THE KHAN LETS FUCKIN GO BABY

[bispecsual]

[moodymisty]

??????

[lemon-russ]

Hey whoa hey don’t say the quiet part out loud like that. I came here for silly primarch game not to have my hangups put on blast 😒

[men-want-me-fish-fear-me]

yeah…

[the-raven-lady]

You literally can't make this shit up

[the-raven-lady]

Hey guys, some things have come up and I need to take a hiatus for a little bit to sort them out. I'll be around intermittently, but I can't promise much on my end right now as I try to figure out life.

If you guys need anything from me urgently, my DMs are always open.

[moodymisty]

Need to fistfight Leandros in an abandoned parking lot for mental health reasons

same fam, fucking same

[egrets-not-regrets]

In a Walmart parking lot or the back of a Denny’s.

[the-raven-lady]

At the Waffle House. It's fucking personal.

[the-raven-lady]

Can I ask what Elias's voice is? Whose voice does he resemble? Maybe some voice actor?

This is going to throw most of you for a loop, but I always hear Elias's spoken lines in Mads Mikkelsen's voice. Specifically that lower, gravelly timbre he gets.

I'm not certain if it's his accent or mouth shape, but Mads Mikkelsen actually has the slight lisp / whistling that Elias would have when speaking.

Plus, I'm a sucker for 2013 Hannibal. Cannibal solidarity. You could easily find voice lines of things Elias would say if you watch a few Hannibal clips.

[the-raven-lady]

So Elias and Chough will have minis inbound. These are the rough draft 3D models, but there will be some modifications made to them after printing!

If anyone wants any part of the models, I can point you to where I got them from!

[wyn0rrific]

drew sum of my mootie's lil guys hehe

shemar belongs to @tanknode

seth belongs to @angronsjewelbeetle

the third lil guy is @cannibalise 's sona

elias belongs to @the-raven-lady

[the-raven-lady]

OH MY GOOOOODDDSSS HIM!!!!! I love your art style so much he looks SO good

I deeply love that everyone has their signature looks to them and that Elias's is just >:| I love my grumpy night lord so much